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"He is bad news..."
Chapter 41
My breath hitched. Me? Pregnant? Oh, no. Please no. I don’t deserve this, I was always a good person.
No, you weren’t. You lied to both Sienna and Everett.
I felt the test falling off my hands and hitting the ground. My knees were weak and after two seconds I collapsed over the floor, tears in my eyes. 
I was pregnant. I was f*cking pregnant. The test said for how long too. I grabbed it from the floor and looked at it. One month. So he got me pregnant when he took my virginity? Great, just great. How awesome, seriously.
I sat up and brought my knees up to my chest. I cried silently, feeling my tears rolling down my cheeks and falling to my clothes. Sobs made me sound even worse. I was crying for hours, it was night outside, when my phone rang. I reached to grab my bag. I fished my phone and when I saw the caller ID, my heart started racing in my chest. Why was Everett calling me?
I picked up. “H–Hello?” my voice sounded like a whisper.
“Just wanted to tell you your detention was cancelled” he snapped.
“What? Why?”
“They said you fainted” he murmured indifferently.
“Oh”. I must keep the conversation going. Think fast. “About that…”
“I don’t need to know, Evelyn” he snapped again. “Your thing, I don’t care”.
It’s your ‘thing’ too.
“Okay”.
“Bye” he said coldly and hung up.
The tears in my eyes were even more now. He hated me. He hated me so much; I just can’t take it. It hurts. Why does he hate me? He knows I was never attracted to Zach and I never will be. Doesn’t he trust me?
I guess no.
Even if I wanna talk to him, he won’t listen. So, I just lost an option. I could still talk to Sienna… But I’m sure she wouldn’t believe me. She really liked Zach and now she’s hurt. I’m sure she’ll just shut her ears and shout ‘LALALA’ so she won’t hear me. I think deep down she knows it’ true, but she doesn’t wanna face it. Who knows.


Okay I had to shorten up this chappy cause Witty wouldn't let me upload it (too many characters and idek I'm mad mkai) so I'll probably post the rest along with the new chapter(: Plz don't hurt meh /.\ *hides in corner* you know I love youuuuu
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"He is bad news..."
Chapter 40
I was at the nurse’s office when I woke up. She was looking at something and had her back turned to me. My lashes fluttered before opening wide. I took a look around before speaking.
“Why am I here?” I murmured, voice croaky.
She turned to me. “Hello, dear! I can see you just woke up”.
I glanced over at my body. “Obviously. Why am I here, though?”
“You fainted” she explained. “They brought you here. Finally, after two hours I thought you weren’t gonna wake up”.
“Two hours? I have to go home!” I said, trying to get up.
She helped me up. “Okay, but I want you to do something when you go there”.
I blinked, walking to the door. “What’s that?”
“A few questions first. Have you had any other symptoms other than fainting? Like, throwing up let’s say? Or having headaches and not wanting to eat?” she questioned me carefully.
I closed my eyes briefly, trying to remember. “Yes, yes I think”. Headaches have increased lately and I just couldn’t eat lunch without getting this weird taste in my mouth which was a sign of an upcoming vomiting.
Her glance was cloudy as she looked at me. I gave her a questioning wide–eyed look, which seemed to drag her attention from me. She turned around and I was facing her back for a couple of minutes. I was about to go when she turned around and handed me a box. “Do this at home. Don’t tell me the results” she whispered, narrowing her eyes slightly.
I casted an eye on the box, before choking on my own saliva. A pregnancy test?
“Y–You m–mean…I might be…pregnant?” I stuttered.
Her look was harsh and rough. “We can’t know. You might be sick too. We just need to be sure. Don’t tell me the results; I don’t need to know”.
I blinked, before twisting the handle of the door. “Thank you” I whispered before going out of the nurse’s office and running towards the exit. I threw the pregnancy test inside my bag and walked home, almost running. I must tell no one. If my mother finds out I’m pregnant, I’ll have so much explaining to do. Oh, wait. I might not be pregnant. I might be just sick, which will save me from lots of things.
I unlocked the front door of my house and entered the building fast. No one was there except for Sally. Sally is our maid who’s sometimes here. She’s not always here though; she has her own family to take care of. She’s not the exact definition of maid, but never mind.
I greeted her and ran upstairs. I burst into my room and locked the door behind me. I fished the box from my bag and pulled it out carefully. I threw my bag across the room and walked to the bathroom. I closed the door and took the test. Then, I walked outside again, stopping in front of my beauty parlor. I looked at the mirror and I could see the worried look on my face. I started pacing back and forth, waiting for the results. I read the instructions and it said the results come out in ten minutes max. I should wait.
I looked around, then shyly at my hands. No results yet. Oh Lord, if I was pregnant, what would I do? I’m 100% sure it’s Everett’s baby and now he hates me. Even if I did talk to him, he would reject me and push me around. I would be completely alone.
No bad thoughts. You have to stay positive, Evelyn. Yeah, just like my pregnancy test. Ugh, why am I assuming things? I might be just sick after all! I really need to calm down.
Ten minutes passed. I inhaled deeply and my eyes turned shyly to the test in my hands. I uncovered its surface and saw what I had to see.
It was positive. I was pregnant.


*DUN DUN DUUUUUN*
Chapter 40 ladies and gentlemen! Who would have thought ahahaha
I'm so sorry for posting every week or two, exams are next week and I have to study like crazy :( Plus my depression and all those problems have gotten so big to even influate my grades so I'm getting constantly yelled at, and as a result they take my laptop away... So yeah.
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"He is bad news..."
Chapter 39
*Evelyn’s POV*
The principal was examining me for a whole hour. Turns out I’m a great liar; he believed every bit of my words. I got detention for the whole week. Only that? I supposedly beat up a kid, one week detention wasn’t enough. Was it?
When I got out of the office, the hallways were full of kids going to their periods. I walked to my locker almost shaking. My hands were sweaty and my mind a mess. I can’t believe Zach told Vince to record us while HE was kissing me and I was trying to get away. How evil. What people do for revenge is unbelievable. Pathetic too, sometimes.
I went to my locker, got my books and walked to my classroom. English. My class with Everett. How awkward.
I managed to reach the room. The door was already closed. I know Mrs. Carl would be so pis/sed I was late, but I had a good excuse. The principal kept me in his office.
I knocked on the door softly. I heard her reply: “Come in”. I walked into the classroom slowly, my legs shaking. All eyes were on me; I’m sure the rumors have spread by now.
“Where were you, Miss Jensen?” she asked, taking a careful look at me.
“I was at the principal’s office” I murmured.
“I see. Have a seat so we can keep going with our lesson” she said, gesturing to my desk. I sat down and opened my notebooks, keeping notes right away.
I felt every person in this class staring at me. That’s right b//tches, I had taken the blame for Everett, is it that bad? Everybody knew Everett did it, but no one had the guts to go tell the principal. I didn’t tell him either. Not because I was afraid of Everett –I surely wasn’t– but because I liked him and I’ve hurt him enough. I can’t believe this morning he was telling me I make him happy and now he doesn’t even wanna look at me. I’m sure he doesn’t.
I looked at him. He was staring at his hands, not saying a word. His eyes turned to me but he acted as if he hadn’t seen me, as if I was invisible. My face twisted and I turned my face, concentrating on the lesson again.
This was gonna be way harder than I thought.


 
At the end of my last period, I placed my books in my locker and prepared myself for detention. I walked to this room I was supposed to be and opened the door. I found a few kids already there. I took my seat in the middle of the class and placed my hands on the desk, staring at them. After half an hour waiting, more teens gathered in the room, along with the teacher. Then, detention started.
This was gonna last for two hours I think. I rolled my eyes, ruffling my hair. This was so messed up.
I haven’t seen Everett so angry in my entire life, neither Sienna. I didn’t know she liked Zach so much and even if I knew, I would NEVER so something similar to that. I’m not the kind of girl who betrays her friends by sleeping with their boyfriends. I don’t even like Zach and she knows it; how could she believe I did it on purpose?
My stomach was a complete mess. I was feeling like throwing up. It was awful; I stood up and looked at the teacher sitting on the desk. I bit my lip before asking.
“Excuse me, could I go to the restroom?” I asked, voice cracking.
“Of course. Everything okay?” she asked, standing up and walking to me.
“Yes! Can I go now?” I repeated my question.
“Yes, you may go” she gestured to the door.
I got out of the room and took a deep breath. Then, I started walking to the restroom slowly. I didn’t wanna rush things; detention was boring in the first place. So I walked there slowly, when I felt my mouth having a weird taste. I started running like crazy when I found the room. I pushed the door open, ran towards a toilet and started throwing up.
I felt so sick. Was I sick? No, this morning I was fine. I remember Everett and I sleeping together. I wasn’t feeling sick at all. What happened now?
I stopped and grabbed a tissue to wipe my mouth. I walked to the mirrors, rubbing my belly. It was almost November; am I a little late for my period? No, it’s just my idea. No, I’m fine. I’m fine, nothing’s gonna happen.
I walked back to the class. I stood outside and knocked on the door carefully. I heard the teacher saying “Come in” from inside. I twisted the handle of the door and opened it. I walked in but suddenly, I felt my head heavy. I slid my palm to my forehead. I didn’t have fever; I was okay. I think.
My knees felt like jelly. I pressed my palm against a desk I found for balance, but then everything turned dark and I fainted.

Oh. My. God.
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"He is bad news..."
Chapter 38
 *Sienna’s POV*
I looked at Everett before speaking.
“Zach cheated on me with her”.
I couldn’t even believe in my own words. How could she? I thought she was my best friend! I wouldn’t believe it if I’ve heard girls saying it. Although, Vince showed me the whole image. Zach pressing her against the wall and sucking on her neck and face shamelessly. She was trying to kick him, though. That seemed interesting. No. She betrayed me and she has to pay.
“What?” Everett’s voice was slow as he spoke.
“That’s right! The video Vince showed me was about them! I saw them making out Everett, I saw them!” I screamed, pulling away. I took one step forward and rushed towards Evelyn, ready to beat up the sh*t out of her.
She screamed but suddenly someone pulled her away. I saw Zach in front of me. I blinked before starting to punch his chest. “How could you? How could you do this to me? I thought you liked me, I thought you cared!” I yelled at him.
“Get off of me” he hissed, pushing me away.
“Why did you do this?” I asked, calmer now. My eyes were full of tears.
“I’m sorry” he shrugged. “I couldn’t hold myself”.
“You couldn’t hold yourself? If you f*cking liked me you would have!” I screamed, feeling hot tears pouring down my eyes. “I trusted you”.
“Too bad” he said, tilting his head. “You played, you lost. Game over”.
“No one dares talking to my sister like that” Everett hissed, standing beside me.
“I just did! What are you gonna do, are you gonna hit me?” Zach mocked, shaking his head. The next moment he was being pressed against the wall by Everett, who had just punched his nose and was now kicking him.
“Everett! Stop!” Evelyn shouted. I shot her an annoyed glare and rushed to Everett. I pulled him back and fortunately, he obeyed. He backed off. I stared at Zach. His nose was bleeding and he was holding his stomach, shaking like a fish. A teacher walked to us.
“What have you done to him?” he shouted, pointing at Zach.
“I beat him up” Everett spat out.
“No he didn’t” Evelyn stepped in. “I did”.
“You? How?” the teacher asked, almost laughing.
“Karate, eleven years” she said. I knew she was lying; she just wasn’t the type to beat up someone.
“Come with me” the teacher hissed. She followed him right away. She shot a glance at both of us. I just ignored her. Everett, though, seemed really angry. I haven’t seen him so angry in my entire life. Since I met him, I mean. If he was a machine, he would definitely have fumes all over him.
“Are you okay?” he asked. It was more of a forced question I can say.
“How can I be? They betrayed me” I whispered.
“Everything’s gonna be okay” he assured me. “I won’t let anybody hurt you ever again”.
He was so nice. How could I insult him all this time? He was actually really nice behind that ‘bad boy’ cover. My eyes watered even more. “I’m sorry” I murmured.
“About what?” he asked.
“About insulting you all this time. I was wrong; I’m really sorry, Everett” I repeated, sucking on my tears.
“It’s okay, Sienna” he said, giving me a hug. “I understand”.

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How was that? I'm so sorry guys but it HAD TO BE DONE. You can all ask me questions down below or make comments about the story or whatever you wanna tell me please say it!
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IF YOU ARE READING THIS,
YOU HAVE SURVIVED YOUR LIFE
UP UNTIL THIS POINT.
YOU HAVE SURVIVED TRAUMAS,
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THE DIFFERENT PHASES OF LIFE.
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I've had a bad year, a lot to go through
I've been knocked out, beat down, black and blue
She's not the one coming back for you
She's not the one coming back for you
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  I wonder if
he knows he's all I think about at night
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