AngelxAlyce

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Joined: December 9, 2013
Last Seen: 9 months
user id: 376015
Gender: F
I'm invisible, and that makes me invincible. 

To me... this world is like a dark night that swallows everything.

I despise common sense. I've seen this world from every possible angle. this cruel, ridiculous, beautiful world.

Although I'm weak and full of flaws, i will never stop moving forward. no matter who I am,
no one other than myself will create my own existence. No matter what others may think
or feel, I will still move forward as myself.



Because words escape me and descriptions are hard to justify when they fall from my own fingertips,
I used quotes from my namesake to help you understand this crazy beautiful thing that has become my mind.

Quotes by AngelxAlyce

I feel like I'm breaking inside
and the truth is I don't know why
People say I shouldn't be alone
That it mustn't be good for me
I should go outside, playful and happy
But I've grown so used to the shadows
And the dark. They've taken up root inside
my heart, filling my chest with death and
Decay. it's funny actually. Those people
Made me this way.
You write down the words
Get them out of your head
You try to ignore the hurt and instead
You turn towards the numbness
And cut away the pain
But what has become this
Now it's all the same.
"I waited for you. I shouldn't have.
But that's my problem. I'm always
waiting for you. For everyone. But
no one waits for me. I saty back, 
when everyone has moved on, and
wait for you to come along. Because
I don't want you to be alone. I don't 
like to be alone, so I don't want you 
to feel that way either. But you won't
wait for me. That's okay. I'm used to
being alone. Don't worry. I'll still wait
for you. I won't leave you alone."
"I wonder what would happen if you knew.
If you knew about the depression, the anxiety.
The thoughts. God, if only you could hear those
thoughts. Would you still push me aside? Would
you still find excuses, make up little lies, and
throw me away? Probably not. If you knew how
close I was, how close, you wouldn't leave me alone.
But that would be pretend, wouldn't it? You wouldn't really love me.
You would just feel guilty. I don't want you to feel guilty.
That's why I don't tell you about the thoughts. That's why I
don't tell you just how close I am. So, when I jump, don't feel guilty.
I never told you anyway."
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There's a gap in my heart
That can't be filled.
There's a monster in my head
That won't be killed.
There's a ache in my throat
That won't go away.
There's a burning in my lungs
That wants to stay.
I keep it inside,
Save for when I sleep,
Cause when I close my eyes
The demons will creep.
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I can feel it creeping.
The darkness.
I can feel it pushing against the confines of my mind.
The limits I've set up.
The boundaries I've set.
They're all crumpling down.
Down. Down. Down.
I'm drowning now.
I'm too tired to fight.
It's so dark.
Just let me sleep.

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My sister was beautiful once. Not a striking beauty; no one would mistake her for a model.
But she had that inner beauty, that glow, that something that every person tries to achieve.
It made her beautiful. When I look at her now, all I see are worry lines, dark cirlces, and stress.
The light is gone from her eyes, and I haven't seen her smile in years. She used to be beautiful.
But I guess depression is like an anti-makeup. It has stolen her light, her beauty. Now all she is,
is stress and worry and darkness.
A
builder
without
demand
is
a
destroyer
And I've always had this hole in my chest.
I don't know how it got there, or when it first
started to grow. But I know it hurts the most
when I'm surrounded by familiar strangers,
or sitting alone in the shadows of my room.
Come to think of it, this emptiness hurts

all the time.