ArcticBrittany

I hate arguing with my younger sister because she always says something about my weight or brings up my self harm.

I thought family was supposed to make you feel better about your insecurities not use them against you.

One time my older sister threatened to have her friend in a gang kill me.

I dont know why i made an account on here. I'm not a good writer and im not good at poetry and im not witty.

Just boring 'ol  'ArcticBrittany'

I don't want to be a product of my environment. I want my environment to be a product of me. 

F. Costello

The Departed (2006)

Is it possible to OD on melatonin pills?

I'm afraid to tell my mom that i want help.

Im afraid she might say i dont need it.

Im afraid of how my family will treat me.

Im afraid of all the questions.

Im afraid that they wont believe me.

A few times in life when my confidence was boosted:

My mom has a friend that she met through a myspace game and the first time she saw a picture of my sisters and i she said i was the prettiest. 

A few summers ago my mom, sisters and i used to frequent a local pool and this guy used to come with his grandmaw. The guy was super cute so my little sister found him on facebook(like the stalker she is) and started texting him and he told her i was prettier than her

My Grandmaws neighbours son hung out with my little sister one time and asked for my phone number and only talked about me.

It seems petty but... y'know.

I wonder if i will ever get older and think back at times like these where i can say im glad that i didnt kill myself.

Everyone in my family is obsessed with weed.

The only thing im obsessed with is getting a job and education so i can get the fück out of here.... and bands

I dont know what it feels like to be a first choice. I bet it feels great to be wanted.