BeautifulDiaster

Because believe me, I know that smile. I know what it feels like to reply, "I'm fine" when someone asks how you are. But not because you're fine. Just because you're used to saying it, that you don't even think about it anymore. You don't even realize the question is being asked. Your response is just so rehearsed that it just comes out with no effort.Just like that beautiful smile. It breaks your heart to lie to those you love. It's so hard to tell them that everything is fine. But it's even harder to tel them the truth. You don't want to be in such a vunerable state. You can't handle that kind of pity.  But you have to believe in me when I tell you you're not alone. I'm here for you. I understand that reflection you see everynight. The one you don't even recongnize anymore. That same smile you've been wearing for years to fool everyone into thinking you're fine, has finally fooled you. Just for that split second, when you look in the mirror and see that stranger smiling back at you, you believe it. You actually think you might be happy, but then your heart starts to hurt, your body starts to ache, your tears start to flood and all the memories come back. You're not okay. You're not happy. You're dying from the inside out, and nobody even bothers to notice. You feel like you're here alone and everyone has given up on you. But you have to believe me, You're not alone. I'm here. I'm right here holding your hand  I'm rubbing your back as you cry on my shoulder. Even if you can't hear me or see me, I'm here. I'm not going anywhere. Because I know what it's liketo want to just throw it all away and say "Forget it" I know what it feels like to think "I'm not worth it. Nobody cares about me, and everyone leaves. So it's my turn. I'm going to be the one that leaves this time, and leave them hurting and alone." But you are so incredibly worth it. Your life matters to me. Even if we've never talked, or I don't even know your name. I'm here for you and I care about you. and I care about you. I don't want you to go anywhere. I know it's tough, but hang in there. Do it for me. Do it for everyone that's ever told you they loved you. I'm so sorry you have to wear that fake smile everyday, but stay strong. Stay Strong and hold on to the mystery of tomorrow, beautiful. 

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