AngelxAlyce

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Joined: December 9, 2013
Last Seen: 1 year
user id: 376015
Gender: F
I'm invisible, and that makes me invincible. 

To me... this world is like a dark night that swallows everything.

I despise common sense. I've seen this world from every possible angle. this cruel, ridiculous, beautiful world.

Although I'm weak and full of flaws, i will never stop moving forward. no matter who I am,
no one other than myself will create my own existence. No matter what others may think
or feel, I will still move forward as myself.



Because words escape me and descriptions are hard to justify when they fall from my own fingertips,
I used quotes from my namesake to help you understand this crazy beautiful thing that has become my mind.

Quotes by AngelxAlyce

My sister was beautiful once. Not a striking beauty; no one would mistake her for a model.
But she had that inner beauty, that glow, that something that every person tries to achieve.
It made her beautiful. When I look at her now, all I see are worry lines, dark cirlces, and stress.
The light is gone from her eyes, and I haven't seen her smile in years. She used to be beautiful.
But I guess depression is like an anti-makeup. It has stolen her light, her beauty. Now all she is,
is stress and worry and darkness.
A
builder
without
demand
is
a
destroyer
And I've always had this hole in my chest.
I don't know how it got there, or when it first
started to grow. But I know it hurts the most
when I'm surrounded by familiar strangers,
or sitting alone in the shadows of my room.
Come to think of it, this emptiness hurts

all the time.
They said they would be there,
that I wouldn't be alone.
They promised me that they
would never let me feel that way
again. But then they said that it was 
too hard, that I was too needy. Too
depressed. That I needed to just be
happy. They said it was too hard
for them, and they left. They left me alone.
I guess they didn't realize that it is hard on
me too. For me, every second is a fight.
But I guess they forgot that part.
I see shadows moving when none are there.
 I hear my name whispered in the dark by
an unfamiliar voice. I feel the eyes of
strangers following me when I'm alone.
But I guess that's the joke, isn't it?
I'm never alone.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for the pain I'm causing you.
All the confusion, the frustration, 
going from one thing to the next.
I'm so sorry for all of this.
I wish I could fix it.
I wish I could be better.
But, understand that I'm alone here.
There's only me, carrying myself,
trying to do all these things that I
don't know how to do, trying to
stay afloat even though my arms
are so tired and I'm ready to stop. 
I know that you're confused and angry.
So am I.
And I'm sorry.

I'm nuts, baby I'm mad
The craziest fun that you've ever had.
You think I'm psycho,
You think I'm gone.
Tell the psychiatrist something is wrong.
Over the bend,
Entirely bonkers.
You like me best when I'm off my rocker.
Tell you a secret, I'm not alarmed
You think I'm crazy?
The best people are.

I don’t know what I want to say, I think I’ll try another day, I don’t remember anyway.
I’m looking up, I’m trying here, I think I might be dying dear.
My mind is blank, my tongue is clear, I won’t say what you want to hear.
I don’t know what I want to say, I think I’ll try another day, I don’t remember anyway.
«I'm lost. So lost. And the worst part was that I didn't even really notice.
I just let people tug me in all these different directions. I allowed myself
to be led by the hand my whole life. Which was great...but now, I'm lost.
I don't know what to do. All I know is how to follow. I've never been in charge
of my own life before. I'm scared, and I'm lost, and everyone is telling me to
just suck it up. They say that this is adulthood, and that I should just know.
But honestly... I'm lost.
»
I heard her crying in the middle of the night.
It was hard not to, I mean, her room was
right next to mine. At first I didn't do anything.
I just left her alone. But after a while, those 
cries start to eat at your soul. Your friend is
sobbing in the next room, and you're just
sitting there pretending you don't hear it.
So I went into her room, closed the door, 
and I just...held her. I didn't say anything,
and neither did she. We just held onto each
other, and I let her know that I was there.
That I wasn't gonna ignore her anymore.
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