BehindtheseEyes

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Joined: September 5, 2011
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Hello, Im Jane Doe. No not really but as far as your concerned. Well I love music. Drawing. Singing. Writing. Reading. Just normal stuff. I have problems. Well not problems but more like... Yeah problems. I have issues. I am like every other girl there is. I have a crush. I have bad days, Good days. Obbsessions, enemies(even if I won't admit it) and best friends. I have a sick obbsession with Flamingos, Paper cranes, Uggs, Mustaches, and Lovey dovey songs. I cry and I laugh. I smile and frown. I love, I dislike. I'm pretty much normal but heres the catch:
I cut myself. I know why. I'm not weak. I don't want to die. I just can't cope with the pain any other way. I want to be free of pain. Physical and emoional pain are to similar for me. Thats part of the reason. But the other part is emptiness. Talk to me. I could help you. You could help me.. My crush and friends are amazing. I call him my Johnny Cash, He calls me his June. We thought of that before Katy Perry. I love music and art if you didn't read the box on top of this. But yeah this is a vent acount. I have another but I don't use it. Talk to me, get to know me, don't judge a book by their cover.

Quotes by BehindtheseEyes

Confession #24:
I have a cross tattoed on my heart... Like I said before I'm jewish, but I got it before I converted... it says 'Stay Faithful' and I did it myself... like last summer. It's so majestic.

Confession #23:
I'm Jewish. No one else in my family is, but I am.

Cofession #22:
I have junglefever hardcore... If you're a black guy I love you already.

Confession #20:
When I Ugly-Cry I hiccupp.

My friends Anthony and Cambrea broke up, and she blames me for it. Apperently if I'm crying my eyes out then he can't give me a hug to make me stop.

Confession #19:
It's called a social- anxiety- disorder. It's why I am always eating my lunch in the restroom, and sometimes just not eating. Because I can't stand eating in public.

Don't be surprised if I don't wake up tomorrow. Im so 'happy' I could die.

I'm living Young, Wild and Free<3

Confession #18:
I just cut myself, and I'm ready to say why. I have terrible self esteem. I am never told I am pretty, and no guy ever asks me out. I have a few friends, and I have acne all over my face. I spend hours editing my photos for facebook but no one likes them. And even though I am funny all I want is for someone to call me beautiful. Once, back in 6th grade I had a boyfriend for 6 months, he would never kiss me because he was gay. But at the time I didn't know it. He came out to me and then told me it would never work out because He didn't want to look better than his girlfriend. Then in seventh grade I met him. Mike. I told him I liked him and he would always listen to my problems. Then one day he found out I cut myself and he told him dad, then his dad told my mom and she didnt let me shave for months. Now they call me a monkey in gym class Still. Me and Mike were never quite as close although I wouldn't ever tell him that I still cut myself. I was close to getting asked out a few weeks ago but he just chickened out. Now this boy is the nicest guy ever. He gets the door for people and then paid for my lunch one day because he wanted me to eat, even though I went to the bathroom to eat. I really like him as more than a friend but a 'popular' girl told me I didn't stand a chance. That didn't help the esteem issue. I bought this Barbie chain to wear and make me feel pretty, I don't know why I even tried. But this girl, she came and told me I should go and take it off because I wasnt pretty with it on and I wasnt close to Barbie material... I just can't take much more of this. Thankyou if you read this all <3