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confession #15
today, i was doing backhandsprings with Morgan. i made her record me doing three in a row. i wasn't proud, or happy with them. i've watched the video over and over, atleast 30 times.
i want them perfect. they have to be.

confession #14
and today, he called me the prettiest girl in the world<3.

confession #13
i actually had a really good day today. i smiled, a lot. and they weren't fake. my teacher even had to tell me to stop smiling, i was distracting him(:

confession #12
it was early November, just like it is now. we were in lunch. we sat at tables next to each other. Jordan turned around and told me that Austin liked me. i was speechless. that's when i started to like him.

it was the day after Thanksgiving. my whole family knew i liked Austin. when my mom went Black Friday shopping, she got Austin's number from his grandma. i texted him, and he made me feel on top of the world. he called me. we texted. we talked all day, everyday.

that was the night we started dating. it lasted for maybe two weeks. he broke up with me because Morgan threatened to spread rumors about him. nice bestfriend and boyfriend, right?

it was the beginning of December. he texted me, out of no where. we started talking again. i fell for him, again.

we started dating on Christmas. this time, i broke up with him.
no reason, i just did. worst mistake, ever.

it was early into the school year. he liked me, as soon as he saw me. i had forgotten about him over the summer. and then, he asks me out. we date for a week, before i break up with him.

it's two years later, and i still love him. i don't know why, or how, but i just do. i still have the little slip of paper, where his grandma wrote his number down. i still remember everything he has said to me. i pass him in the halls, and i see him with other girls, and i wonder..

does he still remember too?

confession #11
when Jade told me that Michael liked Kylie, and that they were about to date, that killed me. i broke down, even though i was at Morgan's house. before she could come down stairs, i wiped up my tears and threw on one of those fake smiles that i'm so used to having.
i looked in the mirror to see if i looked okay.
then i threw my phone at the mirror. i can't take it anymore.

confession #10
i'm already getting sick of these confessions. i'm starting to annoy everybody, even myself.

confession #9
today when i got off of the bus, i saw my sister's ex-boyfriend. he beeped, and tried to wave. i didn't even look back. i hate him. he's hurt her so many times, and i know he still does. why does she let him?

confession #8
i feel like i've been eating more and more everyday. i need to start starving myself again, before it's too late.

confession #7
when i choose the secret names for my profile, there's always a reason behind it. here's why everyone has their names that they do.

Morgan - you always liked this name(: and it reminds me of my cousin's friend, who is crazy and loud, just like you(:

Alyssa - this reminds me of my sister's ex-bestfriend. they barely talk anymore. i don't want that to happen to us. ever.

Michael - this is my uncle's name that passed away. you both mean so much to me.

Hannah - i always liked that name(: it reminds me of some innocent little girl thats friends with everyone.

*there's more to come.

confession #6
i need to confess some things to my friends.

Dear Hannah,
i've never even met you, and you mean so much to me. you support everything i do, and never judge me. you give me advice, without yelling at me or lecturing me. you can always make me laugh and smile. i know we don't talk about yourself a lot though. i'm sorry. i just don't want to pressure you into telling me. just know that if you ever need me, ever, i'm always here. and always will be. you mean so much to me, and i don't know what i would do if i lost you. we've only known each other for a couple of months, and you know more about me then my closest friends do. you understand me. and you don't judge me. i hope you don't turn out like me. no one deserves to be like this. i hope that if you would ever even think about doing something like that, you would call/text me. you've helped me through so much, and i want to help you too. i hope you're okay. i hope your family isn't fighting anymore. i hope you get the guy you like. i hope your bestfriend realizes how rude that was. i hope you don't cry as much as i do. i wish you the best.
Love, Jenna.