AnInsecureGirl

Status: Sigo cruzando ríos, andando selvas, amando el Sol
Joined: September 15, 2012
Last Seen: 7 years
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My family, friends, reading, talking, the internet, surrealism, graffiti, laughing so hard your face hurts, getting so caught up in a conversation that you forget about everything and everyone else in the world, and baking are some of my favorite things.




"If I am not free to believe, there is no value to my belief."- Abdullahi Ahmed An-Na'im




 
 
    

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AnInsecureGirl 7 years ago to AnInsecureGirl
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Yes I remember you!! Hi!!! A lot has happened. I've been up and down.
What about you??!?!?! Dude, it's been forever.
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AnInsecureGirl 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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It's alright!
I'm glad you are doing really good! And I'm doing good, too.
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AnInsecureGirl 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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Dude it is so good! Thank you for introducing me to that song!!
It's one of those songs that make you sad but at the same time to happy.
At least to me. I'm hooked.
How are you??
Sorry I haven't replied! I've been so busy
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dontsellyourselfshort 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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sorry, i'm just seeing this now, but i've been doing really good actually, how about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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It's alright!
I'm glad you are doing really good! And I'm doing good, too.
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AnInsecureGirl 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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I haven'd heard Dug my Heart. Is it on his newer album?
I really like 10,000 Emerald Pools. It always gets me.
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dontsellyourselfshort 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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Dug my Heart is on dopamine
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AnInsecureGirl 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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Dude it is so good! Thank you for introducing me to that song!!
It's one of those songs that make you sad but at the same time to happy.
At least to me. I'm hooked.
How are you??
Sorry I haven't replied! I've been so busy
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dontsellyourselfshort 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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sorry, i'm just seeing this now, but i've been doing really good actually, how about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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It's alright!
I'm glad you are doing really good! And I'm doing good, too.
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AnInsecureGirl 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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Do you have a favorita song of his?
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dontsellyourselfshort 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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It's on dopamine
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dontsellyourselfshort 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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I like the emotions, and dug my heart, how about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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I haven'd heard Dug my Heart. Is it on his newer album?
I really like 10,000 Emerald Pools. It always gets me.
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dontsellyourselfshort 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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Dug my Heart is on dopamine
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AnInsecureGirl 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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Dude it is so good! Thank you for introducing me to that song!!
It's one of those songs that make you sad but at the same time to happy.
At least to me. I'm hooked.
How are you??
Sorry I haven't replied! I've been so busy
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dontsellyourselfshort 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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sorry, i'm just seeing this now, but i've been doing really good actually, how about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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It's alright!
I'm glad you are doing really good! And I'm doing good, too.
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AnInsecureGirl 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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Oh my gosh you listen to Borns, too?
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dontsellyourselfshort 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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WHAT YES. HE IS AMAZING.
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AnInsecureGirl 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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Do you have a favorita song of his?
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dontsellyourselfshort 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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It's on dopamine
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dontsellyourselfshort 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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I like the emotions, and dug my heart, how about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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I haven'd heard Dug my Heart. Is it on his newer album?
I really like 10,000 Emerald Pools. It always gets me.
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dontsellyourselfshort 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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Dug my Heart is on dopamine
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AnInsecureGirl 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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Dude it is so good! Thank you for introducing me to that song!!
It's one of those songs that make you sad but at the same time to happy.
At least to me. I'm hooked.
How are you??
Sorry I haven't replied! I've been so busy
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dontsellyourselfshort 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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sorry, i'm just seeing this now, but i've been doing really good actually, how about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 7 years ago to dontsellyourselfshort
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It's alright!
I'm glad you are doing really good! And I'm doing good, too.
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AnInsecureGirl 8 years ago to AnInsecureGirl
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Aw, you're welcome!!! And thank you!!!
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AnInsecureGirl 8 years ago to jahan
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Sorry I was so ignorant! But I have looked more into it and you are right! 100%. The oppression part should be a quotequote, because it's true. A lot of people fail to realize that. Good too! But I miss you! Oh my goodness we haven't talked in seven months! I don't think you'll even reply to this. We need to talk!!! Where you at girl?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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hi! Oh my goodness. They erased the part where i said that a lot of people here are racists. Rac-ists. Is it going to erase it again? I should have read it over when I sent it, because I didn't realize it was erased, so it looks like I'm saying that Arab people are bad, but I'm not saying that. When those words got erased, it made it look like that. Am I making sense? Now you think I'm a horrible person!
I did more research on the U.S. and Israel issue and it turns out that the United States aided the Jewish after World War II to help them find a "homeland", while at the same time taking land from other people. And you are right. The U.S. is using Israel as a military base in the middle east, so yeah, they are funding them for their own benefit. Also, Israel receives $3 billion in U.S. assistance(weapons, really) Many see it as subsidy for American industries as said by Kenneth Pollack. Then it makes more sense. The United States is sending Israel all of these forms of weapons as a means of promoting themselves economically.
So yeah. I know that you think I'm ignorant now for sounding like an idiot. I'm sorry! I'm trying to understand all of this more. Everything form Ferguson to Palestine. But how have you been? Are you doing better with all the stress of school and the future?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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I don't think that, at all. I just hate American government and what they do. Don't care who the hell is American don't care what the hell they've achieved really don't care. Opression isn't always as obvious as you'd think. But anyway, been good thank god how about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 8 years ago to jahan
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Sorry I was so ignorant! But I have looked more into it and you are right! 100%. The oppression part should be a quotequote, because it's true. A lot of people fail to realize that. Good too! But I miss you! Oh my goodness we haven't talked in seven months! I don't think you'll even reply to this. We need to talk!!! Where you at girl?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Girl! You can do it! Of course you'll be freaked out, but that's okay. You're going to be taking a huge leap in life. I know you may feel like you're jumping off a cliff because you're overwhelmed, but I also know you'll land on your feet. So take a deep breath, and take your time.
I'm on Palestine's side, too!! My closest friends are directly from there. America funds Israel because of the massive amount of Jewish people there. Due to the past World Wars and how much they suffered during those times, the U.S. feels as if they need protection. You know? I'm not defending it, I'm just trying to explain it. Plus, with the massive amount of here, every Muslim is considered a terrorist. I hate to have to admit that. I don't understand why Muslims here are treated that way. Why people have to be so hateful to them, to anyone period. Israel needs to be stopped, though. I mean, who are they fighting? It's not a fight if the opponent doesn't fight back. So it's an attack. I try my hardest to keep up with all those news, with all the people dying, but it's too much. All those pictures of Gaza and missiles, and people. It's so sad! How does Israel continue to do what they do? If I could stop it, I would.
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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that's not why america funds israel its not all love and protection it's for their own benefit.
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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hi! Oh my goodness. They erased the part where i said that a lot of people here are racists. Rac-ists. Is it going to erase it again? I should have read it over when I sent it, because I didn't realize it was erased, so it looks like I'm saying that Arab people are bad, but I'm not saying that. When those words got erased, it made it look like that. Am I making sense? Now you think I'm a horrible person!
I did more research on the U.S. and Israel issue and it turns out that the United States aided the Jewish after World War II to help them find a "homeland", while at the same time taking land from other people. And you are right. The U.S. is using Israel as a military base in the middle east, so yeah, they are funding them for their own benefit. Also, Israel receives $3 billion in U.S. assistance(weapons, really) Many see it as subsidy for American industries as said by Kenneth Pollack. Then it makes more sense. The United States is sending Israel all of these forms of weapons as a means of promoting themselves economically.
So yeah. I know that you think I'm ignorant now for sounding like an idiot. I'm sorry! I'm trying to understand all of this more. Everything form Ferguson to Palestine. But how have you been? Are you doing better with all the stress of school and the future?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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I don't think that, at all. I just hate American government and what they do. Don't care who the hell is American don't care what the hell they've achieved really don't care. Opression isn't always as obvious as you'd think. But anyway, been good thank god how about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 8 years ago to jahan
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Sorry I was so ignorant! But I have looked more into it and you are right! 100%. The oppression part should be a quotequote, because it's true. A lot of people fail to realize that. Good too! But I miss you! Oh my goodness we haven't talked in seven months! I don't think you'll even reply to this. We need to talk!!! Where you at girl?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Oh, dang. I hadn't thought of that. It feels horrible to not be taken seriously. You'll be in college in two years?! Are you nervous or are you excited? Right? If my parents were more like so and so's parents, I'd probably be more like the kid they're comparing me to. You know what I mean? Here in the states there are people that are still neck deep in debt and they're in their 30's almost 40's. Especially teachers. College tuitions can cost up to $30,000 which is as much as they make in a year. I don't want that happening to me. Your parents have a point. You gotta stay focused on your studies. I know nothing about fashion and I'm pretty sure that if I studied it, I would still look like a mismatched quilt pieced together by a blind person. You're right! Being fashionable is just something that you have. So you don't want to work for a corporation or magazine? You want to make clothes? Oh girl, pressure does suck! I love to bake, but the minute someone tells me to bake for a certain event, I freak and ruin everything. I was supposed to make a cake for father's day. I made a superman cake, with "DAD" instead of the "s". Ya know what I mean? Well, I worked, but one layer of cake wasn't chilled enough, so it stuck to the pan when I tried to take it out and it was a mess. I covered it in fondant so no one noticed, but that didn't calm my anxiety. You just have to pick something that makes you proud of what you do. Something that you love. Psychology is something amazing. You can help so many people. Fashion is amazing, too. It helps people express themselves. Both are great things that you could be.
Me? I want to work in the law force. I want to stop slavery. I want to stop the kidnapping of little girls to be sold into marriage and prostituti0n. (Does that word get bleeped out?) Any who, yeah. That's what I want to do. I want to fight for women's rights. I'll study psychology and law to get there. Self defense and how to control weapons will be useful too. How have you been doing, though?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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that's so great, good luck I hope you manage to do that it'll be an amazing use of your time, really. I'm great thanks, it's half way through ramadan already! I have only one year left till college, not even a full one actually, but my summer has started and i have to start looking at open evenings and different colleges :S I'm so not the kind of person that gets over whelmed by this kind of thing but.... I'm freaking out i ifeel like i have no idea what to do i seriously don't what on earth am I meant to do ugh asdfghlk;. In other news, have you heard about Israel's attacks on Palestine, I know palestine have sent missiles back but they've hardly even affected Israel. I don't care what anybody says, I'm with palestine. It literally reduces me to tears seeing the torture they're being subjected to, it's horrible seeing it, cos they're pretty much my family out there being slaughtered. I'm not palestinian, but im muslim, and so are they and that binds us together more than our nationalities ever could. It's not even a Muslim against Jew thing, it's a fight over land and against 'terrorists'. the people they're blowing apart are innocent men and women and children HOW THE HELL ARE THEY TERRORISTS?! You don't have to be a Muslim to feel their pain you just have to be human! what kind of pathetic low life goverment attacks people like that? it's been going on for years and years, just type free palestine into instagram hashtags or something, or just google it to see a tiny glimpse in pictures of what they're going through. I dont understand why countries like America are funding Israel, they call Muslims terrorists, so quick to brand anybody that defends innocent people yet they fund bombs and guns that blow people to smithereens. it's pathetic, but it's a sign of the day of judgement as stated by islam, the jews will take over masjid al aqsa, one of the most famous mosques in islam which happens to be in palestine. But Muslims will take it back from them and people can call me crazy, or my felllow Muslims crazy but they only have to open their eyes to see that it's happening- it's all happening.
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Girl! You can do it! Of course you'll be freaked out, but that's okay. You're going to be taking a huge leap in life. I know you may feel like you're jumping off a cliff because you're overwhelmed, but I also know you'll land on your feet. So take a deep breath, and take your time.
I'm on Palestine's side, too!! My closest friends are directly from there. America funds Israel because of the massive amount of Jewish people there. Due to the past World Wars and how much they suffered during those times, the U.S. feels as if they need protection. You know? I'm not defending it, I'm just trying to explain it. Plus, with the massive amount of here, every Muslim is considered a terrorist. I hate to have to admit that. I don't understand why Muslims here are treated that way. Why people have to be so hateful to them, to anyone period. Israel needs to be stopped, though. I mean, who are they fighting? It's not a fight if the opponent doesn't fight back. So it's an attack. I try my hardest to keep up with all those news, with all the people dying, but it's too much. All those pictures of Gaza and missiles, and people. It's so sad! How does Israel continue to do what they do? If I could stop it, I would.
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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that's not why america funds israel its not all love and protection it's for their own benefit.
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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hi! Oh my goodness. They erased the part where i said that a lot of people here are racists. Rac-ists. Is it going to erase it again? I should have read it over when I sent it, because I didn't realize it was erased, so it looks like I'm saying that Arab people are bad, but I'm not saying that. When those words got erased, it made it look like that. Am I making sense? Now you think I'm a horrible person!
I did more research on the U.S. and Israel issue and it turns out that the United States aided the Jewish after World War II to help them find a "homeland", while at the same time taking land from other people. And you are right. The U.S. is using Israel as a military base in the middle east, so yeah, they are funding them for their own benefit. Also, Israel receives $3 billion in U.S. assistance(weapons, really) Many see it as subsidy for American industries as said by Kenneth Pollack. Then it makes more sense. The United States is sending Israel all of these forms of weapons as a means of promoting themselves economically.
So yeah. I know that you think I'm ignorant now for sounding like an idiot. I'm sorry! I'm trying to understand all of this more. Everything form Ferguson to Palestine. But how have you been? Are you doing better with all the stress of school and the future?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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I don't think that, at all. I just hate American government and what they do. Don't care who the hell is American don't care what the hell they've achieved really don't care. Opression isn't always as obvious as you'd think. But anyway, been good thank god how about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 8 years ago to jahan
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Sorry I was so ignorant! But I have looked more into it and you are right! 100%. The oppression part should be a quotequote, because it's true. A lot of people fail to realize that. Good too! But I miss you! Oh my goodness we haven't talked in seven months! I don't think you'll even reply to this. We need to talk!!! Where you at girl?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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I wish the states had that type of program. It's prepare us. Here, you go through high school trying to fit in, wasting your time, then you get thrown into the real world. Let's not forget that it's expected of you to go to college. Those bills can reach $50,000. I'm scared to my wits. I don't think I'm ready. Sure, there are 4 years left for me to get there, but time flies. Dorothy was from Kansas.. No, I didn't see her lol. You are a really good daughter! If my parents heard how you were talking they'd be all like, "Why can't you be just like her? See she respects her parents." Do you parents do that? My parents do. A lot. I literally have 100 cousins from just my dad's immediate family, and he compares me to every. single. one. That's sweet of your parents, though. If things don't work out, then they could always help you out then, right? I have to start working because my parents could never afford it. They're already telling me to apply for scholarships, which I will. I'm trying to save up all my money for college, so when I get out, I'm debt free, loan free, and can start living, you know? Plus, I want to start college funds for each of my younger siblings. I want to make sure, they don't have to worry about money when trying to get into college. At the end of the day, that's what matters. That my siblings are happy. You know what you could do? You could store away money from your income right now if you are working as taxes, you know? You could start practicing. Like if your income is 100 euros a week(hypothetically) and taxes are 10%, just take away those ten euros and store them as "taxes". Then you could use it for emergency money or something. That'll prepare you for when you have to pay taxes. Plus, it helps you save money. Speaking of college and education, what do you want to study? Are you still set on fashion?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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yeah it's good but a lot of the time people aren't taken seriously cos they're under age and it's only two weeks. yeah i know how you feel, i've got two years left till im in college and god knows it's gonna be so different. haha thanks! YES THEY DO THAT ALL THE TIME BLOODY HELL my mum doesnt do it that much anymore but gosh it's so annnoying! i just think well maybe i'd like it if you were more like so and so's parents! it's mean but i can't help it. yeah, i don't want them to have to pay yaknow? yeah that's deffinitely best so many people end up in a sh.t load of debt and it's so difficult to get out. that's so sweet, i hope you manage to do that i really do, it's great of you to look after your siblings. yeah that's a good idea, it'd kind of teach me that part of my money will inevitably always be taken away anyway. sadly i don't actualy earn anything at the moment :/ i would apply for a proper job but i know my parents would just be like focus on your education for now and they have a point but i could do things at the same time and if it gets too difficult i can quit working for a while. i don't want to actually study fashion though i want to work in it. i know it's dumb of me but i genuinely think studying fashion is pointless unless you want to work for another corporation or magazine, because you can't necessarily 'learn' what looks good, you've got to look at things and have the eye to piece them together. yeah i know there are so many themes and terms that you wouldn't know unless you studied fashion but i can't be bothered with them because when i do something as a hobby i love it but the minute i get thte pressure of doing it as a subject i hate it's guts. so if i chose to do business and fashion id study economics but not go to university, and if i chose to do psychology which i would also love i'll have to go to university to get a degree. what about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Oh, dang. I hadn't thought of that. It feels horrible to not be taken seriously. You'll be in college in two years?! Are you nervous or are you excited? Right? If my parents were more like so and so's parents, I'd probably be more like the kid they're comparing me to. You know what I mean? Here in the states there are people that are still neck deep in debt and they're in their 30's almost 40's. Especially teachers. College tuitions can cost up to $30,000 which is as much as they make in a year. I don't want that happening to me. Your parents have a point. You gotta stay focused on your studies. I know nothing about fashion and I'm pretty sure that if I studied it, I would still look like a mismatched quilt pieced together by a blind person. You're right! Being fashionable is just something that you have. So you don't want to work for a corporation or magazine? You want to make clothes? Oh girl, pressure does suck! I love to bake, but the minute someone tells me to bake for a certain event, I freak and ruin everything. I was supposed to make a cake for father's day. I made a superman cake, with "DAD" instead of the "s". Ya know what I mean? Well, I worked, but one layer of cake wasn't chilled enough, so it stuck to the pan when I tried to take it out and it was a mess. I covered it in fondant so no one noticed, but that didn't calm my anxiety. You just have to pick something that makes you proud of what you do. Something that you love. Psychology is something amazing. You can help so many people. Fashion is amazing, too. It helps people express themselves. Both are great things that you could be.
Me? I want to work in the law force. I want to stop slavery. I want to stop the kidnapping of little girls to be sold into marriage and prostituti0n. (Does that word get bleeped out?) Any who, yeah. That's what I want to do. I want to fight for women's rights. I'll study psychology and law to get there. Self defense and how to control weapons will be useful too. How have you been doing, though?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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that's so great, good luck I hope you manage to do that it'll be an amazing use of your time, really. I'm great thanks, it's half way through ramadan already! I have only one year left till college, not even a full one actually, but my summer has started and i have to start looking at open evenings and different colleges :S I'm so not the kind of person that gets over whelmed by this kind of thing but.... I'm freaking out i ifeel like i have no idea what to do i seriously don't what on earth am I meant to do ugh asdfghlk;. In other news, have you heard about Israel's attacks on Palestine, I know palestine have sent missiles back but they've hardly even affected Israel. I don't care what anybody says, I'm with palestine. It literally reduces me to tears seeing the torture they're being subjected to, it's horrible seeing it, cos they're pretty much my family out there being slaughtered. I'm not palestinian, but im muslim, and so are they and that binds us together more than our nationalities ever could. It's not even a Muslim against Jew thing, it's a fight over land and against 'terrorists'. the people they're blowing apart are innocent men and women and children HOW THE HELL ARE THEY TERRORISTS?! You don't have to be a Muslim to feel their pain you just have to be human! what kind of pathetic low life goverment attacks people like that? it's been going on for years and years, just type free palestine into instagram hashtags or something, or just google it to see a tiny glimpse in pictures of what they're going through. I dont understand why countries like America are funding Israel, they call Muslims terrorists, so quick to brand anybody that defends innocent people yet they fund bombs and guns that blow people to smithereens. it's pathetic, but it's a sign of the day of judgement as stated by islam, the jews will take over masjid al aqsa, one of the most famous mosques in islam which happens to be in palestine. But Muslims will take it back from them and people can call me crazy, or my felllow Muslims crazy but they only have to open their eyes to see that it's happening- it's all happening.
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Girl! You can do it! Of course you'll be freaked out, but that's okay. You're going to be taking a huge leap in life. I know you may feel like you're jumping off a cliff because you're overwhelmed, but I also know you'll land on your feet. So take a deep breath, and take your time.
I'm on Palestine's side, too!! My closest friends are directly from there. America funds Israel because of the massive amount of Jewish people there. Due to the past World Wars and how much they suffered during those times, the U.S. feels as if they need protection. You know? I'm not defending it, I'm just trying to explain it. Plus, with the massive amount of here, every Muslim is considered a terrorist. I hate to have to admit that. I don't understand why Muslims here are treated that way. Why people have to be so hateful to them, to anyone period. Israel needs to be stopped, though. I mean, who are they fighting? It's not a fight if the opponent doesn't fight back. So it's an attack. I try my hardest to keep up with all those news, with all the people dying, but it's too much. All those pictures of Gaza and missiles, and people. It's so sad! How does Israel continue to do what they do? If I could stop it, I would.
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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that's not why america funds israel its not all love and protection it's for their own benefit.
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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hi! Oh my goodness. They erased the part where i said that a lot of people here are racists. Rac-ists. Is it going to erase it again? I should have read it over when I sent it, because I didn't realize it was erased, so it looks like I'm saying that Arab people are bad, but I'm not saying that. When those words got erased, it made it look like that. Am I making sense? Now you think I'm a horrible person!
I did more research on the U.S. and Israel issue and it turns out that the United States aided the Jewish after World War II to help them find a "homeland", while at the same time taking land from other people. And you are right. The U.S. is using Israel as a military base in the middle east, so yeah, they are funding them for their own benefit. Also, Israel receives $3 billion in U.S. assistance(weapons, really) Many see it as subsidy for American industries as said by Kenneth Pollack. Then it makes more sense. The United States is sending Israel all of these forms of weapons as a means of promoting themselves economically.
So yeah. I know that you think I'm ignorant now for sounding like an idiot. I'm sorry! I'm trying to understand all of this more. Everything form Ferguson to Palestine. But how have you been? Are you doing better with all the stress of school and the future?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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I don't think that, at all. I just hate American government and what they do. Don't care who the hell is American don't care what the hell they've achieved really don't care. Opression isn't always as obvious as you'd think. But anyway, been good thank god how about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 8 years ago to jahan
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Sorry I was so ignorant! But I have looked more into it and you are right! 100%. The oppression part should be a quotequote, because it's true. A lot of people fail to realize that. Good too! But I miss you! Oh my goodness we haven't talked in seven months! I don't think you'll even reply to this. We need to talk!!! Where you at girl?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Man, I already respected you, but now, I admire you. That's so sweet of you t work with babies and children with special needs. I applaud you. I swear I was out of state. I was in Kansas! I haven't even called and it's been three days, so yeah, I am chickening out now. I'm not scared of you because you are pleasantly psychotic. That's the keyword: pleasant. Now, this guy was not. I am planning to buy a pepper spray. It's going to be one of those disguise ones, though. It'll either be a pen or lipstick. I also want a stun gun, but disguised a cell phone. Here's the website I'm using to buy them: http://www.womenonguard.com/ Justin case you want to check it out. In this society where it's "a girl's fault for being or attacked by a guy" we need to be protected. Oh, my gosh, I saw a post on tumblr where this girl has earphones under her hijab, and a onsie under her abayah, but no one would have ever known. Have you ever done that? Yes, I would take the job. I need to start saving up for college. That would be the reason for it. Also, I'd like to go shopping. My parents don't give me money any more. What about you?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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aww thank you :D i didn't know i was gonna get to do that i was told i was mainly gonna do fundraising for the centre, but then i found out and i was LIKE YES! kansas! :D DID YOU SEE THE WIZARD OF OZ? wait he's in emerald city kansas was where dorothy was from right? and lol clever, be careful someone might accidently use it and it would hurt... thanks but pepper spray and stun guns are illegal here, an d for good reason. AND YES story of my life i wore a onesie under my abayah the other day to my grandmas, and i spent a year of school with my headphones on underneath my hijab :D people think we're living under a rock, but EXCUUUUUSE ME we practicallly invented fashion *flips hijab off the shoulder in a cringe-worthily dramatic way* my parents give me money when i need it, but i reallly wanna make my own money so they don't have to, they have 4 private schooling fees to pay for on top of tuition, taxes, petrol, internet, mortgages blah blah i don't want to be a financial burden on them, ya know? and my mum says if i want to go to uni im gonna have to get a job cos most banks give student loans but with interest which is haram. either that or i'll have to find a halal loan. my parents would deffo pay if they could afford it but i would never accept that, like how can i accept my parents paying £50,000 for my education after they've already spent hundreds of thousands when i'm able to go out and work for it myself? i've been thinking of so many different htins and i've got some ideas though of how i can start my own living :D
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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I wish the states had that type of program. It's prepare us. Here, you go through high school trying to fit in, wasting your time, then you get thrown into the real world. Let's not forget that it's expected of you to go to college. Those bills can reach $50,000. I'm scared to my wits. I don't think I'm ready. Sure, there are 4 years left for me to get there, but time flies. Dorothy was from Kansas.. No, I didn't see her lol. You are a really good daughter! If my parents heard how you were talking they'd be all like, "Why can't you be just like her? See she respects her parents." Do you parents do that? My parents do. A lot. I literally have 100 cousins from just my dad's immediate family, and he compares me to every. single. one. That's sweet of your parents, though. If things don't work out, then they could always help you out then, right? I have to start working because my parents could never afford it. They're already telling me to apply for scholarships, which I will. I'm trying to save up all my money for college, so when I get out, I'm debt free, loan free, and can start living, you know? Plus, I want to start college funds for each of my younger siblings. I want to make sure, they don't have to worry about money when trying to get into college. At the end of the day, that's what matters. That my siblings are happy. You know what you could do? You could store away money from your income right now if you are working as taxes, you know? You could start practicing. Like if your income is 100 euros a week(hypothetically) and taxes are 10%, just take away those ten euros and store them as "taxes". Then you could use it for emergency money or something. That'll prepare you for when you have to pay taxes. Plus, it helps you save money. Speaking of college and education, what do you want to study? Are you still set on fashion?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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yeah it's good but a lot of the time people aren't taken seriously cos they're under age and it's only two weeks. yeah i know how you feel, i've got two years left till im in college and god knows it's gonna be so different. haha thanks! YES THEY DO THAT ALL THE TIME BLOODY HELL my mum doesnt do it that much anymore but gosh it's so annnoying! i just think well maybe i'd like it if you were more like so and so's parents! it's mean but i can't help it. yeah, i don't want them to have to pay yaknow? yeah that's deffinitely best so many people end up in a sh.t load of debt and it's so difficult to get out. that's so sweet, i hope you manage to do that i really do, it's great of you to look after your siblings. yeah that's a good idea, it'd kind of teach me that part of my money will inevitably always be taken away anyway. sadly i don't actualy earn anything at the moment :/ i would apply for a proper job but i know my parents would just be like focus on your education for now and they have a point but i could do things at the same time and if it gets too difficult i can quit working for a while. i don't want to actually study fashion though i want to work in it. i know it's dumb of me but i genuinely think studying fashion is pointless unless you want to work for another corporation or magazine, because you can't necessarily 'learn' what looks good, you've got to look at things and have the eye to piece them together. yeah i know there are so many themes and terms that you wouldn't know unless you studied fashion but i can't be bothered with them because when i do something as a hobby i love it but the minute i get thte pressure of doing it as a subject i hate it's guts. so if i chose to do business and fashion id study economics but not go to university, and if i chose to do psychology which i would also love i'll have to go to university to get a degree. what about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Oh, dang. I hadn't thought of that. It feels horrible to not be taken seriously. You'll be in college in two years?! Are you nervous or are you excited? Right? If my parents were more like so and so's parents, I'd probably be more like the kid they're comparing me to. You know what I mean? Here in the states there are people that are still neck deep in debt and they're in their 30's almost 40's. Especially teachers. College tuitions can cost up to $30,000 which is as much as they make in a year. I don't want that happening to me. Your parents have a point. You gotta stay focused on your studies. I know nothing about fashion and I'm pretty sure that if I studied it, I would still look like a mismatched quilt pieced together by a blind person. You're right! Being fashionable is just something that you have. So you don't want to work for a corporation or magazine? You want to make clothes? Oh girl, pressure does suck! I love to bake, but the minute someone tells me to bake for a certain event, I freak and ruin everything. I was supposed to make a cake for father's day. I made a superman cake, with "DAD" instead of the "s". Ya know what I mean? Well, I worked, but one layer of cake wasn't chilled enough, so it stuck to the pan when I tried to take it out and it was a mess. I covered it in fondant so no one noticed, but that didn't calm my anxiety. You just have to pick something that makes you proud of what you do. Something that you love. Psychology is something amazing. You can help so many people. Fashion is amazing, too. It helps people express themselves. Both are great things that you could be.
Me? I want to work in the law force. I want to stop slavery. I want to stop the kidnapping of little girls to be sold into marriage and prostituti0n. (Does that word get bleeped out?) Any who, yeah. That's what I want to do. I want to fight for women's rights. I'll study psychology and law to get there. Self defense and how to control weapons will be useful too. How have you been doing, though?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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that's so great, good luck I hope you manage to do that it'll be an amazing use of your time, really. I'm great thanks, it's half way through ramadan already! I have only one year left till college, not even a full one actually, but my summer has started and i have to start looking at open evenings and different colleges :S I'm so not the kind of person that gets over whelmed by this kind of thing but.... I'm freaking out i ifeel like i have no idea what to do i seriously don't what on earth am I meant to do ugh asdfghlk;. In other news, have you heard about Israel's attacks on Palestine, I know palestine have sent missiles back but they've hardly even affected Israel. I don't care what anybody says, I'm with palestine. It literally reduces me to tears seeing the torture they're being subjected to, it's horrible seeing it, cos they're pretty much my family out there being slaughtered. I'm not palestinian, but im muslim, and so are they and that binds us together more than our nationalities ever could. It's not even a Muslim against Jew thing, it's a fight over land and against 'terrorists'. the people they're blowing apart are innocent men and women and children HOW THE HELL ARE THEY TERRORISTS?! You don't have to be a Muslim to feel their pain you just have to be human! what kind of pathetic low life goverment attacks people like that? it's been going on for years and years, just type free palestine into instagram hashtags or something, or just google it to see a tiny glimpse in pictures of what they're going through. I dont understand why countries like America are funding Israel, they call Muslims terrorists, so quick to brand anybody that defends innocent people yet they fund bombs and guns that blow people to smithereens. it's pathetic, but it's a sign of the day of judgement as stated by islam, the jews will take over masjid al aqsa, one of the most famous mosques in islam which happens to be in palestine. But Muslims will take it back from them and people can call me crazy, or my felllow Muslims crazy but they only have to open their eyes to see that it's happening- it's all happening.
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Girl! You can do it! Of course you'll be freaked out, but that's okay. You're going to be taking a huge leap in life. I know you may feel like you're jumping off a cliff because you're overwhelmed, but I also know you'll land on your feet. So take a deep breath, and take your time.
I'm on Palestine's side, too!! My closest friends are directly from there. America funds Israel because of the massive amount of Jewish people there. Due to the past World Wars and how much they suffered during those times, the U.S. feels as if they need protection. You know? I'm not defending it, I'm just trying to explain it. Plus, with the massive amount of here, every Muslim is considered a terrorist. I hate to have to admit that. I don't understand why Muslims here are treated that way. Why people have to be so hateful to them, to anyone period. Israel needs to be stopped, though. I mean, who are they fighting? It's not a fight if the opponent doesn't fight back. So it's an attack. I try my hardest to keep up with all those news, with all the people dying, but it's too much. All those pictures of Gaza and missiles, and people. It's so sad! How does Israel continue to do what they do? If I could stop it, I would.
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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that's not why america funds israel its not all love and protection it's for their own benefit.
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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hi! Oh my goodness. They erased the part where i said that a lot of people here are racists. Rac-ists. Is it going to erase it again? I should have read it over when I sent it, because I didn't realize it was erased, so it looks like I'm saying that Arab people are bad, but I'm not saying that. When those words got erased, it made it look like that. Am I making sense? Now you think I'm a horrible person!
I did more research on the U.S. and Israel issue and it turns out that the United States aided the Jewish after World War II to help them find a "homeland", while at the same time taking land from other people. And you are right. The U.S. is using Israel as a military base in the middle east, so yeah, they are funding them for their own benefit. Also, Israel receives $3 billion in U.S. assistance(weapons, really) Many see it as subsidy for American industries as said by Kenneth Pollack. Then it makes more sense. The United States is sending Israel all of these forms of weapons as a means of promoting themselves economically.
So yeah. I know that you think I'm ignorant now for sounding like an idiot. I'm sorry! I'm trying to understand all of this more. Everything form Ferguson to Palestine. But how have you been? Are you doing better with all the stress of school and the future?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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I don't think that, at all. I just hate American government and what they do. Don't care who the hell is American don't care what the hell they've achieved really don't care. Opression isn't always as obvious as you'd think. But anyway, been good thank god how about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 8 years ago to jahan
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Sorry I was so ignorant! But I have looked more into it and you are right! 100%. The oppression part should be a quotequote, because it's true. A lot of people fail to realize that. Good too! But I miss you! Oh my goodness we haven't talked in seven months! I don't think you'll even reply to this. We need to talk!!! Where you at girl?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to CallMeItzel
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girl, gottta tell you some big news!
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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You are. You just got a way with words. It was for a job at this ice cream shop. I went to the first interview and all went well, but the guy interviewing me was kind of creepy. He kept telling me that he was pleasantly psychotic. Another interview was set up for yesterday, but I didn't go 'cause I was out of state. I don't think I'll be getting the job. About the attire, you don't really want to look messy. You gotta look professional(well, depending on the work field.) You could wear some black slacks, some black shoes, and a white button down. That is what most people wear to interviews or their first day on the job. Plus, if you're working at a fast food place, you usually wear black pants, a button down, and black shoes. I hope all goes well when you go to the work event/thing!
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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thanks! it's basically this thing we do in england, well London at least i think most of the other parts of the country do, but basically in about year ten or eleven, and then once again in college, we do 'work experience', where we work for a week or two, unpaid, to see what it's like to work in real life. i'm doing it in a community centre, i get to organise an event and play with babies and help disabled children play football :D:D:D 'out of state'? is that you chickening out? WHY DID YOU DO THAT?! i'm pleasantly psychotic and you're not scared of me, why are you scared of this dude? just carry some pepper spray or something with you ;D I wanna dress like that but i dont know, cos i wear an abayah i don't really wear normal clothes much, i'm trying to get myself into wearing long skirts and stuff though cos i don't want to use my abayah as an excuse to dress slobby cos that pretty much defeats the purpose, know what i mean? so if you do happen to take the job even after skiving off (silly child) would you take it?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Man, I already respected you, but now, I admire you. That's so sweet of you t work with babies and children with special needs. I applaud you. I swear I was out of state. I was in Kansas! I haven't even called and it's been three days, so yeah, I am chickening out now. I'm not scared of you because you are pleasantly psychotic. That's the keyword: pleasant. Now, this guy was not. I am planning to buy a pepper spray. It's going to be one of those disguise ones, though. It'll either be a pen or lipstick. I also want a stun gun, but disguised a cell phone. Here's the website I'm using to buy them: http://www.womenonguard.com/ Justin case you want to check it out. In this society where it's "a girl's fault for being or attacked by a guy" we need to be protected. Oh, my gosh, I saw a post on tumblr where this girl has earphones under her hijab, and a onsie under her abayah, but no one would have ever known. Have you ever done that? Yes, I would take the job. I need to start saving up for college. That would be the reason for it. Also, I'd like to go shopping. My parents don't give me money any more. What about you?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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aww thank you :D i didn't know i was gonna get to do that i was told i was mainly gonna do fundraising for the centre, but then i found out and i was LIKE YES! kansas! :D DID YOU SEE THE WIZARD OF OZ? wait he's in emerald city kansas was where dorothy was from right? and lol clever, be careful someone might accidently use it and it would hurt... thanks but pepper spray and stun guns are illegal here, an d for good reason. AND YES story of my life i wore a onesie under my abayah the other day to my grandmas, and i spent a year of school with my headphones on underneath my hijab :D people think we're living under a rock, but EXCUUUUUSE ME we practicallly invented fashion *flips hijab off the shoulder in a cringe-worthily dramatic way* my parents give me money when i need it, but i reallly wanna make my own money so they don't have to, they have 4 private schooling fees to pay for on top of tuition, taxes, petrol, internet, mortgages blah blah i don't want to be a financial burden on them, ya know? and my mum says if i want to go to uni im gonna have to get a job cos most banks give student loans but with interest which is haram. either that or i'll have to find a halal loan. my parents would deffo pay if they could afford it but i would never accept that, like how can i accept my parents paying £50,000 for my education after they've already spent hundreds of thousands when i'm able to go out and work for it myself? i've been thinking of so many different htins and i've got some ideas though of how i can start my own living :D
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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I wish the states had that type of program. It's prepare us. Here, you go through high school trying to fit in, wasting your time, then you get thrown into the real world. Let's not forget that it's expected of you to go to college. Those bills can reach $50,000. I'm scared to my wits. I don't think I'm ready. Sure, there are 4 years left for me to get there, but time flies. Dorothy was from Kansas.. No, I didn't see her lol. You are a really good daughter! If my parents heard how you were talking they'd be all like, "Why can't you be just like her? See she respects her parents." Do you parents do that? My parents do. A lot. I literally have 100 cousins from just my dad's immediate family, and he compares me to every. single. one. That's sweet of your parents, though. If things don't work out, then they could always help you out then, right? I have to start working because my parents could never afford it. They're already telling me to apply for scholarships, which I will. I'm trying to save up all my money for college, so when I get out, I'm debt free, loan free, and can start living, you know? Plus, I want to start college funds for each of my younger siblings. I want to make sure, they don't have to worry about money when trying to get into college. At the end of the day, that's what matters. That my siblings are happy. You know what you could do? You could store away money from your income right now if you are working as taxes, you know? You could start practicing. Like if your income is 100 euros a week(hypothetically) and taxes are 10%, just take away those ten euros and store them as "taxes". Then you could use it for emergency money or something. That'll prepare you for when you have to pay taxes. Plus, it helps you save money. Speaking of college and education, what do you want to study? Are you still set on fashion?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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yeah it's good but a lot of the time people aren't taken seriously cos they're under age and it's only two weeks. yeah i know how you feel, i've got two years left till im in college and god knows it's gonna be so different. haha thanks! YES THEY DO THAT ALL THE TIME BLOODY HELL my mum doesnt do it that much anymore but gosh it's so annnoying! i just think well maybe i'd like it if you were more like so and so's parents! it's mean but i can't help it. yeah, i don't want them to have to pay yaknow? yeah that's deffinitely best so many people end up in a sh.t load of debt and it's so difficult to get out. that's so sweet, i hope you manage to do that i really do, it's great of you to look after your siblings. yeah that's a good idea, it'd kind of teach me that part of my money will inevitably always be taken away anyway. sadly i don't actualy earn anything at the moment :/ i would apply for a proper job but i know my parents would just be like focus on your education for now and they have a point but i could do things at the same time and if it gets too difficult i can quit working for a while. i don't want to actually study fashion though i want to work in it. i know it's dumb of me but i genuinely think studying fashion is pointless unless you want to work for another corporation or magazine, because you can't necessarily 'learn' what looks good, you've got to look at things and have the eye to piece them together. yeah i know there are so many themes and terms that you wouldn't know unless you studied fashion but i can't be bothered with them because when i do something as a hobby i love it but the minute i get thte pressure of doing it as a subject i hate it's guts. so if i chose to do business and fashion id study economics but not go to university, and if i chose to do psychology which i would also love i'll have to go to university to get a degree. what about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Oh, dang. I hadn't thought of that. It feels horrible to not be taken seriously. You'll be in college in two years?! Are you nervous or are you excited? Right? If my parents were more like so and so's parents, I'd probably be more like the kid they're comparing me to. You know what I mean? Here in the states there are people that are still neck deep in debt and they're in their 30's almost 40's. Especially teachers. College tuitions can cost up to $30,000 which is as much as they make in a year. I don't want that happening to me. Your parents have a point. You gotta stay focused on your studies. I know nothing about fashion and I'm pretty sure that if I studied it, I would still look like a mismatched quilt pieced together by a blind person. You're right! Being fashionable is just something that you have. So you don't want to work for a corporation or magazine? You want to make clothes? Oh girl, pressure does suck! I love to bake, but the minute someone tells me to bake for a certain event, I freak and ruin everything. I was supposed to make a cake for father's day. I made a superman cake, with "DAD" instead of the "s". Ya know what I mean? Well, I worked, but one layer of cake wasn't chilled enough, so it stuck to the pan when I tried to take it out and it was a mess. I covered it in fondant so no one noticed, but that didn't calm my anxiety. You just have to pick something that makes you proud of what you do. Something that you love. Psychology is something amazing. You can help so many people. Fashion is amazing, too. It helps people express themselves. Both are great things that you could be.
Me? I want to work in the law force. I want to stop slavery. I want to stop the kidnapping of little girls to be sold into marriage and prostituti0n. (Does that word get bleeped out?) Any who, yeah. That's what I want to do. I want to fight for women's rights. I'll study psychology and law to get there. Self defense and how to control weapons will be useful too. How have you been doing, though?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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that's so great, good luck I hope you manage to do that it'll be an amazing use of your time, really. I'm great thanks, it's half way through ramadan already! I have only one year left till college, not even a full one actually, but my summer has started and i have to start looking at open evenings and different colleges :S I'm so not the kind of person that gets over whelmed by this kind of thing but.... I'm freaking out i ifeel like i have no idea what to do i seriously don't what on earth am I meant to do ugh asdfghlk;. In other news, have you heard about Israel's attacks on Palestine, I know palestine have sent missiles back but they've hardly even affected Israel. I don't care what anybody says, I'm with palestine. It literally reduces me to tears seeing the torture they're being subjected to, it's horrible seeing it, cos they're pretty much my family out there being slaughtered. I'm not palestinian, but im muslim, and so are they and that binds us together more than our nationalities ever could. It's not even a Muslim against Jew thing, it's a fight over land and against 'terrorists'. the people they're blowing apart are innocent men and women and children HOW THE HELL ARE THEY TERRORISTS?! You don't have to be a Muslim to feel their pain you just have to be human! what kind of pathetic low life goverment attacks people like that? it's been going on for years and years, just type free palestine into instagram hashtags or something, or just google it to see a tiny glimpse in pictures of what they're going through. I dont understand why countries like America are funding Israel, they call Muslims terrorists, so quick to brand anybody that defends innocent people yet they fund bombs and guns that blow people to smithereens. it's pathetic, but it's a sign of the day of judgement as stated by islam, the jews will take over masjid al aqsa, one of the most famous mosques in islam which happens to be in palestine. But Muslims will take it back from them and people can call me crazy, or my felllow Muslims crazy but they only have to open their eyes to see that it's happening- it's all happening.
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Girl! You can do it! Of course you'll be freaked out, but that's okay. You're going to be taking a huge leap in life. I know you may feel like you're jumping off a cliff because you're overwhelmed, but I also know you'll land on your feet. So take a deep breath, and take your time.
I'm on Palestine's side, too!! My closest friends are directly from there. America funds Israel because of the massive amount of Jewish people there. Due to the past World Wars and how much they suffered during those times, the U.S. feels as if they need protection. You know? I'm not defending it, I'm just trying to explain it. Plus, with the massive amount of here, every Muslim is considered a terrorist. I hate to have to admit that. I don't understand why Muslims here are treated that way. Why people have to be so hateful to them, to anyone period. Israel needs to be stopped, though. I mean, who are they fighting? It's not a fight if the opponent doesn't fight back. So it's an attack. I try my hardest to keep up with all those news, with all the people dying, but it's too much. All those pictures of Gaza and missiles, and people. It's so sad! How does Israel continue to do what they do? If I could stop it, I would.
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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that's not why america funds israel its not all love and protection it's for their own benefit.
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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hi! Oh my goodness. They erased the part where i said that a lot of people here are racists. Rac-ists. Is it going to erase it again? I should have read it over when I sent it, because I didn't realize it was erased, so it looks like I'm saying that Arab people are bad, but I'm not saying that. When those words got erased, it made it look like that. Am I making sense? Now you think I'm a horrible person!
I did more research on the U.S. and Israel issue and it turns out that the United States aided the Jewish after World War II to help them find a "homeland", while at the same time taking land from other people. And you are right. The U.S. is using Israel as a military base in the middle east, so yeah, they are funding them for their own benefit. Also, Israel receives $3 billion in U.S. assistance(weapons, really) Many see it as subsidy for American industries as said by Kenneth Pollack. Then it makes more sense. The United States is sending Israel all of these forms of weapons as a means of promoting themselves economically.
So yeah. I know that you think I'm ignorant now for sounding like an idiot. I'm sorry! I'm trying to understand all of this more. Everything form Ferguson to Palestine. But how have you been? Are you doing better with all the stress of school and the future?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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I don't think that, at all. I just hate American government and what they do. Don't care who the hell is American don't care what the hell they've achieved really don't care. Opression isn't always as obvious as you'd think. But anyway, been good thank god how about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 8 years ago to jahan
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Sorry I was so ignorant! But I have looked more into it and you are right! 100%. The oppression part should be a quotequote, because it's true. A lot of people fail to realize that. Good too! But I miss you! Oh my goodness we haven't talked in seven months! I don't think you'll even reply to this. We need to talk!!! Where you at girl?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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The Muslim kids eat lunch later than in the usual schedule, so they're separated from non-Muslims. Not drastically different, but still, slightly altered. Girl, I couldn't have said it better. That's what the definition for family should be. Right there. Either "rather underwhelming, but then other times they're COMPLETELY OVERWHELMING". Every party's like that, huh? Each single one. Then, when there's a family member of a relative that's not your relative(you know what I mean?) it can be extremely awkward. Just my family?
Rant all you want, man. Express your words while you still got air and someone who'll listen.
Oh, and today I have a job interview. I'll try my hardest. Hopefully I get the job!
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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haha thanks I'm just so poetic you see ;D omg a job interview?! with what? for what? summer job? exciting!!!! what are you gonna wear? (im sorry i have work experience comping up and evveryones asking me that so i feel like ive got to ask you that too) :D
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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haha thanks I'm just so poetic you see ;D omg a job interview?! with what? for what? summer job? exciting!!!! what are you gonna wear? (im sorry i have work experience comping up and evveryones asking me that so i feel like ive got to ask you that too) :D
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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You are. You just got a way with words. It was for a job at this ice cream shop. I went to the first interview and all went well, but the guy interviewing me was kind of creepy. He kept telling me that he was pleasantly psychotic. Another interview was set up for yesterday, but I didn't go 'cause I was out of state. I don't think I'll be getting the job. About the attire, you don't really want to look messy. You gotta look professional(well, depending on the work field.) You could wear some black slacks, some black shoes, and a white button down. That is what most people wear to interviews or their first day on the job. Plus, if you're working at a fast food place, you usually wear black pants, a button down, and black shoes. I hope all goes well when you go to the work event/thing!
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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thanks! it's basically this thing we do in england, well London at least i think most of the other parts of the country do, but basically in about year ten or eleven, and then once again in college, we do 'work experience', where we work for a week or two, unpaid, to see what it's like to work in real life. i'm doing it in a community centre, i get to organise an event and play with babies and help disabled children play football :D:D:D 'out of state'? is that you chickening out? WHY DID YOU DO THAT?! i'm pleasantly psychotic and you're not scared of me, why are you scared of this dude? just carry some pepper spray or something with you ;D I wanna dress like that but i dont know, cos i wear an abayah i don't really wear normal clothes much, i'm trying to get myself into wearing long skirts and stuff though cos i don't want to use my abayah as an excuse to dress slobby cos that pretty much defeats the purpose, know what i mean? so if you do happen to take the job even after skiving off (silly child) would you take it?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Man, I already respected you, but now, I admire you. That's so sweet of you t work with babies and children with special needs. I applaud you. I swear I was out of state. I was in Kansas! I haven't even called and it's been three days, so yeah, I am chickening out now. I'm not scared of you because you are pleasantly psychotic. That's the keyword: pleasant. Now, this guy was not. I am planning to buy a pepper spray. It's going to be one of those disguise ones, though. It'll either be a pen or lipstick. I also want a stun gun, but disguised a cell phone. Here's the website I'm using to buy them: http://www.womenonguard.com/ Justin case you want to check it out. In this society where it's "a girl's fault for being or attacked by a guy" we need to be protected. Oh, my gosh, I saw a post on tumblr where this girl has earphones under her hijab, and a onsie under her abayah, but no one would have ever known. Have you ever done that? Yes, I would take the job. I need to start saving up for college. That would be the reason for it. Also, I'd like to go shopping. My parents don't give me money any more. What about you?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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aww thank you :D i didn't know i was gonna get to do that i was told i was mainly gonna do fundraising for the centre, but then i found out and i was LIKE YES! kansas! :D DID YOU SEE THE WIZARD OF OZ? wait he's in emerald city kansas was where dorothy was from right? and lol clever, be careful someone might accidently use it and it would hurt... thanks but pepper spray and stun guns are illegal here, an d for good reason. AND YES story of my life i wore a onesie under my abayah the other day to my grandmas, and i spent a year of school with my headphones on underneath my hijab :D people think we're living under a rock, but EXCUUUUUSE ME we practicallly invented fashion *flips hijab off the shoulder in a cringe-worthily dramatic way* my parents give me money when i need it, but i reallly wanna make my own money so they don't have to, they have 4 private schooling fees to pay for on top of tuition, taxes, petrol, internet, mortgages blah blah i don't want to be a financial burden on them, ya know? and my mum says if i want to go to uni im gonna have to get a job cos most banks give student loans but with interest which is haram. either that or i'll have to find a halal loan. my parents would deffo pay if they could afford it but i would never accept that, like how can i accept my parents paying £50,000 for my education after they've already spent hundreds of thousands when i'm able to go out and work for it myself? i've been thinking of so many different htins and i've got some ideas though of how i can start my own living :D
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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I wish the states had that type of program. It's prepare us. Here, you go through high school trying to fit in, wasting your time, then you get thrown into the real world. Let's not forget that it's expected of you to go to college. Those bills can reach $50,000. I'm scared to my wits. I don't think I'm ready. Sure, there are 4 years left for me to get there, but time flies. Dorothy was from Kansas.. No, I didn't see her lol. You are a really good daughter! If my parents heard how you were talking they'd be all like, "Why can't you be just like her? See she respects her parents." Do you parents do that? My parents do. A lot. I literally have 100 cousins from just my dad's immediate family, and he compares me to every. single. one. That's sweet of your parents, though. If things don't work out, then they could always help you out then, right? I have to start working because my parents could never afford it. They're already telling me to apply for scholarships, which I will. I'm trying to save up all my money for college, so when I get out, I'm debt free, loan free, and can start living, you know? Plus, I want to start college funds for each of my younger siblings. I want to make sure, they don't have to worry about money when trying to get into college. At the end of the day, that's what matters. That my siblings are happy. You know what you could do? You could store away money from your income right now if you are working as taxes, you know? You could start practicing. Like if your income is 100 euros a week(hypothetically) and taxes are 10%, just take away those ten euros and store them as "taxes". Then you could use it for emergency money or something. That'll prepare you for when you have to pay taxes. Plus, it helps you save money. Speaking of college and education, what do you want to study? Are you still set on fashion?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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yeah it's good but a lot of the time people aren't taken seriously cos they're under age and it's only two weeks. yeah i know how you feel, i've got two years left till im in college and god knows it's gonna be so different. haha thanks! YES THEY DO THAT ALL THE TIME BLOODY HELL my mum doesnt do it that much anymore but gosh it's so annnoying! i just think well maybe i'd like it if you were more like so and so's parents! it's mean but i can't help it. yeah, i don't want them to have to pay yaknow? yeah that's deffinitely best so many people end up in a sh.t load of debt and it's so difficult to get out. that's so sweet, i hope you manage to do that i really do, it's great of you to look after your siblings. yeah that's a good idea, it'd kind of teach me that part of my money will inevitably always be taken away anyway. sadly i don't actualy earn anything at the moment :/ i would apply for a proper job but i know my parents would just be like focus on your education for now and they have a point but i could do things at the same time and if it gets too difficult i can quit working for a while. i don't want to actually study fashion though i want to work in it. i know it's dumb of me but i genuinely think studying fashion is pointless unless you want to work for another corporation or magazine, because you can't necessarily 'learn' what looks good, you've got to look at things and have the eye to piece them together. yeah i know there are so many themes and terms that you wouldn't know unless you studied fashion but i can't be bothered with them because when i do something as a hobby i love it but the minute i get thte pressure of doing it as a subject i hate it's guts. so if i chose to do business and fashion id study economics but not go to university, and if i chose to do psychology which i would also love i'll have to go to university to get a degree. what about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Oh, dang. I hadn't thought of that. It feels horrible to not be taken seriously. You'll be in college in two years?! Are you nervous or are you excited? Right? If my parents were more like so and so's parents, I'd probably be more like the kid they're comparing me to. You know what I mean? Here in the states there are people that are still neck deep in debt and they're in their 30's almost 40's. Especially teachers. College tuitions can cost up to $30,000 which is as much as they make in a year. I don't want that happening to me. Your parents have a point. You gotta stay focused on your studies. I know nothing about fashion and I'm pretty sure that if I studied it, I would still look like a mismatched quilt pieced together by a blind person. You're right! Being fashionable is just something that you have. So you don't want to work for a corporation or magazine? You want to make clothes? Oh girl, pressure does suck! I love to bake, but the minute someone tells me to bake for a certain event, I freak and ruin everything. I was supposed to make a cake for father's day. I made a superman cake, with "DAD" instead of the "s". Ya know what I mean? Well, I worked, but one layer of cake wasn't chilled enough, so it stuck to the pan when I tried to take it out and it was a mess. I covered it in fondant so no one noticed, but that didn't calm my anxiety. You just have to pick something that makes you proud of what you do. Something that you love. Psychology is something amazing. You can help so many people. Fashion is amazing, too. It helps people express themselves. Both are great things that you could be.
Me? I want to work in the law force. I want to stop slavery. I want to stop the kidnapping of little girls to be sold into marriage and prostituti0n. (Does that word get bleeped out?) Any who, yeah. That's what I want to do. I want to fight for women's rights. I'll study psychology and law to get there. Self defense and how to control weapons will be useful too. How have you been doing, though?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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that's so great, good luck I hope you manage to do that it'll be an amazing use of your time, really. I'm great thanks, it's half way through ramadan already! I have only one year left till college, not even a full one actually, but my summer has started and i have to start looking at open evenings and different colleges :S I'm so not the kind of person that gets over whelmed by this kind of thing but.... I'm freaking out i ifeel like i have no idea what to do i seriously don't what on earth am I meant to do ugh asdfghlk;. In other news, have you heard about Israel's attacks on Palestine, I know palestine have sent missiles back but they've hardly even affected Israel. I don't care what anybody says, I'm with palestine. It literally reduces me to tears seeing the torture they're being subjected to, it's horrible seeing it, cos they're pretty much my family out there being slaughtered. I'm not palestinian, but im muslim, and so are they and that binds us together more than our nationalities ever could. It's not even a Muslim against Jew thing, it's a fight over land and against 'terrorists'. the people they're blowing apart are innocent men and women and children HOW THE HELL ARE THEY TERRORISTS?! You don't have to be a Muslim to feel their pain you just have to be human! what kind of pathetic low life goverment attacks people like that? it's been going on for years and years, just type free palestine into instagram hashtags or something, or just google it to see a tiny glimpse in pictures of what they're going through. I dont understand why countries like America are funding Israel, they call Muslims terrorists, so quick to brand anybody that defends innocent people yet they fund bombs and guns that blow people to smithereens. it's pathetic, but it's a sign of the day of judgement as stated by islam, the jews will take over masjid al aqsa, one of the most famous mosques in islam which happens to be in palestine. But Muslims will take it back from them and people can call me crazy, or my felllow Muslims crazy but they only have to open their eyes to see that it's happening- it's all happening.
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Girl! You can do it! Of course you'll be freaked out, but that's okay. You're going to be taking a huge leap in life. I know you may feel like you're jumping off a cliff because you're overwhelmed, but I also know you'll land on your feet. So take a deep breath, and take your time.
I'm on Palestine's side, too!! My closest friends are directly from there. America funds Israel because of the massive amount of Jewish people there. Due to the past World Wars and how much they suffered during those times, the U.S. feels as if they need protection. You know? I'm not defending it, I'm just trying to explain it. Plus, with the massive amount of here, every Muslim is considered a terrorist. I hate to have to admit that. I don't understand why Muslims here are treated that way. Why people have to be so hateful to them, to anyone period. Israel needs to be stopped, though. I mean, who are they fighting? It's not a fight if the opponent doesn't fight back. So it's an attack. I try my hardest to keep up with all those news, with all the people dying, but it's too much. All those pictures of Gaza and missiles, and people. It's so sad! How does Israel continue to do what they do? If I could stop it, I would.
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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that's not why america funds israel its not all love and protection it's for their own benefit.
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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hi! Oh my goodness. They erased the part where i said that a lot of people here are racists. Rac-ists. Is it going to erase it again? I should have read it over when I sent it, because I didn't realize it was erased, so it looks like I'm saying that Arab people are bad, but I'm not saying that. When those words got erased, it made it look like that. Am I making sense? Now you think I'm a horrible person!
I did more research on the U.S. and Israel issue and it turns out that the United States aided the Jewish after World War II to help them find a "homeland", while at the same time taking land from other people. And you are right. The U.S. is using Israel as a military base in the middle east, so yeah, they are funding them for their own benefit. Also, Israel receives $3 billion in U.S. assistance(weapons, really) Many see it as subsidy for American industries as said by Kenneth Pollack. Then it makes more sense. The United States is sending Israel all of these forms of weapons as a means of promoting themselves economically.
So yeah. I know that you think I'm ignorant now for sounding like an idiot. I'm sorry! I'm trying to understand all of this more. Everything form Ferguson to Palestine. But how have you been? Are you doing better with all the stress of school and the future?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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I don't think that, at all. I just hate American government and what they do. Don't care who the hell is American don't care what the hell they've achieved really don't care. Opression isn't always as obvious as you'd think. But anyway, been good thank god how about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 8 years ago to jahan
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Sorry I was so ignorant! But I have looked more into it and you are right! 100%. The oppression part should be a quotequote, because it's true. A lot of people fail to realize that. Good too! But I miss you! Oh my goodness we haven't talked in seven months! I don't think you'll even reply to this. We need to talk!!! Where you at girl?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Aw, I just knew you would make me feel better! I'll read that every morning, man. It's that sweet. Well, the meaning is. I live in the very eventful(note my sarcasm) state of Oklahoma. Wait, so you start school in June or it ends in June? Will you have to make up the days later? Kids that celebrate Ramadan here just get a different schedule for the time needed, so they eat later than usual. I think it'd be much more convenient for school to be ended early, like yours. Are you going to get together with family for Eid?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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i'm so glad!! haha you do that man ;D and that's cool! it sounds awesome cos i've never been there lol :D and my holiday starts in june lol so school finishes in june haha :D and yeah sort of, we've been missing out holidays throughout the year that other schools have gotten to make up for the fact that we're missing so much school during the summer. what do you mean by different schedule? and oooh get you, you know all about it dont you? hehehe yeah we do that everyear. it gets kinda boring but i guess that's just me being really ungrateful. the thing is everyone else my age gets bored of it and family parties can get really boring sometimes. i just said boring loads of times didnt i? well it sums it up lol. i used to hate family parties so much, they used to make me feel all ugh and awkward and i just used to sit in the corner and hate everybody lol. sometimes i try talking to everyone other times i just sit with two of my cousins and talk about insignificant stuff.it can get quite deppressing sometiems lol. my family can be rather underwhelming, but then other times they're COMPLETELY OVERWHELMING they can make me hate all of them and myself at the same time, then make me love them like make up your bloody mind. sometimes they seriously p'ss me off htough like asdfghjk;l this is my extended family though, like everybody.
sorry massive rant i wish i could have been more explicit with it all but i know i'll feel so guilty later on lol
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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The Muslim kids eat lunch later than in the usual schedule, so they're separated from non-Muslims. Not drastically different, but still, slightly altered. Girl, I couldn't have said it better. That's what the definition for family should be. Right there. Either "rather underwhelming, but then other times they're COMPLETELY OVERWHELMING". Every party's like that, huh? Each single one. Then, when there's a family member of a relative that's not your relative(you know what I mean?) it can be extremely awkward. Just my family?
Rant all you want, man. Express your words while you still got air and someone who'll listen.
Oh, and today I have a job interview. I'll try my hardest. Hopefully I get the job!
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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haha thanks I'm just so poetic you see ;D omg a job interview?! with what? for what? summer job? exciting!!!! what are you gonna wear? (im sorry i have work experience comping up and evveryones asking me that so i feel like ive got to ask you that too) :D
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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haha thanks I'm just so poetic you see ;D omg a job interview?! with what? for what? summer job? exciting!!!! what are you gonna wear? (im sorry i have work experience comping up and evveryones asking me that so i feel like ive got to ask you that too) :D
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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You are. You just got a way with words. It was for a job at this ice cream shop. I went to the first interview and all went well, but the guy interviewing me was kind of creepy. He kept telling me that he was pleasantly psychotic. Another interview was set up for yesterday, but I didn't go 'cause I was out of state. I don't think I'll be getting the job. About the attire, you don't really want to look messy. You gotta look professional(well, depending on the work field.) You could wear some black slacks, some black shoes, and a white button down. That is what most people wear to interviews or their first day on the job. Plus, if you're working at a fast food place, you usually wear black pants, a button down, and black shoes. I hope all goes well when you go to the work event/thing!
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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thanks! it's basically this thing we do in england, well London at least i think most of the other parts of the country do, but basically in about year ten or eleven, and then once again in college, we do 'work experience', where we work for a week or two, unpaid, to see what it's like to work in real life. i'm doing it in a community centre, i get to organise an event and play with babies and help disabled children play football :D:D:D 'out of state'? is that you chickening out? WHY DID YOU DO THAT?! i'm pleasantly psychotic and you're not scared of me, why are you scared of this dude? just carry some pepper spray or something with you ;D I wanna dress like that but i dont know, cos i wear an abayah i don't really wear normal clothes much, i'm trying to get myself into wearing long skirts and stuff though cos i don't want to use my abayah as an excuse to dress slobby cos that pretty much defeats the purpose, know what i mean? so if you do happen to take the job even after skiving off (silly child) would you take it?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Man, I already respected you, but now, I admire you. That's so sweet of you t work with babies and children with special needs. I applaud you. I swear I was out of state. I was in Kansas! I haven't even called and it's been three days, so yeah, I am chickening out now. I'm not scared of you because you are pleasantly psychotic. That's the keyword: pleasant. Now, this guy was not. I am planning to buy a pepper spray. It's going to be one of those disguise ones, though. It'll either be a pen or lipstick. I also want a stun gun, but disguised a cell phone. Here's the website I'm using to buy them: http://www.womenonguard.com/ Justin case you want to check it out. In this society where it's "a girl's fault for being or attacked by a guy" we need to be protected. Oh, my gosh, I saw a post on tumblr where this girl has earphones under her hijab, and a onsie under her abayah, but no one would have ever known. Have you ever done that? Yes, I would take the job. I need to start saving up for college. That would be the reason for it. Also, I'd like to go shopping. My parents don't give me money any more. What about you?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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aww thank you :D i didn't know i was gonna get to do that i was told i was mainly gonna do fundraising for the centre, but then i found out and i was LIKE YES! kansas! :D DID YOU SEE THE WIZARD OF OZ? wait he's in emerald city kansas was where dorothy was from right? and lol clever, be careful someone might accidently use it and it would hurt... thanks but pepper spray and stun guns are illegal here, an d for good reason. AND YES story of my life i wore a onesie under my abayah the other day to my grandmas, and i spent a year of school with my headphones on underneath my hijab :D people think we're living under a rock, but EXCUUUUUSE ME we practicallly invented fashion *flips hijab off the shoulder in a cringe-worthily dramatic way* my parents give me money when i need it, but i reallly wanna make my own money so they don't have to, they have 4 private schooling fees to pay for on top of tuition, taxes, petrol, internet, mortgages blah blah i don't want to be a financial burden on them, ya know? and my mum says if i want to go to uni im gonna have to get a job cos most banks give student loans but with interest which is haram. either that or i'll have to find a halal loan. my parents would deffo pay if they could afford it but i would never accept that, like how can i accept my parents paying £50,000 for my education after they've already spent hundreds of thousands when i'm able to go out and work for it myself? i've been thinking of so many different htins and i've got some ideas though of how i can start my own living :D
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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I wish the states had that type of program. It's prepare us. Here, you go through high school trying to fit in, wasting your time, then you get thrown into the real world. Let's not forget that it's expected of you to go to college. Those bills can reach $50,000. I'm scared to my wits. I don't think I'm ready. Sure, there are 4 years left for me to get there, but time flies. Dorothy was from Kansas.. No, I didn't see her lol. You are a really good daughter! If my parents heard how you were talking they'd be all like, "Why can't you be just like her? See she respects her parents." Do you parents do that? My parents do. A lot. I literally have 100 cousins from just my dad's immediate family, and he compares me to every. single. one. That's sweet of your parents, though. If things don't work out, then they could always help you out then, right? I have to start working because my parents could never afford it. They're already telling me to apply for scholarships, which I will. I'm trying to save up all my money for college, so when I get out, I'm debt free, loan free, and can start living, you know? Plus, I want to start college funds for each of my younger siblings. I want to make sure, they don't have to worry about money when trying to get into college. At the end of the day, that's what matters. That my siblings are happy. You know what you could do? You could store away money from your income right now if you are working as taxes, you know? You could start practicing. Like if your income is 100 euros a week(hypothetically) and taxes are 10%, just take away those ten euros and store them as "taxes". Then you could use it for emergency money or something. That'll prepare you for when you have to pay taxes. Plus, it helps you save money. Speaking of college and education, what do you want to study? Are you still set on fashion?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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yeah it's good but a lot of the time people aren't taken seriously cos they're under age and it's only two weeks. yeah i know how you feel, i've got two years left till im in college and god knows it's gonna be so different. haha thanks! YES THEY DO THAT ALL THE TIME BLOODY HELL my mum doesnt do it that much anymore but gosh it's so annnoying! i just think well maybe i'd like it if you were more like so and so's parents! it's mean but i can't help it. yeah, i don't want them to have to pay yaknow? yeah that's deffinitely best so many people end up in a sh.t load of debt and it's so difficult to get out. that's so sweet, i hope you manage to do that i really do, it's great of you to look after your siblings. yeah that's a good idea, it'd kind of teach me that part of my money will inevitably always be taken away anyway. sadly i don't actualy earn anything at the moment :/ i would apply for a proper job but i know my parents would just be like focus on your education for now and they have a point but i could do things at the same time and if it gets too difficult i can quit working for a while. i don't want to actually study fashion though i want to work in it. i know it's dumb of me but i genuinely think studying fashion is pointless unless you want to work for another corporation or magazine, because you can't necessarily 'learn' what looks good, you've got to look at things and have the eye to piece them together. yeah i know there are so many themes and terms that you wouldn't know unless you studied fashion but i can't be bothered with them because when i do something as a hobby i love it but the minute i get thte pressure of doing it as a subject i hate it's guts. so if i chose to do business and fashion id study economics but not go to university, and if i chose to do psychology which i would also love i'll have to go to university to get a degree. what about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Oh, dang. I hadn't thought of that. It feels horrible to not be taken seriously. You'll be in college in two years?! Are you nervous or are you excited? Right? If my parents were more like so and so's parents, I'd probably be more like the kid they're comparing me to. You know what I mean? Here in the states there are people that are still neck deep in debt and they're in their 30's almost 40's. Especially teachers. College tuitions can cost up to $30,000 which is as much as they make in a year. I don't want that happening to me. Your parents have a point. You gotta stay focused on your studies. I know nothing about fashion and I'm pretty sure that if I studied it, I would still look like a mismatched quilt pieced together by a blind person. You're right! Being fashionable is just something that you have. So you don't want to work for a corporation or magazine? You want to make clothes? Oh girl, pressure does suck! I love to bake, but the minute someone tells me to bake for a certain event, I freak and ruin everything. I was supposed to make a cake for father's day. I made a superman cake, with "DAD" instead of the "s". Ya know what I mean? Well, I worked, but one layer of cake wasn't chilled enough, so it stuck to the pan when I tried to take it out and it was a mess. I covered it in fondant so no one noticed, but that didn't calm my anxiety. You just have to pick something that makes you proud of what you do. Something that you love. Psychology is something amazing. You can help so many people. Fashion is amazing, too. It helps people express themselves. Both are great things that you could be.
Me? I want to work in the law force. I want to stop slavery. I want to stop the kidnapping of little girls to be sold into marriage and prostituti0n. (Does that word get bleeped out?) Any who, yeah. That's what I want to do. I want to fight for women's rights. I'll study psychology and law to get there. Self defense and how to control weapons will be useful too. How have you been doing, though?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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that's so great, good luck I hope you manage to do that it'll be an amazing use of your time, really. I'm great thanks, it's half way through ramadan already! I have only one year left till college, not even a full one actually, but my summer has started and i have to start looking at open evenings and different colleges :S I'm so not the kind of person that gets over whelmed by this kind of thing but.... I'm freaking out i ifeel like i have no idea what to do i seriously don't what on earth am I meant to do ugh asdfghlk;. In other news, have you heard about Israel's attacks on Palestine, I know palestine have sent missiles back but they've hardly even affected Israel. I don't care what anybody says, I'm with palestine. It literally reduces me to tears seeing the torture they're being subjected to, it's horrible seeing it, cos they're pretty much my family out there being slaughtered. I'm not palestinian, but im muslim, and so are they and that binds us together more than our nationalities ever could. It's not even a Muslim against Jew thing, it's a fight over land and against 'terrorists'. the people they're blowing apart are innocent men and women and children HOW THE HELL ARE THEY TERRORISTS?! You don't have to be a Muslim to feel their pain you just have to be human! what kind of pathetic low life goverment attacks people like that? it's been going on for years and years, just type free palestine into instagram hashtags or something, or just google it to see a tiny glimpse in pictures of what they're going through. I dont understand why countries like America are funding Israel, they call Muslims terrorists, so quick to brand anybody that defends innocent people yet they fund bombs and guns that blow people to smithereens. it's pathetic, but it's a sign of the day of judgement as stated by islam, the jews will take over masjid al aqsa, one of the most famous mosques in islam which happens to be in palestine. But Muslims will take it back from them and people can call me crazy, or my felllow Muslims crazy but they only have to open their eyes to see that it's happening- it's all happening.
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Girl! You can do it! Of course you'll be freaked out, but that's okay. You're going to be taking a huge leap in life. I know you may feel like you're jumping off a cliff because you're overwhelmed, but I also know you'll land on your feet. So take a deep breath, and take your time.
I'm on Palestine's side, too!! My closest friends are directly from there. America funds Israel because of the massive amount of Jewish people there. Due to the past World Wars and how much they suffered during those times, the U.S. feels as if they need protection. You know? I'm not defending it, I'm just trying to explain it. Plus, with the massive amount of here, every Muslim is considered a terrorist. I hate to have to admit that. I don't understand why Muslims here are treated that way. Why people have to be so hateful to them, to anyone period. Israel needs to be stopped, though. I mean, who are they fighting? It's not a fight if the opponent doesn't fight back. So it's an attack. I try my hardest to keep up with all those news, with all the people dying, but it's too much. All those pictures of Gaza and missiles, and people. It's so sad! How does Israel continue to do what they do? If I could stop it, I would.
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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that's not why america funds israel its not all love and protection it's for their own benefit.
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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hi! Oh my goodness. They erased the part where i said that a lot of people here are racists. Rac-ists. Is it going to erase it again? I should have read it over when I sent it, because I didn't realize it was erased, so it looks like I'm saying that Arab people are bad, but I'm not saying that. When those words got erased, it made it look like that. Am I making sense? Now you think I'm a horrible person!
I did more research on the U.S. and Israel issue and it turns out that the United States aided the Jewish after World War II to help them find a "homeland", while at the same time taking land from other people. And you are right. The U.S. is using Israel as a military base in the middle east, so yeah, they are funding them for their own benefit. Also, Israel receives $3 billion in U.S. assistance(weapons, really) Many see it as subsidy for American industries as said by Kenneth Pollack. Then it makes more sense. The United States is sending Israel all of these forms of weapons as a means of promoting themselves economically.
So yeah. I know that you think I'm ignorant now for sounding like an idiot. I'm sorry! I'm trying to understand all of this more. Everything form Ferguson to Palestine. But how have you been? Are you doing better with all the stress of school and the future?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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I don't think that, at all. I just hate American government and what they do. Don't care who the hell is American don't care what the hell they've achieved really don't care. Opression isn't always as obvious as you'd think. But anyway, been good thank god how about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 8 years ago to jahan
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Sorry I was so ignorant! But I have looked more into it and you are right! 100%. The oppression part should be a quotequote, because it's true. A lot of people fail to realize that. Good too! But I miss you! Oh my goodness we haven't talked in seven months! I don't think you'll even reply to this. We need to talk!!! Where you at girl?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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I could go on and on. Oh, girl, you'll zoom past those tests. Don't worry. Just try your best. Did you finish them? Uh, I passionately dislike my school because it's just so disorganized, loud, and stressful. School used to be the place where I'd run from my personal problems, from my disorderly life, into a systematic place with rules that were followed and schedules that were set. It was just orderly. I didn't have to make big decisions. I just went from class to class. Yeah, there was homework and tests, but I liked it. I'm a serious nerd. But at this school, it's not about learning. It's more like a huge competition where everyone tries to look better than the rest. I came here to learn about radicals and World War II. I'm like this weird species to them that reads and has no life. I'm trying to build a better one right now actually. I want a good future. I want to go to grad school. I want to make my parents proud. They don't get that. Funny story, this one girl came up to me and we started talking about anime and she asked me if I even had a computer or a form of internet at my house. She wondered because she only ever saw me reading. Is that an insult or.... Sorry I ranted and sorry for the grammar mistakes. How you've been? When does your school end? Mine ends on May 22.
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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man I'm sorry :/ don't worry, they're just the metaphorical apes that have failed to develop into decent human beings. you're not the wierd species, they are. you dont have to feel bad you're awesome, who cares what they think i doubt she was insulting you she was probably just confused. even so, don't give a shizlle what they say they don't matter. they're the insignificant specs remember? try finding another place really orderly. try going to the library or some park. what area do you live in now? like what state? don't worry ,im sure your parents know how hard you're working. MAY 22? bloody hell that's so early! i start in june and i thought that was early lol! here we finish around end of june or early july, but since ramadan (an islamic month in which muslims fast) begins in june, we're finishing early june
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Aw, I just knew you would make me feel better! I'll read that every morning, man. It's that sweet. Well, the meaning is. I live in the very eventful(note my sarcasm) state of Oklahoma. Wait, so you start school in June or it ends in June? Will you have to make up the days later? Kids that celebrate Ramadan here just get a different schedule for the time needed, so they eat later than usual. I think it'd be much more convenient for school to be ended early, like yours. Are you going to get together with family for Eid?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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i'm so glad!! haha you do that man ;D and that's cool! it sounds awesome cos i've never been there lol :D and my holiday starts in june lol so school finishes in june haha :D and yeah sort of, we've been missing out holidays throughout the year that other schools have gotten to make up for the fact that we're missing so much school during the summer. what do you mean by different schedule? and oooh get you, you know all about it dont you? hehehe yeah we do that everyear. it gets kinda boring but i guess that's just me being really ungrateful. the thing is everyone else my age gets bored of it and family parties can get really boring sometimes. i just said boring loads of times didnt i? well it sums it up lol. i used to hate family parties so much, they used to make me feel all ugh and awkward and i just used to sit in the corner and hate everybody lol. sometimes i try talking to everyone other times i just sit with two of my cousins and talk about insignificant stuff.it can get quite deppressing sometiems lol. my family can be rather underwhelming, but then other times they're COMPLETELY OVERWHELMING they can make me hate all of them and myself at the same time, then make me love them like make up your bloody mind. sometimes they seriously p'ss me off htough like asdfghjk;l this is my extended family though, like everybody.
sorry massive rant i wish i could have been more explicit with it all but i know i'll feel so guilty later on lol
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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The Muslim kids eat lunch later than in the usual schedule, so they're separated from non-Muslims. Not drastically different, but still, slightly altered. Girl, I couldn't have said it better. That's what the definition for family should be. Right there. Either "rather underwhelming, but then other times they're COMPLETELY OVERWHELMING". Every party's like that, huh? Each single one. Then, when there's a family member of a relative that's not your relative(you know what I mean?) it can be extremely awkward. Just my family?
Rant all you want, man. Express your words while you still got air and someone who'll listen.
Oh, and today I have a job interview. I'll try my hardest. Hopefully I get the job!
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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haha thanks I'm just so poetic you see ;D omg a job interview?! with what? for what? summer job? exciting!!!! what are you gonna wear? (im sorry i have work experience comping up and evveryones asking me that so i feel like ive got to ask you that too) :D
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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haha thanks I'm just so poetic you see ;D omg a job interview?! with what? for what? summer job? exciting!!!! what are you gonna wear? (im sorry i have work experience comping up and evveryones asking me that so i feel like ive got to ask you that too) :D
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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You are. You just got a way with words. It was for a job at this ice cream shop. I went to the first interview and all went well, but the guy interviewing me was kind of creepy. He kept telling me that he was pleasantly psychotic. Another interview was set up for yesterday, but I didn't go 'cause I was out of state. I don't think I'll be getting the job. About the attire, you don't really want to look messy. You gotta look professional(well, depending on the work field.) You could wear some black slacks, some black shoes, and a white button down. That is what most people wear to interviews or their first day on the job. Plus, if you're working at a fast food place, you usually wear black pants, a button down, and black shoes. I hope all goes well when you go to the work event/thing!
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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thanks! it's basically this thing we do in england, well London at least i think most of the other parts of the country do, but basically in about year ten or eleven, and then once again in college, we do 'work experience', where we work for a week or two, unpaid, to see what it's like to work in real life. i'm doing it in a community centre, i get to organise an event and play with babies and help disabled children play football :D:D:D 'out of state'? is that you chickening out? WHY DID YOU DO THAT?! i'm pleasantly psychotic and you're not scared of me, why are you scared of this dude? just carry some pepper spray or something with you ;D I wanna dress like that but i dont know, cos i wear an abayah i don't really wear normal clothes much, i'm trying to get myself into wearing long skirts and stuff though cos i don't want to use my abayah as an excuse to dress slobby cos that pretty much defeats the purpose, know what i mean? so if you do happen to take the job even after skiving off (silly child) would you take it?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Man, I already respected you, but now, I admire you. That's so sweet of you t work with babies and children with special needs. I applaud you. I swear I was out of state. I was in Kansas! I haven't even called and it's been three days, so yeah, I am chickening out now. I'm not scared of you because you are pleasantly psychotic. That's the keyword: pleasant. Now, this guy was not. I am planning to buy a pepper spray. It's going to be one of those disguise ones, though. It'll either be a pen or lipstick. I also want a stun gun, but disguised a cell phone. Here's the website I'm using to buy them: http://www.womenonguard.com/ Justin case you want to check it out. In this society where it's "a girl's fault for being or attacked by a guy" we need to be protected. Oh, my gosh, I saw a post on tumblr where this girl has earphones under her hijab, and a onsie under her abayah, but no one would have ever known. Have you ever done that? Yes, I would take the job. I need to start saving up for college. That would be the reason for it. Also, I'd like to go shopping. My parents don't give me money any more. What about you?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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aww thank you :D i didn't know i was gonna get to do that i was told i was mainly gonna do fundraising for the centre, but then i found out and i was LIKE YES! kansas! :D DID YOU SEE THE WIZARD OF OZ? wait he's in emerald city kansas was where dorothy was from right? and lol clever, be careful someone might accidently use it and it would hurt... thanks but pepper spray and stun guns are illegal here, an d for good reason. AND YES story of my life i wore a onesie under my abayah the other day to my grandmas, and i spent a year of school with my headphones on underneath my hijab :D people think we're living under a rock, but EXCUUUUUSE ME we practicallly invented fashion *flips hijab off the shoulder in a cringe-worthily dramatic way* my parents give me money when i need it, but i reallly wanna make my own money so they don't have to, they have 4 private schooling fees to pay for on top of tuition, taxes, petrol, internet, mortgages blah blah i don't want to be a financial burden on them, ya know? and my mum says if i want to go to uni im gonna have to get a job cos most banks give student loans but with interest which is haram. either that or i'll have to find a halal loan. my parents would deffo pay if they could afford it but i would never accept that, like how can i accept my parents paying £50,000 for my education after they've already spent hundreds of thousands when i'm able to go out and work for it myself? i've been thinking of so many different htins and i've got some ideas though of how i can start my own living :D
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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I wish the states had that type of program. It's prepare us. Here, you go through high school trying to fit in, wasting your time, then you get thrown into the real world. Let's not forget that it's expected of you to go to college. Those bills can reach $50,000. I'm scared to my wits. I don't think I'm ready. Sure, there are 4 years left for me to get there, but time flies. Dorothy was from Kansas.. No, I didn't see her lol. You are a really good daughter! If my parents heard how you were talking they'd be all like, "Why can't you be just like her? See she respects her parents." Do you parents do that? My parents do. A lot. I literally have 100 cousins from just my dad's immediate family, and he compares me to every. single. one. That's sweet of your parents, though. If things don't work out, then they could always help you out then, right? I have to start working because my parents could never afford it. They're already telling me to apply for scholarships, which I will. I'm trying to save up all my money for college, so when I get out, I'm debt free, loan free, and can start living, you know? Plus, I want to start college funds for each of my younger siblings. I want to make sure, they don't have to worry about money when trying to get into college. At the end of the day, that's what matters. That my siblings are happy. You know what you could do? You could store away money from your income right now if you are working as taxes, you know? You could start practicing. Like if your income is 100 euros a week(hypothetically) and taxes are 10%, just take away those ten euros and store them as "taxes". Then you could use it for emergency money or something. That'll prepare you for when you have to pay taxes. Plus, it helps you save money. Speaking of college and education, what do you want to study? Are you still set on fashion?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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yeah it's good but a lot of the time people aren't taken seriously cos they're under age and it's only two weeks. yeah i know how you feel, i've got two years left till im in college and god knows it's gonna be so different. haha thanks! YES THEY DO THAT ALL THE TIME BLOODY HELL my mum doesnt do it that much anymore but gosh it's so annnoying! i just think well maybe i'd like it if you were more like so and so's parents! it's mean but i can't help it. yeah, i don't want them to have to pay yaknow? yeah that's deffinitely best so many people end up in a sh.t load of debt and it's so difficult to get out. that's so sweet, i hope you manage to do that i really do, it's great of you to look after your siblings. yeah that's a good idea, it'd kind of teach me that part of my money will inevitably always be taken away anyway. sadly i don't actualy earn anything at the moment :/ i would apply for a proper job but i know my parents would just be like focus on your education for now and they have a point but i could do things at the same time and if it gets too difficult i can quit working for a while. i don't want to actually study fashion though i want to work in it. i know it's dumb of me but i genuinely think studying fashion is pointless unless you want to work for another corporation or magazine, because you can't necessarily 'learn' what looks good, you've got to look at things and have the eye to piece them together. yeah i know there are so many themes and terms that you wouldn't know unless you studied fashion but i can't be bothered with them because when i do something as a hobby i love it but the minute i get thte pressure of doing it as a subject i hate it's guts. so if i chose to do business and fashion id study economics but not go to university, and if i chose to do psychology which i would also love i'll have to go to university to get a degree. what about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Oh, dang. I hadn't thought of that. It feels horrible to not be taken seriously. You'll be in college in two years?! Are you nervous or are you excited? Right? If my parents were more like so and so's parents, I'd probably be more like the kid they're comparing me to. You know what I mean? Here in the states there are people that are still neck deep in debt and they're in their 30's almost 40's. Especially teachers. College tuitions can cost up to $30,000 which is as much as they make in a year. I don't want that happening to me. Your parents have a point. You gotta stay focused on your studies. I know nothing about fashion and I'm pretty sure that if I studied it, I would still look like a mismatched quilt pieced together by a blind person. You're right! Being fashionable is just something that you have. So you don't want to work for a corporation or magazine? You want to make clothes? Oh girl, pressure does suck! I love to bake, but the minute someone tells me to bake for a certain event, I freak and ruin everything. I was supposed to make a cake for father's day. I made a superman cake, with "DAD" instead of the "s". Ya know what I mean? Well, I worked, but one layer of cake wasn't chilled enough, so it stuck to the pan when I tried to take it out and it was a mess. I covered it in fondant so no one noticed, but that didn't calm my anxiety. You just have to pick something that makes you proud of what you do. Something that you love. Psychology is something amazing. You can help so many people. Fashion is amazing, too. It helps people express themselves. Both are great things that you could be.
Me? I want to work in the law force. I want to stop slavery. I want to stop the kidnapping of little girls to be sold into marriage and prostituti0n. (Does that word get bleeped out?) Any who, yeah. That's what I want to do. I want to fight for women's rights. I'll study psychology and law to get there. Self defense and how to control weapons will be useful too. How have you been doing, though?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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that's so great, good luck I hope you manage to do that it'll be an amazing use of your time, really. I'm great thanks, it's half way through ramadan already! I have only one year left till college, not even a full one actually, but my summer has started and i have to start looking at open evenings and different colleges :S I'm so not the kind of person that gets over whelmed by this kind of thing but.... I'm freaking out i ifeel like i have no idea what to do i seriously don't what on earth am I meant to do ugh asdfghlk;. In other news, have you heard about Israel's attacks on Palestine, I know palestine have sent missiles back but they've hardly even affected Israel. I don't care what anybody says, I'm with palestine. It literally reduces me to tears seeing the torture they're being subjected to, it's horrible seeing it, cos they're pretty much my family out there being slaughtered. I'm not palestinian, but im muslim, and so are they and that binds us together more than our nationalities ever could. It's not even a Muslim against Jew thing, it's a fight over land and against 'terrorists'. the people they're blowing apart are innocent men and women and children HOW THE HELL ARE THEY TERRORISTS?! You don't have to be a Muslim to feel their pain you just have to be human! what kind of pathetic low life goverment attacks people like that? it's been going on for years and years, just type free palestine into instagram hashtags or something, or just google it to see a tiny glimpse in pictures of what they're going through. I dont understand why countries like America are funding Israel, they call Muslims terrorists, so quick to brand anybody that defends innocent people yet they fund bombs and guns that blow people to smithereens. it's pathetic, but it's a sign of the day of judgement as stated by islam, the jews will take over masjid al aqsa, one of the most famous mosques in islam which happens to be in palestine. But Muslims will take it back from them and people can call me crazy, or my felllow Muslims crazy but they only have to open their eyes to see that it's happening- it's all happening.
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Girl! You can do it! Of course you'll be freaked out, but that's okay. You're going to be taking a huge leap in life. I know you may feel like you're jumping off a cliff because you're overwhelmed, but I also know you'll land on your feet. So take a deep breath, and take your time.
I'm on Palestine's side, too!! My closest friends are directly from there. America funds Israel because of the massive amount of Jewish people there. Due to the past World Wars and how much they suffered during those times, the U.S. feels as if they need protection. You know? I'm not defending it, I'm just trying to explain it. Plus, with the massive amount of here, every Muslim is considered a terrorist. I hate to have to admit that. I don't understand why Muslims here are treated that way. Why people have to be so hateful to them, to anyone period. Israel needs to be stopped, though. I mean, who are they fighting? It's not a fight if the opponent doesn't fight back. So it's an attack. I try my hardest to keep up with all those news, with all the people dying, but it's too much. All those pictures of Gaza and missiles, and people. It's so sad! How does Israel continue to do what they do? If I could stop it, I would.
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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that's not why america funds israel its not all love and protection it's for their own benefit.
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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hi! Oh my goodness. They erased the part where i said that a lot of people here are racists. Rac-ists. Is it going to erase it again? I should have read it over when I sent it, because I didn't realize it was erased, so it looks like I'm saying that Arab people are bad, but I'm not saying that. When those words got erased, it made it look like that. Am I making sense? Now you think I'm a horrible person!
I did more research on the U.S. and Israel issue and it turns out that the United States aided the Jewish after World War II to help them find a "homeland", while at the same time taking land from other people. And you are right. The U.S. is using Israel as a military base in the middle east, so yeah, they are funding them for their own benefit. Also, Israel receives $3 billion in U.S. assistance(weapons, really) Many see it as subsidy for American industries as said by Kenneth Pollack. Then it makes more sense. The United States is sending Israel all of these forms of weapons as a means of promoting themselves economically.
So yeah. I know that you think I'm ignorant now for sounding like an idiot. I'm sorry! I'm trying to understand all of this more. Everything form Ferguson to Palestine. But how have you been? Are you doing better with all the stress of school and the future?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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I don't think that, at all. I just hate American government and what they do. Don't care who the hell is American don't care what the hell they've achieved really don't care. Opression isn't always as obvious as you'd think. But anyway, been good thank god how about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 8 years ago to jahan
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Sorry I was so ignorant! But I have looked more into it and you are right! 100%. The oppression part should be a quotequote, because it's true. A lot of people fail to realize that. Good too! But I miss you! Oh my goodness we haven't talked in seven months! I don't think you'll even reply to this. We need to talk!!! Where you at girl?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to AnInsecureGirl
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Dude. I'm not insure I have your right number. What about with oovoo or skype or face time? What happened to your Facebook? Girl, we do need to talk.
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CallMeItzel 9 years ago to AnInsecureGirl
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Go on oovoo i have messaged you alot
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Ah, I hate the school that I go to right now. I don't have any real friends here. You?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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it's getting better thank god, just so many exams :'( stressed out. why dyou hate your school?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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it's getting better thank god, just so many exams :'( stressed out. why dyou hate your school?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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I could go on and on. Oh, girl, you'll zoom past those tests. Don't worry. Just try your best. Did you finish them? Uh, I passionately dislike my school because it's just so disorganized, loud, and stressful. School used to be the place where I'd run from my personal problems, from my disorderly life, into a systematic place with rules that were followed and schedules that were set. It was just orderly. I didn't have to make big decisions. I just went from class to class. Yeah, there was homework and tests, but I liked it. I'm a serious nerd. But at this school, it's not about learning. It's more like a huge competition where everyone tries to look better than the rest. I came here to learn about radicals and World War II. I'm like this weird species to them that reads and has no life. I'm trying to build a better one right now actually. I want a good future. I want to go to grad school. I want to make my parents proud. They don't get that. Funny story, this one girl came up to me and we started talking about anime and she asked me if I even had a computer or a form of internet at my house. She wondered because she only ever saw me reading. Is that an insult or.... Sorry I ranted and sorry for the grammar mistakes. How you've been? When does your school end? Mine ends on May 22.
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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man I'm sorry :/ don't worry, they're just the metaphorical apes that have failed to develop into decent human beings. you're not the wierd species, they are. you dont have to feel bad you're awesome, who cares what they think i doubt she was insulting you she was probably just confused. even so, don't give a shizlle what they say they don't matter. they're the insignificant specs remember? try finding another place really orderly. try going to the library or some park. what area do you live in now? like what state? don't worry ,im sure your parents know how hard you're working. MAY 22? bloody hell that's so early! i start in june and i thought that was early lol! here we finish around end of june or early july, but since ramadan (an islamic month in which muslims fast) begins in june, we're finishing early june
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Aw, I just knew you would make me feel better! I'll read that every morning, man. It's that sweet. Well, the meaning is. I live in the very eventful(note my sarcasm) state of Oklahoma. Wait, so you start school in June or it ends in June? Will you have to make up the days later? Kids that celebrate Ramadan here just get a different schedule for the time needed, so they eat later than usual. I think it'd be much more convenient for school to be ended early, like yours. Are you going to get together with family for Eid?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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i'm so glad!! haha you do that man ;D and that's cool! it sounds awesome cos i've never been there lol :D and my holiday starts in june lol so school finishes in june haha :D and yeah sort of, we've been missing out holidays throughout the year that other schools have gotten to make up for the fact that we're missing so much school during the summer. what do you mean by different schedule? and oooh get you, you know all about it dont you? hehehe yeah we do that everyear. it gets kinda boring but i guess that's just me being really ungrateful. the thing is everyone else my age gets bored of it and family parties can get really boring sometimes. i just said boring loads of times didnt i? well it sums it up lol. i used to hate family parties so much, they used to make me feel all ugh and awkward and i just used to sit in the corner and hate everybody lol. sometimes i try talking to everyone other times i just sit with two of my cousins and talk about insignificant stuff.it can get quite deppressing sometiems lol. my family can be rather underwhelming, but then other times they're COMPLETELY OVERWHELMING they can make me hate all of them and myself at the same time, then make me love them like make up your bloody mind. sometimes they seriously p'ss me off htough like asdfghjk;l this is my extended family though, like everybody.
sorry massive rant i wish i could have been more explicit with it all but i know i'll feel so guilty later on lol
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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The Muslim kids eat lunch later than in the usual schedule, so they're separated from non-Muslims. Not drastically different, but still, slightly altered. Girl, I couldn't have said it better. That's what the definition for family should be. Right there. Either "rather underwhelming, but then other times they're COMPLETELY OVERWHELMING". Every party's like that, huh? Each single one. Then, when there's a family member of a relative that's not your relative(you know what I mean?) it can be extremely awkward. Just my family?
Rant all you want, man. Express your words while you still got air and someone who'll listen.
Oh, and today I have a job interview. I'll try my hardest. Hopefully I get the job!
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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haha thanks I'm just so poetic you see ;D omg a job interview?! with what? for what? summer job? exciting!!!! what are you gonna wear? (im sorry i have work experience comping up and evveryones asking me that so i feel like ive got to ask you that too) :D
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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haha thanks I'm just so poetic you see ;D omg a job interview?! with what? for what? summer job? exciting!!!! what are you gonna wear? (im sorry i have work experience comping up and evveryones asking me that so i feel like ive got to ask you that too) :D
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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You are. You just got a way with words. It was for a job at this ice cream shop. I went to the first interview and all went well, but the guy interviewing me was kind of creepy. He kept telling me that he was pleasantly psychotic. Another interview was set up for yesterday, but I didn't go 'cause I was out of state. I don't think I'll be getting the job. About the attire, you don't really want to look messy. You gotta look professional(well, depending on the work field.) You could wear some black slacks, some black shoes, and a white button down. That is what most people wear to interviews or their first day on the job. Plus, if you're working at a fast food place, you usually wear black pants, a button down, and black shoes. I hope all goes well when you go to the work event/thing!
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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thanks! it's basically this thing we do in england, well London at least i think most of the other parts of the country do, but basically in about year ten or eleven, and then once again in college, we do 'work experience', where we work for a week or two, unpaid, to see what it's like to work in real life. i'm doing it in a community centre, i get to organise an event and play with babies and help disabled children play football :D:D:D 'out of state'? is that you chickening out? WHY DID YOU DO THAT?! i'm pleasantly psychotic and you're not scared of me, why are you scared of this dude? just carry some pepper spray or something with you ;D I wanna dress like that but i dont know, cos i wear an abayah i don't really wear normal clothes much, i'm trying to get myself into wearing long skirts and stuff though cos i don't want to use my abayah as an excuse to dress slobby cos that pretty much defeats the purpose, know what i mean? so if you do happen to take the job even after skiving off (silly child) would you take it?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Man, I already respected you, but now, I admire you. That's so sweet of you t work with babies and children with special needs. I applaud you. I swear I was out of state. I was in Kansas! I haven't even called and it's been three days, so yeah, I am chickening out now. I'm not scared of you because you are pleasantly psychotic. That's the keyword: pleasant. Now, this guy was not. I am planning to buy a pepper spray. It's going to be one of those disguise ones, though. It'll either be a pen or lipstick. I also want a stun gun, but disguised a cell phone. Here's the website I'm using to buy them: http://www.womenonguard.com/ Justin case you want to check it out. In this society where it's "a girl's fault for being or attacked by a guy" we need to be protected. Oh, my gosh, I saw a post on tumblr where this girl has earphones under her hijab, and a onsie under her abayah, but no one would have ever known. Have you ever done that? Yes, I would take the job. I need to start saving up for college. That would be the reason for it. Also, I'd like to go shopping. My parents don't give me money any more. What about you?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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aww thank you :D i didn't know i was gonna get to do that i was told i was mainly gonna do fundraising for the centre, but then i found out and i was LIKE YES! kansas! :D DID YOU SEE THE WIZARD OF OZ? wait he's in emerald city kansas was where dorothy was from right? and lol clever, be careful someone might accidently use it and it would hurt... thanks but pepper spray and stun guns are illegal here, an d for good reason. AND YES story of my life i wore a onesie under my abayah the other day to my grandmas, and i spent a year of school with my headphones on underneath my hijab :D people think we're living under a rock, but EXCUUUUUSE ME we practicallly invented fashion *flips hijab off the shoulder in a cringe-worthily dramatic way* my parents give me money when i need it, but i reallly wanna make my own money so they don't have to, they have 4 private schooling fees to pay for on top of tuition, taxes, petrol, internet, mortgages blah blah i don't want to be a financial burden on them, ya know? and my mum says if i want to go to uni im gonna have to get a job cos most banks give student loans but with interest which is haram. either that or i'll have to find a halal loan. my parents would deffo pay if they could afford it but i would never accept that, like how can i accept my parents paying £50,000 for my education after they've already spent hundreds of thousands when i'm able to go out and work for it myself? i've been thinking of so many different htins and i've got some ideas though of how i can start my own living :D
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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I wish the states had that type of program. It's prepare us. Here, you go through high school trying to fit in, wasting your time, then you get thrown into the real world. Let's not forget that it's expected of you to go to college. Those bills can reach $50,000. I'm scared to my wits. I don't think I'm ready. Sure, there are 4 years left for me to get there, but time flies. Dorothy was from Kansas.. No, I didn't see her lol. You are a really good daughter! If my parents heard how you were talking they'd be all like, "Why can't you be just like her? See she respects her parents." Do you parents do that? My parents do. A lot. I literally have 100 cousins from just my dad's immediate family, and he compares me to every. single. one. That's sweet of your parents, though. If things don't work out, then they could always help you out then, right? I have to start working because my parents could never afford it. They're already telling me to apply for scholarships, which I will. I'm trying to save up all my money for college, so when I get out, I'm debt free, loan free, and can start living, you know? Plus, I want to start college funds for each of my younger siblings. I want to make sure, they don't have to worry about money when trying to get into college. At the end of the day, that's what matters. That my siblings are happy. You know what you could do? You could store away money from your income right now if you are working as taxes, you know? You could start practicing. Like if your income is 100 euros a week(hypothetically) and taxes are 10%, just take away those ten euros and store them as "taxes". Then you could use it for emergency money or something. That'll prepare you for when you have to pay taxes. Plus, it helps you save money. Speaking of college and education, what do you want to study? Are you still set on fashion?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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yeah it's good but a lot of the time people aren't taken seriously cos they're under age and it's only two weeks. yeah i know how you feel, i've got two years left till im in college and god knows it's gonna be so different. haha thanks! YES THEY DO THAT ALL THE TIME BLOODY HELL my mum doesnt do it that much anymore but gosh it's so annnoying! i just think well maybe i'd like it if you were more like so and so's parents! it's mean but i can't help it. yeah, i don't want them to have to pay yaknow? yeah that's deffinitely best so many people end up in a sh.t load of debt and it's so difficult to get out. that's so sweet, i hope you manage to do that i really do, it's great of you to look after your siblings. yeah that's a good idea, it'd kind of teach me that part of my money will inevitably always be taken away anyway. sadly i don't actualy earn anything at the moment :/ i would apply for a proper job but i know my parents would just be like focus on your education for now and they have a point but i could do things at the same time and if it gets too difficult i can quit working for a while. i don't want to actually study fashion though i want to work in it. i know it's dumb of me but i genuinely think studying fashion is pointless unless you want to work for another corporation or magazine, because you can't necessarily 'learn' what looks good, you've got to look at things and have the eye to piece them together. yeah i know there are so many themes and terms that you wouldn't know unless you studied fashion but i can't be bothered with them because when i do something as a hobby i love it but the minute i get thte pressure of doing it as a subject i hate it's guts. so if i chose to do business and fashion id study economics but not go to university, and if i chose to do psychology which i would also love i'll have to go to university to get a degree. what about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Oh, dang. I hadn't thought of that. It feels horrible to not be taken seriously. You'll be in college in two years?! Are you nervous or are you excited? Right? If my parents were more like so and so's parents, I'd probably be more like the kid they're comparing me to. You know what I mean? Here in the states there are people that are still neck deep in debt and they're in their 30's almost 40's. Especially teachers. College tuitions can cost up to $30,000 which is as much as they make in a year. I don't want that happening to me. Your parents have a point. You gotta stay focused on your studies. I know nothing about fashion and I'm pretty sure that if I studied it, I would still look like a mismatched quilt pieced together by a blind person. You're right! Being fashionable is just something that you have. So you don't want to work for a corporation or magazine? You want to make clothes? Oh girl, pressure does suck! I love to bake, but the minute someone tells me to bake for a certain event, I freak and ruin everything. I was supposed to make a cake for father's day. I made a superman cake, with "DAD" instead of the "s". Ya know what I mean? Well, I worked, but one layer of cake wasn't chilled enough, so it stuck to the pan when I tried to take it out and it was a mess. I covered it in fondant so no one noticed, but that didn't calm my anxiety. You just have to pick something that makes you proud of what you do. Something that you love. Psychology is something amazing. You can help so many people. Fashion is amazing, too. It helps people express themselves. Both are great things that you could be.
Me? I want to work in the law force. I want to stop slavery. I want to stop the kidnapping of little girls to be sold into marriage and prostituti0n. (Does that word get bleeped out?) Any who, yeah. That's what I want to do. I want to fight for women's rights. I'll study psychology and law to get there. Self defense and how to control weapons will be useful too. How have you been doing, though?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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that's so great, good luck I hope you manage to do that it'll be an amazing use of your time, really. I'm great thanks, it's half way through ramadan already! I have only one year left till college, not even a full one actually, but my summer has started and i have to start looking at open evenings and different colleges :S I'm so not the kind of person that gets over whelmed by this kind of thing but.... I'm freaking out i ifeel like i have no idea what to do i seriously don't what on earth am I meant to do ugh asdfghlk;. In other news, have you heard about Israel's attacks on Palestine, I know palestine have sent missiles back but they've hardly even affected Israel. I don't care what anybody says, I'm with palestine. It literally reduces me to tears seeing the torture they're being subjected to, it's horrible seeing it, cos they're pretty much my family out there being slaughtered. I'm not palestinian, but im muslim, and so are they and that binds us together more than our nationalities ever could. It's not even a Muslim against Jew thing, it's a fight over land and against 'terrorists'. the people they're blowing apart are innocent men and women and children HOW THE HELL ARE THEY TERRORISTS?! You don't have to be a Muslim to feel their pain you just have to be human! what kind of pathetic low life goverment attacks people like that? it's been going on for years and years, just type free palestine into instagram hashtags or something, or just google it to see a tiny glimpse in pictures of what they're going through. I dont understand why countries like America are funding Israel, they call Muslims terrorists, so quick to brand anybody that defends innocent people yet they fund bombs and guns that blow people to smithereens. it's pathetic, but it's a sign of the day of judgement as stated by islam, the jews will take over masjid al aqsa, one of the most famous mosques in islam which happens to be in palestine. But Muslims will take it back from them and people can call me crazy, or my felllow Muslims crazy but they only have to open their eyes to see that it's happening- it's all happening.
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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Girl! You can do it! Of course you'll be freaked out, but that's okay. You're going to be taking a huge leap in life. I know you may feel like you're jumping off a cliff because you're overwhelmed, but I also know you'll land on your feet. So take a deep breath, and take your time.
I'm on Palestine's side, too!! My closest friends are directly from there. America funds Israel because of the massive amount of Jewish people there. Due to the past World Wars and how much they suffered during those times, the U.S. feels as if they need protection. You know? I'm not defending it, I'm just trying to explain it. Plus, with the massive amount of here, every Muslim is considered a terrorist. I hate to have to admit that. I don't understand why Muslims here are treated that way. Why people have to be so hateful to them, to anyone period. Israel needs to be stopped, though. I mean, who are they fighting? It's not a fight if the opponent doesn't fight back. So it's an attack. I try my hardest to keep up with all those news, with all the people dying, but it's too much. All those pictures of Gaza and missiles, and people. It's so sad! How does Israel continue to do what they do? If I could stop it, I would.
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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that's not why america funds israel its not all love and protection it's for their own benefit.
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AnInsecureGirl 9 years ago to jahan
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hi! Oh my goodness. They erased the part where i said that a lot of people here are racists. Rac-ists. Is it going to erase it again? I should have read it over when I sent it, because I didn't realize it was erased, so it looks like I'm saying that Arab people are bad, but I'm not saying that. When those words got erased, it made it look like that. Am I making sense? Now you think I'm a horrible person!
I did more research on the U.S. and Israel issue and it turns out that the United States aided the Jewish after World War II to help them find a "homeland", while at the same time taking land from other people. And you are right. The U.S. is using Israel as a military base in the middle east, so yeah, they are funding them for their own benefit. Also, Israel receives $3 billion in U.S. assistance(weapons, really) Many see it as subsidy for American industries as said by Kenneth Pollack. Then it makes more sense. The United States is sending Israel all of these forms of weapons as a means of promoting themselves economically.
So yeah. I know that you think I'm ignorant now for sounding like an idiot. I'm sorry! I'm trying to understand all of this more. Everything form Ferguson to Palestine. But how have you been? Are you doing better with all the stress of school and the future?
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jahan 9 years ago to jahan
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I don't think that, at all. I just hate American government and what they do. Don't care who the hell is American don't care what the hell they've achieved really don't care. Opression isn't always as obvious as you'd think. But anyway, been good thank god how about you?
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AnInsecureGirl 8 years ago to jahan
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Sorry I was so ignorant! But I have looked more into it and you are right! 100%. The oppression part should be a quotequote, because it's true. A lot of people fail to realize that. Good too! But I miss you! Oh my goodness we haven't talked in seven months! I don't think you'll even reply to this. We need to talk!!! Where you at girl?
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