*brianna*

5:56 PM

i've been doing better for a little while
but lately everything has been so awful.
i feel small.
it's hard to breathe these days.
i feel small. 
i'm tired of feeling like i'm
constantly drowning.
i feel small.

If people sat outside and looked at the
stars each night, I bet they'd live a lot
differently. When you look into infinity,
you realize there are more important 
things than what people do all day.

I mean, I hope you're happy,
But the sky is still a sky without you,
And I'm not surprised about that anymore.

I swear I saw sparks the first
time we touched, but I guess 
I was wrong because as it turns out,
it was just the sun in my eyes, blinding
me from seeing so clearly that
you don't love me.

The human heart beats approximately 
4,000 times per hour and each pulse,
each throb, each palpitation is a trophy
engraved with the words 'you are still
alive.' You are still alive. Act like it.

It's hard to be happy 
when there's a voice
in your head
constantly screaming
"you're not good enough"

They say the first thing you forget 
about a person is
the way they speak,
so how come it's 
it's been 12 months
since we last spoke, yet 
when I fall asleep
at night I can still hear
the familiar goodnights & I love yous?
How come I can still hear your voice
in my own shaking tone?

I lay awake until the A.M every night,
riddled by thoughts of you,
what are you doing?
who are you with?
Jesus Christ,
can you still hear my voice too?

b.b

"Do not cry. Put the pain away and
breathe
Eat something
Listen to some nice music
Call your best friend
Take a bath
Drink something warm and yummy
Look in the mirror and say, "wow- I am
wonderful"
Because you are
You are someone's world
Someone loves you unconditionally
Don't ever forget it

So write a diary entry for today
Because I swear, in the end
It will all be okay."

-Things I wish someone had told me before it all

Forget that boy who hurt
you, sweetie. You're worth so
much more than what he did
to you.

Sometimes all you can
do is lie in bed, and hope
to fall asleep before
you fall
apart.