hey im kelsey, i love dance and gymnastics. ifuck if i care any more im done with the bullshit.i listen to asking alexandria jewel, alot more. get to know me befor you judge me.
my heart rate increases
i run to my room holding the tears back, trying not to scream
i go into my jewelry box
in search of the only thing
the one thing that calms my nerves
the one thing that helps me forget
it’s so tiny but so strong
i grab it and wipe off the dried blood from last time
i look at my arm seeing all the pale white scars
thinking what is one or two more?
i place the tip on my wrist and feel it pierce my skin
i close my eyes tight as i pull the razor across my arm slowly
feeling the warm blood drain from the fresh wounds
oozing slowly down my wrist
I repeat what i have just donemy heart rate decreases to a slow
bump bump....bump bump
my eyes open
blood shot and burning
the razor is still in my shaky hand
i just watch the bloody mess on my arm get bigger
suicidal thoughts still in my head
i throw my razor far away from me
so i don’t make any more of a mess
My body wants the razor back
wants to feel the cool sharp blade draw across my skin again
i look back at my wrist once more
realizing what i have just done
going back to my old habits
not knowing where to go
a feeling of disappointment and hate comes over me
i am helpless
my suicidal thoughts controlling my every move...