PainOfAPoet*

Status: Witty used to be so much better...
Joined: June 17, 2011
Last Seen: 3 years
user id: 184115
Location: Lost in my thoughts
*Sigh*

Quotes by PainOfAPoet*

I don't want to die ;

I just don't want to live .
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depression
The only thing someone should ever hit you with is good feelings.
Anything else and they don't deserve to be in your life
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mine...

When I think of the words that were said to me a fury begins to grow within me
Cuz after you said it you just disappeared
And this mark that I bear is still seen and it wears thin
Left me struggling to breathe, man I‘m out of air
You said that you still cared for me but only talk to me a month out of a year
Baby turn around let me see your smile not a frown cuz even when I feel down I’ll still go around and out of my way for you no matter what you do I’ll still see to it that you make it through
Thinking of what left your lips before you dipped out of our relationship, I wanna punch something and smash my fist, snap my wrist and try to fix this problem between our tryst
Mouth to mouth, hip to hip, doubt with doubt and skip the slip
Don’t wanna fall into another story don’t wanna have to make another rhyme
Don’t wanna rewind the time, I’m in purgatory, just a heartache that went spiraling for miles behind the lies
My eyes can’t cry no more they’re dry and I’m still here asking why
Bloody buckle, broken bones
Cracked knuckle and kickin cones
Hurting heart, hiding hell
Wounding words and wishing wells
Just a mess of distress and I gotta compress the rest, suppress testin death until I can fester the courage to pester the jester who invested in me, gave me light and requested me, resurrected me just to say you detested me
Got a visitor at my door, ringing the bell but I can’t take anymore, hidin in my room not even walking to a store, scared I’ll see your face if I even walk a little more,
I did everything for - you but it wasn’t enough
You called my bluff and when it came time I wasn’t tough enough to hold this stuff, it’s getting rougher with each puff I inhale, my mail’s gone stale cuz I move at the pace of a snail that’s been nailed in place, can’t erase the memory of your face no matter how faded I become, jaded ain’t this fun?
And can I just say that I hated feeling that way, felt naked and betrayed when I replayed the voice mail that said “I’ll stay”, but you strayed, And I’d trade anything for you
And I never knew a heart could be down weighed, all because you masqueraded the love we made with a hand grenade
Bleeding blades, beaten bad
Mistakes made, and mildly mad
Poisoned pistols, pulling pins
Serrated slicer, and simmering sins
Now read me back what I said so I can relive the moments again,
Don’t want to leave my own head but I have to if I want this hell to end
Hard to move on when I'm still stuck in the past
We didn’t last but let’s play pretend and say we had,
Would we still be together forever or would it be over just as fast
If I had just taken off my mask instead of putting tasks ahead of the questions you’d ask would the blast
That scattered the cast not have shattered the glass
Could it have been mended if only we had defended our right and surrendered the fight and bended the light
No more energy to write about the gap in an ending full of ash I was just being polite, trash the stash and crash, quick let’s end it all tonight.
Looking in the mirror trying to see my reflection clearer but even as I get nearer the face I see doesn’t look like me, not like how I used to be, before this misery you caused, Just feelin empty and incomplete, hear your laugh when I'm creepin down the street and my heart still skips a beat
Nothing could compete cuz my love for you will never be obsolete
Man if I had just one chance to go back before the romance, before I gave you a second glance and warn myself in advance that your look would keep me in a trance,
I could stop myself there on the street and say “hey man don’t go this way. Just keep on walking do what you gotta do on a different day, cuz I got x-ray vision and I can see that the buffet you’re going to has a cliché in store for you” and I can try to delay my road-to-be, lead myself astray from the path destiny has chose for me,
And if I don’t believe me I got scars that I can see, pull up my sleeve and say “this is what she did to me. We used to call her our sweetie but candy gives you cavities and it’s a tragedy that this happened to me, and naturally I wanted to ignore the assault and battery, the felonies and gallantly I tried to happily be what she needed, but she just made my life into a travesty so take it from me, turn around back down the street, go home and go to sleep and stay inside another week, maybe smoke a little weed if you feel like you need to but whatever you do don’t go outside or she might see you”
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poetry
You told me you loved me, and then you told me you hated me.
You said I could believe whichever one I thought was true.
One broken heart later,
I realize I chose the wrong one.
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Mine... Hollywood Undead lyrics in there at one point.

Please I don’t wanna say goodbye
You already did when you chose his side
Please I don’t wanna hurt either of you
You hurt me more times than I ever hurt you
Please just give me one more chance
You should of thought of that before starting a romance
Please I'm sorry let me in let me through
You forced me away when you said you loved him too
Please I’ll do my best I just want you back
Don’t tell me “you feel sad I'm sorry, hell no, f*ck that”
Please I’ll do anything what do you need
You gave up that right when you told me to leave
Please I'm begging you please just don’t go
You made me walk away when you didn’t love me so.
Please I'm trying I want to make this right
You let me walk away and didn’t even put up a fight.
Please I was wrong I won’t let go again
You put pain in my heart and doubt in my head
Please I didn’t mean it I was stupid I'm sorry
You believed all my lies cuz you didn’t want to worry
Please I love you come back to my arms
You caused me such pain, you caused me such harm.
Please forgive me I was foolish and dumb
You broke my heart and two and left me feeling numb
Please I know I can fix this just give me one try
You left me alone and all alone to cry
Please without you I realized you’re all that I lack
You tore me apart because you didn’t love me back
Please I mean it I really and truly love you
You kill me inside cuz baby I love you too
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Who do you think of,
When you lay down to sleep?
Is it him, is it me,
Or do you lay there counting sheep?
 
When you’re alone together,
Do I ever cross your mind?
Do you ever think of me,
When you take time to unwind?
 
When you lay together,
His arms around you tight.
Do you see my smile,
Tell me do you miss me tonight?
 
When you guys make love,
Is it hard not to say my name?
When he asks you what you’re thinking of,
Is it hard to hide the shame?
 
When he gives you a flower,
And I give you a rose.
Is it better when he holds you,
Or when I used to kiss your nose?
 
It’s so hard not to let go,
And cry to myself at night.
It’s hard not to let things be,
Hard when it feels this right.
 
*chorus*
Tell me who would it come down to
If you had to choose?
Who would it come down to,
Which one would you lose?
Who would it come down to,
Which one would be together?
Who would it come down to,
Who’d be your forever?
Who would it come down to,
If I said I love you so?
Who would it come down to,
Would you stay or would you go?
 
When he ignores your texts,
And I Skype you all the time.
Tell me which one would you choose,
Would you let me make you mine?
 
I make the time to see you,
I make the time to try.
He makes the time to f/ck you,
And you watch as I cry.
 
I make the time to hold you,
I make the time to tear.
He makes the time to f/ck you,
And it happens like I fear.
 
Maybe I could do it,
If you didn’t love him so.
Maybe I could be with you,
If I didn’t have to go.
 
He shares what we used to have
Now I'm all alone again.
He shares what I want to have,
Now all I feel is pain.
 
You try your best to love me,
And your best to make me smile.
But tell me if I asked you,
Who’d be walking down that aisle?
 
*chorus*
Tell me who would it come down to
If you had to choose?
Who would it come down to,
Which one would you lose?
Who would it come down to,
Which one would be together?
Who would it come down to,
Who’d be your forever?
Who would it come down to,
If I said I love you so?
Who would it come down to,
Would you stay or would you go?
 
*Bridge*
If I told you to pick
Would it be me or him
If I told you to pick
Would I be passed by again?
If I told you to pick,
Would you say goodbye forever?
If I told you who to pick,
Would you guys stay together?
 
Is it stupid of me to still dream,
Of a better place to be.
Is it stupid of me to love you,
Is it stupid of me to believe?
 
When I see you guys together,
It tears my heart apart.
And I know that you see it,
You just can’t make it stop.
 
How can you ever choose,
When we have history.
When you love him more and more,
How can we be meant to be?
 
Am I conceited to think you want me,
Even though you said you do?
Am I stupid to think you’d love me,
When I'm rubber and he’s the glue?
 
How can I move on girl,
When I'm still into you?
How can I stop writing,
When there’s nothing else to do?
 
Nothing else to stop the pain,
Stop how I feel inside.
Just know when he’s around you,
I can’t help but to hide.
 
*Chorus*
Tell me who would it come down to
If you had to choose?
Who would it come down to,
Which one would you lose?
Who would it come down to,
Which one would be together?
Who would it come down to,
Who’d be your forever?
Who would it come down to,
If I said I love you so?
Who would it come down to,
Would you stay or would you go?
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There was a light inside my eyes,
So brightly it use to show.
Now I feel lifeless and numb,
But I'm scared to die alone.
 
I could drag it ‘cross my wrist
Until I hit the bone.
I could end it all tonight,
But I'm scared to die alone.
 
I hear your voice in my head
And I reach out for the phone
Just one word is all I need,
Cuz I'm scared to die alone.
 
I need a better heart,
Do you have one I can loan?
I’d just get rid of this one,
But I'm scared to die alone.
 
The music keeps me sane
As I sit in a quiet home
No one would notice if I left tonight
But I'm scared to die alone.
 
How can I be expected to do this on my own,
If there’s another way than can it make itself known
Cuz the endless night is cold
And I'm scared to die alone.
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Girl I'd Kill For You - written by me :D

You remember when I bought you that bottle of wine,
And I told you I’d do anything for you for the first time?
If you don’t then rewind,
Maybe you’ll realize I wasn’t telling a lie,
It started with little things and then it started to climb up higher.

I used to buy you jewelry and take you to the club,
I used to buy you flowers, like the roses that you love.
I used to buy you pills and drugs,
And beer cuz you’d wanna get f*cked up,
When you were feeling low we’d look at the stars above.
 
I thought that we’d say we made it,
Cuz even when you said you hated me and baited me
Still we dated cuz the love we created, but then you vacated the premises.
Left me alone and wouldn’t return any of my messages,
There’s evidence that this innocence has left instead.
 
*pre-chorus*
I said I’d do anything for you and I wasn’t lying,
You kicked me down but still Ima keep on trying,
It feels like I'm dying and my wiring is frying.
I said I’d do anything for you and I wasn’t kidding,
The numbness I feel is chilling,
And when I say I’ll do anything for you that includes killing.
 
*chorus*
Even though we’re broken up I’ll do anything for you,
If you’d just answer the door I’d show I still adore you,
I still stand by the words that I swore to you,
And if it comes down to it, girl I’d kill for you.
I still remember how it was before too,
When you weren’t with that wh*ore-dude.
If you’d just listen I could reassure you,
That if it comes down to it, girl I’d kill for you.
 
I used to grab a razor blade and put it to my skin,
I used to believe in God and go to church confession.
I’d confess my love for you and all about my sins.
I used to ask how your day was and how your week had been,
I used to kiss your forehead and the bottom of your chin.
 
Do you remember that ring I got for our one year?
The one that took away your breath and made your eyes tear?
Do you remember that when I held you it’d take away your fear,
I know you remember when I took you to that movie premiere,
We went up on the roof and you said you “loved the view from here”
 
*pre-chorus*
I said I’d do anything for you and I wasn’t lying,
You kicked me down but still Ima keep on trying,
It feels like I'm dying and my wiring is frying.
I said I’d do anything for you and I wasn’t kidding,
The numbness I feel is chilling,
And when I say I’ll do anything for you that includes killing.
 
*chorus*
Even though we’re broken up I’ll do anything for you,
If you’d just answer the door I’d show I still adore you,
I still stand by the words that I swore to you,
And if it comes down to it, girl I’d kill for you.
I still remember how it was before too,
When you weren’t with that wh*re-dude.
If you’d just listen I could reassure you,
That if it comes down to it, girl I’d kill for you.
 
*bridge*
I took that f*cking knife, and then I took his f*cking life.
I took that f*cking razor and I ended it tonight!
I took that f*cking knife, and then I took his f*cking life.
I took that f*cking razor and I ended it tonight!
I had this great idea on how to win your heart,
So I slit his f*cking throat and tore his limbs apart.
I had this great idea on how to win your heart,
So I slit his f*cking throat and tore his limbs apart.
 
*pre-chorus*
I said I’d do anything for you and I wasn’t lying,
You kicked me down but still Ima keep on trying,
It feels like I'm dying and my wiring is frying.
I said I’d do anything for you and I wasn’t kidding,
The numbness I feel is chilling,
And when I say I’ll do anything for you that includes killing.
 
*chorus*
Even though we’re broken up I’ll do anything for you,
If you’d just answer the door I’d show I still adore you,
I still stand by the words that I swore to you,
And if it comes down to it, girl I’d kill for you.
I still remember how it was before too,
When you weren’t with that wh*re-dude.
If you’d just listen I could reassure you,
That if it comes down to it, girl I’d kill for you.
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Maybe if I could draw a picture,
You’d see how much I love you
Maybe if I could write a story,
You could end it with “me too.”
 
Maybe if I could sing a song,
You’d know who I wrote it for.
Maybe if I could play guitar,
You’d know the meaning behind each chord.
 
Maybe if I could be a police officer,
You’d see how much I’d bend the rules.
Maybe if I could buy you a star,
You’d know that you’re my moon.
 
Maybe if I could be a doctor,
You’d know I’d keep you healthy and safe.
Maybe if I could run a marathon,
You’d know it was for you I got first place.
 
Maybe if I could touch the sky,
You’d know I’d pull you down a cloud.
Maybe if I was someone famous,
You’d know I’d spot you in the crowd.
 
Maybe if I could just tell you how I felt,
You’d say you feel the same.
Maybe since I couldn’t before,
I really am the one to blame.
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