BigCityDreams_x3

Sometimes it hurts to say goodbye
we have so many [{memories}] together. I don't want to say goodbye >->forever<-<, but I must. When I try to get over you, I get this way.  Sometimes it hurts.  So much to lose the ones you love. I tried so hard, too hard to hate you but it just makes it worse.  I only end up hating myself and I regret the decisions I made.  As the hatred grows, so do all of the lies.  It's hard to face the truth sometimes.  I feel so useless.  I hate myself right now.  I really need to get over you and move on.  Remember those kodak moments? The time you made me laugh and the time we kissed?  I miss those moments, very much.  I'm living in a world of lies.  I'm so deep in denial.  I can't believe I made it all this way, let's not stop now.  It doesn't have to be over.  Love isn't always what it seems.  There's not always a fairy tale ending and nothing ever goes the way you want it to.  Sometimes it hurts to love and it hurts to get over a love.  I know if there's any chance that we will find happiness, we must let go.  That's the way it is.  Things cannot change.  The damage is done and unrepairable.  Now I'm just wasting time.  I could already be moving on to someone else, but you refuse to leave me alone.  Stop haunting me.  Get out of my head.  Please, it was you, it was always you. You ruined it. ♥