HelloDepression*

Status: And I'll be gone gone tonight, the ground beneath my feet is open wide, the way that I been holdin' on too tight with nothing in between...
Joined: June 26, 2012
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"He is bad news..."
Chapter 43
Pain. Endless pain; that’s the only thing I could feel right now. Someone called 911 but I’m not sure who; I only heard screaming from above. Some neighbors maybe? Wait, what neighbors. This isn’t even my neighborhood.

I wasn’t quite sure where I was. All I could remember was me crying and my car colliding with a tree maybe? I really don’t know; my eyesight was awfully blurry from the tears.
My lashes fluttered slowly. I opened my eyes and saw some nurses above me, talking about something with a doctor. As soon as they saw me, their eyes shined.
“Hey, Evelyn” the doctor said softly.
 “Hi” I said, voice croaky.
“How are you feeling?”
“Sore” I spat out, trying to move my hands.
“Take it easy” he said, pinning my hands on the hospital bed again. “You just got out of a surgery; don’t knock yourself out” he added, smiling sympathetically.
I was about to speak, when a loud noise coming from outside made me scowl. “What’s happening?”
“Your family and friends are here to see you. But first, I have some questions” he said, his face serious now.
“Okay”.
“Do you have a boyfriend?”
I shook my head, feeling tears filling my eyes.
“There was a young boy around your age who got insane when he found out you had an accident. When we asked him he told us he’s your boyfriend, Miss Jensen” the doctor explained politely.
“Ex boyfriend” I corrected him. “That’s what he is”.
He whispered something to the nurse and she walked out, along with the other nurse. A few seconds after, Everett burst into the room. He looked so worried and his eyes were almost red; had he cried? What happened?
“Evelyn!” he shouted, walking to me.
“Everett” I breathed out.
“God, I was so worried” he said, hugging me tightly.
I hugged him back, feeling happy again. “I’m fine now, don’t worry”.
“I need to speak to you both” the doctor said.
“Wait, I want my family and best friend in here too” I said, feeling Everett’s hand intertwining with mine. I smiled at him before looking at the doctor again.
“Fine” he said and opened the door. Then, both my parents, Cassidy, Tom and Sienna entered the room. Mine and Sienna’s parents looked pleased to see me. I tried to let go of Everett’s hand but he mouthed a ‘They know’, which calmed me down a bit.
Then I remembered. My baby.
I looked up at the doctor. He gave me a sad look before looking around the room. Sienna was smiling at me, just like both our parents.
“I don’t know if she told you, but Miss Jensen had been four months pregnant” he announced.
The look on my parents’ faces was priceless. They looked so shocked, along with Sienna’s parents. Everett’s eyes snapped at me. He was pale white.
“Evelyn…?”
“Yes, Everett” I confirmed it. “That’s what I was trying to tell you these past three months”.
“The problem is…” the doctor trailed off.
“What?” I asked, my heart beating fast. “What’s the problem?”
Everyone was staring at the doctor. He took a deep breath before speaking.
“Due to the accident, you had a miscarriage”.
My breath hitched.
F*ck no.

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"He is bad news..."
Chapter 42 (part three)
I took a deep breath. “I’m gonna start with this. I didn’t kiss Zach, I never did. I was walking down the hallway to find Everett and he grabbed me into an empty room and kissed me, till I kicked him and escaped. Vince couldn’t have changed the video to show I kissed him, cause I never did. It would be disgusting to even thinking of locking lips with a person like Zach. He’s disgusting” I started.
She rolled her eyes. “Starting with the excuse? Good job”.
“It’s not an excuse. How could I even kiss him when I like someone else?” I said.
She looked at me. “What?”
“Yes, Sienna. I like someone else. I always did, since the day I turned six” I admitted.
“Who is it?” she asked indifferently.
I gulped. “Everett”.
Her eyes widened. “Everett? Aka my brother?”
“Yes”.
“But…but…”
“It all started eleven years ago. We met and started hanging out. We were friends, good friends, throughout the whole primary school. During junior high, though, he cut communication. He was popular and I wasn’t and he said it’d be the best for both of us. I believed him. We weren’t talking for almost seven years. Till the day you showed up. He looked at me. The party I came with you to was a chance to get to know him better. We kind of…did it. We did it it, actually. And then we started talking again. That day you thought he was breathless, it was because you almost caught us making out. That other day you came to me after the party and I was constantly going to the bathroom…he was hiding inside. I’m sorry I lied to you, but I couldn’t tell you. Now I’m telling you: how could I ever kiss Zach and betray you like that when my heart belongs to Everett?” I finished my small speech.
She was completely breathless. “Oh God” she just whispered. “You and Everett…I just can’t believe it”. I noticed some small tears in her eyes.
“Don’t…”
“You never trusted me” she breathed out. “You…”
“You hated him, Sienna. I thought you did. We, both, didn’t wanna tell you” I apologized, feeling tears rolling down my cheeks.
“I can’t believe it, Evelyn! I thought we were friends! And now you came here to tell me you were f*cking with my brother for almost a month without telling me?” she shouted, crying.
“I’m sorry! I was afraid of your reaction” I cried.
“F*ck this sh*t! What else are you hiding, Evelyn?” she narrowed her eyes.
My breath hitched. “I’m…”
“Yes?”
I inhaled deeply.
“I’m pregnant”.
Her eyes widened. I haven’t seen her so shocked in my life before. That’s when I totally chickened. I stood up and looked at her. “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have come here”. I stormed out of the room and started running down the stairs, crying.
Everett was leaning against the doorframe. He turned around, along with Cassidy, and looked at me. “Whoa, what happened to you? Why are you so fat all of a sudden?” he murmured, eyeing me.
“Goodbye” I said, wiping my eyes and leaving their house.
I shut the door behind me and ran to my car. I found the car keys and got into the vehicle, turning on the engine. I drove and drove until I had no idea where I was. I drove back, but it was too dark and my eyesight blurry. The stars were shining on the sky and the moon was bright.
I felt a strong bump. My body was completely numb. I didn’t know what was happening. Blood was everywhere, broken pieces of glass, something loud was smashing my eardrums.
I thought of a world full of clouds before passing out.
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"He is bad news..."
Chapter 42 (part two)
I found my way back home. My parents weren’t there but they made sure to leave me some lunch. I haven’t told them yet; I’m waiting for the right moment to say it. I’ve been crying these three months, every day, and they know Everett and I ‘sorta broke up’. That’s what I told them. I would get them really worried and confused if I told them the actual truth.

I ate lunch first and then I went home. I did my homework slow, since I’m known as the freaking snail, and then I started the process of ‘picking an outfit for tonight’. It was already 6 so I had to hurry. I took a shower and washed my hair. I wrapped a towel around my body and around my hair and walked out of the shower. I applied body milk with strawberry flavor and walked to my closet.
I found a floral corset–like top with zipper on the front. I matched it with a pastel pink cotton skirt which barely reached my knees and a pair of green pastel heels. My outfit was vintage; I just loved vintage. I picked a beige purse and wore the clothes.
I curled my hair and applied a few make–up on my face. I picked some natural colors; I didn’t wanna look so fake. Yeah, like with this outfit you’ll look so normal, I thought to myself. At least I was pretty! A pretty pregnant girl.
Those days when I got tired really easily, I convinced my parents to buy me a car. I lied, ha–ha. I had a license but I didn’t wanna use it cause as I said before, it seemed useless. Now I needed a car, thought. It was necessary.
I threw my keys and phone in the purse and walked out of the house, locking the front door and unlocking the car. I slipped into the vehicle and drove off. It was already 7 and I knew they weren’t gonna wait for me. Fortunately, I was there after 5 minutes. I parked my car outside their garden and walked out. I found my way to their porch and rang the doorbell. After five minutes, Everett showed up. He seemed tired. Exhausted. I noticed the happy look in his eyes and that weird glimpse was now gone. I blinked, before forcing a smile upon my face.
“Hey” I said sweetly.
“What do you want?” he spat out.
“She came for me” a voice sounded from behind.
Everett’s eyes snapped to Sienna. “Okay”. Then, he disappeared inside the building.
“Hey” I greeted her.
“Come in”.
We walked to her room quickly. I greeted her parents kindly on the way. Her mother was happy to see me; I bet both Everett and Sienna didn’t talk to them about it. I wonder why, though. I’m sure Cassidy and Tom knew Zach and Sienna were dating. I should probably ask her.
We went to her room. She sat down and I did too. She looked at me blankly before turning her face. “Speak”.
“Why didn’t you tell your parents about Zach and…”
“They don’t need to know anything, Evelyn” she spat out.
“Okay”.
“Now tell me”.


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Me: *Meeting One Direction*
Liam: Hi, I'm Liam.
Niall: Hey, I'm Niall.
Zayn: Hi, my name is Zayn.
Harry: I'm Harry.
Louis: Hi, I'm Louis.
Me: Hi..I'm single..

Sometimes I feel like every person in this world is out of my league. You know when you just want to treat someone really well, but it feels like everyone is else is looking for someone that isn’t you.

I'll lie and say 'I'm okay' just for you,
because thats what you'd like to hear, right?
My 5 year old brother Ashie is very thin. He is not under-weight but his ribs are visible. He has been removing his shirt because he thinks that his ribs are abs. He has walked into my bed-room many times not wearing a shirt and he has said, "Look at my abs!". I have said to him many times, "Those are not abs! They're ribs.". Then he gets very furious with me and screams, "You're just jealous you don't have nice abs like I do!". Then he stomps out of my bed-room... 
Me: It's so weird to think that One Direction's doing something  right at this very moment.
Mom: Well I know what they're not doing.
Me: ....
Mom: Thinking of you.
Me:
Mom:
Me:
Mom: Why are you crying?

1. Buy a ship.
2. Name it relation.
3. Go inside it.
Now you're in a relationship.