I miss you
so much;
We knew this day would come. The day we'd
have to end what we had to keep everyone else happy. I'm not
angry with you. We both knew all along that this day was going to
come, I just hate the fact that it came so soon. I guess it was
kind of like a Romeo and Juliet kind of relationship. We were
happy, but there was people who wouldn't accept it. There was
people who wouldn't allow us to be together. People that we
love, who wouldn't allow us to be happy. If we could run
away, just the two of us, I'd do it. If we could leave
everyone behind, everyone who we loved and cared for, I
wouldn't even hesitate. I've never been this deep in. But
I'm stuck and I can't get out. I can feel myself slipping
into depression again. I want you to know that none of this is
your fault. I never for a second blamed you. But I do
promise you that I'll wait for you, I'll wait forever if
I have to. I just hope you'll wait too. I know you love me
and I love you too. But just like Romeo and Juliet, that
doesn't matter to anyone. The way they see it, is we did
something wrong. They think what we did was terrible. But they
don't see the beauty of it. The way you make me feel
absolutely beautiful. Like nothing could ever hurt me. The way I
feel safe in your arms and how I'm not self conscious of my
body while we're together. That's something special and
no one else has ever given me the same feeling. I guess in a way
you were my first love and you always will be. I'm not going
to lie. I've told people I love them before, and not because
they said it first, but because I was to young and naive to
realise that it wasn't love. With you, everything was
different. It was like the sun was shining brighter. I wont ever
be able to replace that feeling, nor will I want to. As much as
it kills me to watch you walk away, I know, deep down, that
it's what you had to do. I just wish they would accept it. So
we can be together. It kills me sitting here, listening to these
songs, writing this quote, wondering if maybe you're going to
listen to them, and move on. Find someone who they'll be
happy with. It scares the crap out of me. I want you to be happy,
more then anything in the world, even if it means you being with
someone else. I know it's going to hurt, and I know it'll
kill me inside, but I just want you to be happy. I love you and I
know you love me too. I just hate the fact that sometimes
love's just not enough. I love you, my blue-eyed angel. And
I'll love you for every day to come.
♥
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