Badash

You hold the key to my whole life. You can make or break me. So far, I wonder if you were meant for power, because I'm falling apart.

I miss seeing you everyday and seeing you smile.
I miss when you missed me just as much.
I miss the times when we stayed up all night just to talk to each other, told each other everything.
We'd cry. We'd laugh. We'd be close. 
I want to see you again.
Not the Ice Queen you seem to be many times at school. 
Not just the little flashes of you I see when you start a conversation with me in school. 
I'm afraid when school ends, we're going to stop contact.
I can't. 
You know me. 
No one else knows me like that.

We're friends, but I miss being that close. 

ᵎᵐ ᴶᵉᵃᶫᵒᵘᶳ ᵒᶠ ᵗᵸᵉᵐ ᵃᵑᵈ ᵎ ᵸᵃᵗᵉ ᵎᵗ

i was happy just ten minutes ago
now i sob
why
i just want to know why you--
its not your fault, forget it
you cant control it
and neither can i
just screw it all
everything

That one person who it hurts so badly to be away from, even if you just left them five minutes ago. 

 

theres a man
i dont know him
hes tall
maybe fourty
balding
i cant see his face
hes dark
hes not real, but he scares me

i burden you
you never say i do
but i know it
i wish when you told me things
i knew what to say
instead of making it relate to myself
i am not good enough for you
but i love you so much
i dont know how much i know
but there's a lot that i dont know
not just about you, though
about everything
even myself
you know me better than anyone, even me
my twisted, unrhyming poetry.

i had the worst dream last night
you were there
you were upset
but you didnt come to me
you went to the other girl
i tried to talk to you
you ignored me for her
you hugged her
i died inside
and i know it was dream
but it was so real, i woke up crying

I really want to see my best friend right now.