Okayy you just need to find someone who makes them. I like ohhshanappp she's reaaaallly good. Go to her profile. Then go to the part of her profile that says 'Layouts' and click then pick a layoutyoulikeandfill it inwitth information about yourself:)
B E. Y O U R S E L F. That's really all that is important. Trust me if I could go back and tell myself this.. Life would have been a ton easier. I know how you feel I think, because I was in your spot. It feels like we need to live up to soo many expectations of ourselves..for teachers, friends and our parents. When we should just be living to be happy :)