AtWarWithHerself

hi there. you can call me AtWarWithHerself. it's not that i don't have a name. i actually do have a personal witty account. but that's classified. there are some things i need to say, that my friends can't really see. or at least, i'm not so comfortable with them seeing. i guess i'll come to this account when i'm feeling down. maybe when i decide to give myself another battle scar, or maybe when i'm tempted to. maybe when i wish for an eating disorder out of guilt. i'm really not sure. but i know that this is what i need. an anonymous place to vent and let go of my feelings when my friends shouldn't know. i'm really not sure what's been going on with me. i get really depressed sometimes. maybe not truly depressed, maybe just really really sad. but it sometimes gets to the point where i cut. i have days when i'm beyond happy. i'm laughing, smiling, living, wanting to live. but sometimes, behind closed doors, i'm crying, i'm cutting, i'm dying on the inside. i guess, when i really really think deeply, i question my entire existence. why am i here? what point do i have being here? and what happens when i'm gone? i guess i get really sad about these things. idunno, maybe there's something mentally wrong with me. or maybe i'm just being a stereotypical girl. but whatever it is, i know i need to vent. so i guess that's it then. hit me up if you wanna know more. peaceskies.