Andie*

i made you the bad guy, the reason why they're on my bad side.
i made you out to be the jailor, the reason why they could no longer see "her".
the docile, passive me. i made them think you stole me.

i was cowardly, i clung to you. the greatest person i ever knew.
my great escape, my safe abode. just wanted them all to leave me alone.
i was sick of being taken advantage of, feeling inadequate and hating myself.

so it was one weekend, then a few. they couldn't reach me, only you.
i was off the grid, all seemingly deliberate. 
you caught on, you always do. you made me confess to you.
i was cowardly and vengeful. wanted to hurt them but made you take the fall.

you're better than me, too kind. you play the best villian every time.
now they think you're the master, the reason why they don't see "her".
but in reality you're the lifeline, reason i can still breathe this breath of mine.

can't, won't do it anymore

maybe you're not listening.
maybe i want to come clean.
the itching in my ear woke me up.
then i heard the clink of a glass cup.
i put two and two together.

maybe you're not listening.
maybe i want to come clean.
i almost cried on my way to work.
heard a lyric about family and my eyes hurt.
i put two and two together.

maybe you're not listening.
maybe i want to come clean.
you're feeling sick and want my help.
i drowned you out and soothed myself.
i want you to put two and two together.

the audacity.
the person who has made my home life miserable
asking me if i'm depressed.

i made it
You made it happen.

you need food to focus
you need food to focus
you need food

growing up feels like saying goodbye.
i'm going to miss you.
i always thought you were so pretty.
i'm going to tell you.
you're the type of person who thrives anywhere they go.
i'm going to tell you.
you deserve better and deserve all the happiness.
i'll tell you on tuesday.