AerilynLilyoh

Status: life isn't the same without you
Joined: March 28, 2012
Last Seen: 8 years
user id: 287384
Location: drowning
Gender: F
I'm mostly just stupid.

Top quotes on June 11, 2012 and October 27, 2012. Thank you ♥

Quotes by AerilynLilyoh

Why are boys so complicated?
every day is a constant struggle between the part of me that wants to die and the part that is fighting to stay alive
Turning 15 today.
It's kind of crazy, isn't it?
I didn't expect to live this long.
I didn't plan on it, that's for sure.
But I did.
And I'm kind of proud about that.
I made it through these last few years.
They haven't been easy, at all.
But I've made it.
Hopefully the next few will be full of laughter, happiness, and fun.
Maybe in these next few years I'll be eating normally and not thinking about cutting.
I guess the only way to know is to keep going.
If God is all you have,
you have all you need.
death is a comforting thought
But seriously, why don't guys like me?
I want to catch you looking at me.
I want to see you smiling at me.
I want you to text me goodnight and goodmorning.
I want your friends to look at me, and smile, because they know you like me.
I want you to think I'm pretty.
Iwantyou.
Iwantyou.
Iwantyou.
I have to vent. I've been having these mixed feelings about this one guy for a really long time. He asked me to go to prom with him, and I said yes. A few weeks later, our principal told us that we weren't allowed to bring dates to the dance, because of something a group did last year. (It was a really dumb policy, there was still slow dances and stuff.) So, prom was tonight, and on the first slow dance, he asked me to dance with him. So we were talking and dancing and laughing and I swore for a second that maybe he liked me, and maybe I liked him back. A little while later, me and one of my friends, who is considered as one of the "popular" kids and people don't understand why she hangs out with me, he asked her to dance. Being the third grader that I am on the inside, it crushed me. I don't think that I like him, but whenever he flirts with other girls, I get really jealous. Like, not when he's just talking to them, but when they're full on flirting. Him and I have been really good friends since we were little, so it seems weird that I might like him. I just don't know what to think. I can't tell whether I like him or not, and it's killing me. I know it's stupid, and totally not worth fretting over, but I am anyway. If you read all that, thanks.
I just hate myself so much.
& I said that I would never become the person I became