I'm so mad right now ! I don't care what y'all think
, I'm gonna vent . I thought I was over him , but i guess
I'm not . He was my EVERYTHING when we were together . My
best friend & my boyfriend . He was my first love . I did
everything wit him . I truly believe I loved him , yes in the
relationship I messed up A LOT & he took me back after
everything I did . But then one day he just got tired of it .
Right when I thought I had everything , I lost it all . I missed
him so much all day & everyday . Looking back , I
wasn't ready for that relationship & now I feel like I am
, but it won't happen . It's been almost 11 months since
the break up & he's still the first on my mind when I
wake up & the last when I go to sleep . Every night before I
sleep , I imagine him by my side & I know I should move on
but that's easier said than done . I still sleep with his
jacket & I still have our pictures in my phone . I learned to
accept the fact that some things won't be how they used to
but IDK ! I don't know why I feel this way ! It's been a
long time already & I'm so mad at myself for caring &
getting upset ove it , he's moved on 3 or 4 times already
& I still haven't yet . I just feel like crying now &
that noone understands .
:(