I'm April
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I have a boyfriend!
We have been dating since 4.2.12
A couple bands I commonly listen to are:
The Strokes, MGMT, The Beatles, Sublime, Weezer,
Blink-182, Pink Floyd, Coldplay, Beach Day,and The Eels.
I practically live off Arizona tea, mainly iced tea or iced tea and lemonade.
In my free time I take pictures, draw, attempt to learn songs on bass,
listen to music, walk and take long romantic walks to the fridge.
My Instagram is AprilArmadillo if you would like to follow me!
I enjoy playing Pokemon, Halo 4 and Minecraft.
I also don't feel like finishing this diamond.
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AprilArmadillo's Favorite Quotes
Sail ↵
Tears burnt my
cheeks as they rolled down, ever so casually and for a moment, just
a moment, I didn’t have to pretend I was okay or that
everything would be okay. I didn’t need to be optimistic, I
didn’t need to be happy and I didn’t need to feel the
way everyone else was feeling. I could be myself.
The truth had burnt a hole in my heart. You don’t want me
– you don’t love me. Sounds pathetic, right? And in a
way, yes, it is pathetic. It’s pathetic that I’ve let
one boy make me feel so worthless, so good for nothing.
You had always been a nice guy. You have one hell of a sense of
humour and even if you weren’t the cutest fish in the sea, in
my eyes you were flawless. I couldn’t describe the way I felt
for you. Not then, not now – all I can say is that I felt
unstoppable when I was with you. You made me feel pretty; you made
me feel like I was worth it.
You had always been my first thought when I woke up and my last
thought when I fell asleep. Funny how you still are but when I
think of him I don’t become happy anymore and I don’t
smile. I frown and sometimes, I cry because I miss what we had and
I just didn’t want you to be in love with someone else. Who
was I kidding, though?
“It’s going to be okay! It’s not the end of
the world.” I didn’t understand how so many people
could say that when you were my world. You were my everything and
it was hard to go on pretending I didn’t know you and
pretending you had never been sprawled across my bed, laughing at
me with that contagious laugh while I danced around in my pajamas.
It was hard to forget about that one time when I had run to you,
crying because of something that seems so stupid now and you had
held me until I calmed down and whispered sweet nothings into my
ear. It was hard not to remember our first time, the way you had
been so gently and caring with me. It was hard not to remember the
first time you told me “I love you.” The way
you had held my face. It was hard to forget your laugh. It was hard
to forget your eyes – the chocolate brown that I could stare
into for forever. It was hard to forget your smile but most of all;
it was hard to forget the way I felt when I was around you. I was
scared I’d never feel that way with anyone, ever again.
I had waited days and days for you to break up with me. I knew it
was coming. You started to distant yourself from me and we started
spending less and less time together and sometimes, you pretended
you didn’t get my texts when I knew you had. I tried not to
be clingy, I gave you some space, I stopped texting you so much,
stopped bugging you but you had already made up your mind.
“I’m sorry, Elise. It’s not you it’s
me. I just don’t think I’m in a position in my
life where I should be dating.” Why were you running
around, laughing with her a couple of days later? Why had
you left me abandoned with no one to turn to?
Nobody understood. Everybody thought you were just another boy with
a cute smile. Everybody told me that in a year, I probably
wouldn’t even remember what we had shared but I know
they’re wrong. Nobody could ever make me forget the way you
had made me feel, even if I wanted so badly to forget. I tried
everything to forget.
I went out, I got drunk, I went home with a stranger but in the
end, I just couldn’t do it. All I could think about was you,
the way you had touched me. I couldn’t stop
comparing the man with you and he was nothing compared to you. I
ended up leaving before anything happened because I couldn’t
go through with it. You were in my veins. You are in my
veins. I love you and I beg you, please don’t be in love
with someone else.
10 Things I realized When You Left Me:
1. Some people believe there is life after death and I was never
sure if I did until you left me and I continued to breathe.
2. I found myself searching for a new lover immediately so that I
may be able to trick my heart into believing that you never
existed. It was a desperate and unfair thing to do and now
I’m feeling your absence more than ever.
3. “I love you” doesn’t mean what I thought it
did.
4. You always made fun of me for savoring my food so much that I
finished eating 10 minutes after you. I should have savored your
laugh more than my macaroni and cheese.
5. You made giving hickeys a competition and you always won. You
still win because even though my skin is clear to everybody else,
I can see dark purple marks all over my body when I look in the
mirror.
6. I need to remember my time with you so that I can fix all my
mistakes when another boy walks into my life, if that ever
happens.
7. You were my winter, spring, summer and autumn love and every
single day of this upcoming year is going to be filled with
overwhelming nostalgia of you pushing me on the swingset and
tucking me into your bed.
8. I have hardwood floors and a blue bed-set that you bought for
me and you have off-white carpet and a fuzzy green blanket that
you like to use even though it gets too warm. You used to always
discover strands of my hair in your bed or my stray bobby pins
embedded in your rug. In the last couple days that we were
together you re-did your room and every piece of me was flushed
out and now I’m left with memories of you in my wooden
floorboards and sheets that I can’t bring myself to
wash.
9. Once, we bought a bag of pretzels and you didn’t believe
me when I told you that I could bite them just right so that they
formed a heart until I did it in front of you three times in a
row. I tried to do it again yesterday but my teeth kept slipping
and I cut my lips on sharp bits of salt and bread. Even my
pretzel-hearts broke when you left.
10. I’ve seen people with your shape of fingernails, or the
same broad shoulders as yours, but I don’t think I will
ever find another somebody like you. r.m.
Has trust
issues? Well, she's been lied to & made to
believe she isn't worth the truth.
That girl has jealousy issues? Well,
she's been told other girls were just friends & had to
find out they were more than that.
That girl has an attitude problem?
Well, she's been abused & had to put make-up on her
bruises to hide them.
That girl has emotional problems? Well,
she's been used for s/ex & left alone to feel like a fool
for catching feelings.
That girl is selfish? Well, she's
given so much of herself just to end up with nothing in the
end.
That girl is a b/tch? Well, she was a
nice girl & what she got in return was her kindness being
taken advantage of.
So before you think of a girl in a
certain way, know that there is a reason why
she is, the way she is.