COMMITING SUICIDE IS THE MOST SELFISH
THING HE’S EVER DONE.
A) HE WAS STEALING, HE TOOK SOMETHING
PRECIOUS FROM PEOPLE AND DESTROYED
IT.
HE
ROBBED HIMSELF OF A LIFE.
HE ROBBED THE GIRL WHO
WOULD’VE BEEN HIS WIFE.
HE ROBBED THE KIDS
WHO COULD’VE BEEN HIS.
HE ROBBED HIS
FAMILY, MY FAMILY AND HIS FRIENDS OF MINUTES HE COULD’VE
SPENT WITH US.
HE ROBBED HIMSELF
OF FUTURE HAPPINESS.
AND
MOST OF ALL, HE ROBBED THE WORLD OF
HIM.
B) IT DIDN’T FIX
ANYTHING.
IT MAKES HIS MOM CRY HERSELF TO
SLEEP EVERY NIGHT AND HIS FATHER TO LOSE HIMSELF IN GRIEF. IT HAS
HIS SISTER FEELING SO GUILTY THAT SHE DIDN'T NOTICE HOW SAD HE
WAS.IT MAKES HER FEELS STUPID AND HOPELESS AND EVERTYIME SHE WALKS
BY YOUR ROOM SHE SEE’S YOUR TROPHIES AND THE PICTURE OF YOU
AND ANDREW, JAKE AND ME AT CANOBIE WHERE ALL OF US WERE SMILING
(Were you sad then? Why didn’t I see it? Why didn’t I
see you before? You could’ve reached out and told us, we
would take a bullet for you. WE WOULD HAVE GIVEN OUR LIVES FOR
YOU.) SHE WALKS BY THE CLOSET FULL OF THE CLOTHES YOU WORE AND THE
BED YOU SLEPT IN AND PAINTINGS YOU COLORED. YOU MADE YOUR BROTHER
QUIT BASKETBALL AND THROW AWAY THE SCHOLARSHIP HE COULD'VE
GOTTEN BECAUSE EVERYTIME HE STEPS ON THAT COURT HE FALLS TO HIS
KNEES AND CRIES. YOU MAKE YOUR LITTLE SISTER BURST INTO TEARS
EVERYTIME SHE HEARS THE WORDS BUBBLES, RAWR, CATFISH AND BEAUTIFUL
SHE DOESN’T KNOW WHY YOU DID IT AND NEITHER DO
I.
IT HURTS; I KNOW THE PAIN IS AWFUL. YOU
FEEL LIKE NOTHING IS EVER GOING TO GET BETTER. LIFE IS JUST THIS
INESCAPABLE BLACK HOLE SUCKING EVERYTHING IMPORTANT FROM YOU AND
DESTROYING YOUR LIFE AND YOU WON'T EVER BE HAPPY AGAIN.
BUT THE THING IS YOU WILL BE, YOU'LL LAUGH AGAIN AND YOU WILL
MEAN IT. YOU'LL SMILE AND YOU'LL FEEL IT RADIATING THROUGH
YOU.
TRUST ME, SOMEDAY YOU WILL FEEL HAPPY AGAIN. DON'T ROB YOURSELF
OF THAT.
AND PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE DON'T MAKE ANYONE FEEL WHAT I FEEL,
WHAT MY FAMILY FEELS BECAUSE YOU WILL BE MISSED. I WISH I
COULD'VE HELD HIM AND TOLD HIM IT WILL BE ALRIGHT, I WISH I
COULD WIPED HIS TEARS AND TOLD HIM THAT I LOVED HIM BECAUSE I NEVER
GOT THE CHANCE.