i wish i could just eat less, or diet like a
normal person but as soon as i have even an apple its like i
loose control of myself, as if my mouth has a mind of its own and
i just eat and eat and eat.
but thats not the worst part, the worst part is after i feel so
guilty and i hate myself so i go to the bathroom and when you
hear the water running for ages thats me trying to take out the
food i put in. but it will never be good enough because i know
there is food still somewhere in there, i know i didnt get rid of
it all.
The self hate it to much for me to
handle