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how can you sit there and tell me there's a god and how all good things come from something bad. they're ten years old . and your telling me everything will work out for the best? you're joking right.. I have to sit here now and listen to my brother cry all night and not knowing how or if it would work trying to comfort him because his best friend is dying and no one can stop it. She's dying shes ten years old and she isnt going to make it any longer. she'll never go to prom, never have kids, never get married, never fall in love, never sneak out, never break the rules, never live, never grow up. she was so close to the family she was like a cousin. her and my brother were best friends before and all while she was diagnosed... not only his her little brother not going to grow up with a loving sister, he's five years old.... no five year old should lose his sister. what about her parents they lost so much all ready and now their actually daughter?? is this some kind of sick joke. becase i think this is complete crap. Now i know right this second she is alive but tomorrow she might not be here.. she could leave us at any time the doctor said. shes ten years old where is the good in that? please someone tell me becuase i cant find it anywhere and i never will. because the rest of my life i have to sit here and watch my little brother grow up without a best friend. i have to watch him cry and i have to watch him hurt i cant help him. i really cant & seeing someone you love more then anything in the whole world hurt so badly and theres no way you can change it or help them is probably one of the worst feelings in the whole entire world.. i cant help emily get better.. i cant take my brothers pain away. all i can do is remember how happy he was to see her and how exicted he was when he cold visit her and how close they were when she wasnt sick. theres nothing to do but mourn... I'm so sorry raymond.. i wish i could stop all this from happening, but i can't. i cant make things better i cant tell you it'll be alright i cant tell you that you arent going to remember this the rest of your life i cant help you and its the worst thing in the whole enitire world.

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I'm just sitting here in my bed crying for no reason. i have no idea who i am anymore all i know is i can't do this anymore. My parents are going away and they told me i could stay home & that actually seems like the best idea ever stay home drink smoke get high & god knows what else. that seems perfect its actually the only thing i want to . is get so fcccccccked up i dont even know my own name i dont want to know who i am becauase this isnt me this isnt who i want to be. i am not happy i just want to be happy i want to look into the mirror and be able to smile and say hey look its kayla i want to be able to be around people without worrying if they like me or not i want to be able to have fun with out drugs i want to make my boyfriend i want him to not have to deal with this i dont want him to leave me or find out...
i just want a friend i want someone wiling to go on this exploration of finding myself and becoming a better person then the one i turned into i want someone to accept that this isnt me i want someone to help me find who i really am and where my smile went i want someone to put up with all the bad and stick with me until we get to the good i want someone to be happy for me and share in my happiness i want to know who i am i want to know why i feeeel like this i dont want to end up depending on drugs and alchol to make me happy i want someone to love me for who i am even though im noting speical i just want to be happy . i



the only thing i do know is that i cant do this anymore all i know that each day my cuts are getting deeper and deeper & that noose on my neck is getting tighter as my feet fall offf my chair. maybe then someone will give a damn

IF YOU GUYS COULD GO TAKE THIS SURVVEY FOR ME ON THIS WEBSITE IT WOULD BE SUCH A GREAT HELP ?!?!?! Its for a sociology project and im on the brink of failing that class it would really help



http://www.surveymonkey.com/s/HWPYM8M



^ thats the link comment done or favorite this quote and i would like all your quotes.... please i really could use your help...
thankyou so much

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I just feel so numb, and incomplete
i dont know how much longer i can last
the world is to cold and im without a jacket.
bury me alive tell them it wasnt thier fault
Goodbye

for school i have to do this project i wouldn't normally do this but I'm failing and if i fail i get kicked out for school.. so girls if you could please...


i need to know your opinions on dating someone who is younger then you only by a year or two. or older which one would you perfer. Why?



Please even if its only like three of you it help me greatly. THANK YOU guys so much yous saved my life countless of times & i need you now more then ever

i just have this strange feeling that no one would care if i was gone
i have the urge to just end it all

I just want to know what i did to be this unhappy
why do i deserve this
what what did i do ?
the cuts are getting bigger
the diease is spreading
smiple slashes turns to words
& my world crumbles.
i am more worried about hiding a cut
then i am being happy
What have i become?