BelieveInnerBeauty

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Joined: October 13, 2010
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user id: 128549
Hello, my name is Stephanie. I hail from the land of polar bears and moose. My parents forgot to use protection nine months prior to November 15. My life basically revolves around photography, writing, music, and writing music.
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Since I'm a total cool kid, I keep a blog:

solstice-blogger.blogspot.com

I also adore my Tumblr:

paradiseparlour.tumblr.com
Music I Like:
Owl City    Taylor Swift    Coldplay    Hammock    Parachute    Paper Route           Foster The People    Bon Iver    Arcade Fire    Passion Pit    The One AM Radio    Adele      Death Cab For Cutie      Cage The Elephant      Never Shout Never     Pixie Lott      Breathe Electric    He Is We    Skrillex    Panic! At The Disco    Arctic Monkeys    Christina Grimmie    Weatherstar    Eluvium    Unicorn Kid    Keith Urban    LIGHTS    The Script    Swimming With Dolphins    The Black Keys    City And Colour             Winter Gloves    Cut Off Your Hands    Friendly Fires    Ellie Goulding    Son Lux       The Dudes    The Shins    Two Door Cinema Club    My Favorite Highway    Lemaitre    Pogo    P.SUS    Canon Blue

Quotes by BelieveInnerBeauty

he's drunk again and expects me not to be mad. whattheheckman. you said you dont do it every weekend, but so far you have. i dont like it. but. how i feel is irrelevant. as long as you dont do something stupid. which you probably will. because, no offence (actually offence is intended), you can be very stupid sometimes. but so can i. and i still love you. asdfghjkl. rage
talk to me when you're sober.

When you see one of your
best friends
trying to steal your
boyfriend
.

My heart hurts.

 




A n d  s o m e t i m e s ,
I wonder if he looks at me and thinks:

'I miss her.'



 



and sometimes i wish you'd tell them that you miss me.




 

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i know i messed up, and i hope i didnt change the way you feel. i honestly dont know what i'm feeling in regards to the topics of our discussions and it scares me. i'm scared of a lot of things. please. forgive me. i'm afraid to speak my mind in fear of losing you and that is bad. but it's true. you should accept me with whatever i feel. but i don't think you will. so i will keep it to myself. give into the pressure? i dont know yet. i'm willing to do a lot of things to keep you with me, but i dont know if that's one of them. and i'm sorry i can't make up my mind. i need time. this is all too soon. way too soon. plus, i'm a little bit broken and a tad messed up. not to throw that at you or anything. stop treating me like i'm perfect. embrace the weirdness in me. tell me that you see it. because that's what i want. it's what i know. don't tell me i'm perfect because i'm far from it and it only makes me feel insecure. which is weird, i know. but hey, i'm a pretty weird person. so it fits the part. but you wouldnt know that. i hate this. this situation. my head says one thing and my heart says another and it's tearing me apart. i hate myself, but you wouldnt know that either.
how can you say you love me when i'm such a mess?

i don't know where you stand right now and that makes me scared and sad. asdfghjkl i hate how much i like you. and i love it at the same time because now i know it's possible to feel this way when i thought it wasnt. don't break my heart. please. pretty please. with a cherry on top. you're just so perfect. masdfasalefdasdjfk.

asdfghjkl ugh.

That pretty much says it all right now.

I'm so afraid. I'm afraid to let myself like him. Afraid to get hurt. I'm so scared. And confused. Am I doing the right thing? Is this how I'm supposed to feel? Cause it's a lot different than last time. Last time I was so sure. Now I'm hesitant and my heart's weary. I think I might of loved him last time. I'm stupid. Ugh. Liking him means letting go of last time. I'll never forget. UGH. Why me? What did I ever do wrong to deserve feeling like this. Just so much stress. I don't even know anymore. I don't know if I can do this right. I don't know how to act. I'll just mess everything up. Again. My mind is so scattered. Just so much going on. How hasn't he given up on me already? I'm so afraid.