you could say this isn't how i
imagined my christmas eve.
no, i didn't think we'd get to spend it together. we live
so far apart.
but i thought we'd be talking on the phone.
or sending each other that midnight "merry christmas
:)" text.
or at least speaking.
but i can't talk to you anymore. i will NEVER talk to you
again.
christmas is my favorite time of the year and you're ruining
it for me.
you created the illusion of the perfect christmas...
the perfect new year...the perfect holiday...
in my mind and then shattered it.
along with my heart.
so is this what you wanted? did you ask to be single for
christmas?
cause i know i didn't.
i asked to spend christmas with the man that i care far more
about than any other guy that came before him.
the man i told all my secrets too.
the man who would spend the night cuddling with me just because i
was cold.
the man who was opening me up to a world of new experiences.
we were taking on the world together.
a new year, a new us, a new life.
why create the expectations for me if you had no intention of
living up to them?
so merry christmas, i guess.
it's really all i can say at this point.
i hope everyone has a merrier christmas than me.
because no one should feel this lonely on
christmas.