ButterflyCourtney

Quiero ya no amarte y enterrar este dolor
Quiero que mi corazón te olvide
Quiero ser como tú, quiero ser yo la fuerte
Solo te he pedido a cambio tu sinceridad
Quiero que el amor al fin conteste
¿Por qué siempre soy yo la de la mala suerte?

- Le de la Mala Suerte

I'll be 18 in 339 days..... The thought of this scares the crap out of me. When I turn 18 I no longer have to stay here. The next time my parents make me mad I can and will leave. I don't have to come home any more. I dont have to go to school. I will no longer have someone screaming orders. I'll have to take care of myself... I've wished for this day to come for so long but now that's it's near I want to reverse time... 

All my friends have boyfriends and Im just sitting here like I have Netflix and food 

5 Truths Quiz
1. Last beverage= Coke Zero Vanilla
2. Last Phone call= my father
3. Last Text Message: my mother
4. Last Song You Listened To: Love Life by natalie taylor  
5. Last time I cried: today
6. Dated Somone Twice: yes
8. Lost Someone Special: yes
9. Kissed Somone and Regreted It:.......
10. Been Depressed= yep
11. Height= i have no clue

FIRST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS
12. pink
13. black
14. grey


THIS YEAR HAVE YOU
15. Made a New Best Friend: Yes
16. Fallen In Love: yes
17. Slept With Someone New: nope
18. Met Someone Who Changed You: Yes
19. Found out who you true friends are: yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you: that happens like everyday
21. Kissed anyone on my friends list: No
22. How many people on your friends list do you actually see in real life: here none

RANDOM QUESTIONS.
23. How many kids do you want to have: idk...
24. Do you have any pets?: yes
25. Do you want to change your name: nope
26. What did you do for your last birthday: nothing at all
27. What time did you wake up today= 4 am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Youtube :)
29. Name something you can not wait for: to go back to Anna Maria Island and for my cousins boyfriends band tour this fall
30. Last time you saw your mother= 2 hours ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself: theres alot
32. What are you listening to right now= nothing, except the sound my keyboard makes when I type
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yep
34. Whats getting on your nerves right now= Life...
35. Most visted webpage= Youtube
36. Whats your Name= Courtney
37. Nicknames?= my grandpa called me the pepsi girl since he thought i looked like the girl in the pepsi commercials..... link here if you have no clue as to what im talking about http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3C1I-IrOgyg
38. Relationship Status= Single
39. Male/Female= female
40. Primary school= NES
41. Middle school= NMS
42. Highschool: NHS
43. Hair color= brown
44. Long or short= long
45. Perfume= Tattoed by Inky, its 4 bucks at any dollar store
47. What do you like bout yourself=...
48. Piercings= ears
49. Tattoos= i wish
50. Righty or Lefty= both
51. First Surgery= ears (i'll explain of you are interested)
52. First Piercing= ears
53. First best friend= idfk
54. First sport you joined= I dont play sports
55.First Vacation= Christmas on the beach with my grandarents in 1st grade
56. Eating= just ate a snicker
57. Drinking= water
58.I'm about to: go to youtube
59. Listening to: the keyboard clicks
60. Waiting for= a miracle
61. Want Kids= yes
62. Want to get married= sure
63. Career = i habe no clue yet

WHICH IS BETTER
64. Lips or Eyes= Eyes
65. Hugs or Kisses= Both
66. Shorter or Taller= Taller
67. Older or younger: both
69. Smart or good face= Both
70. Sensitive or loud= sensitive
71. Hook - up or relationship= Relationship
72. Trouble maker or Hesitant= both

HAVE YOU EVER
73. Kissed a stranger= No
74. Drank hard liquor= Yes
75. Lost glasses or Contacts= no
76. Done "IT" on first date= No
77. Broken someones heart= probably
78. Had your own heart broken= Once
79. Been Arrested= almost
80. Turned someone down= nope
81. Cried when someone had died=Yes
82. Fallen for a friend= Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN.
83. Yourself= uh..
84. Love at first sight= ha
85. Heaven= Yep
86.Santa= totally, i saw my mom kiss him under our tree last year ;)
87. Kiss on First date= if theres a connection sure
88. Angels= Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
89. Had more than one Girlfriend/ Boyfriend at a time=No
90. Did you sing today= yep to my cat
91. Ever cheated on somone= Never
92. If you could go back in time how far would you go= i dont know 93. If you could pick one day to relive what would it be: anyday at the beach
94. Do you have one certian regret that you wish you could change: yes
95. Did you like this survey= it was stupid

ALPHABET OF ME
[A]vailable: yes
[B]irthday: August 13th
[C]rush: shhh I'm not telling :)
[D]rink you last had: Razzleberry Peace Tea
[E]asiest person to talk to: myself,that way noone can go behind my back and talk crap about me or tell my secrets
[F]avorite genre of music: Don't have one
[G]ummy bears or gummy worms: both :)
[H]ad your first kiss: ..........
[I]nstrument: Piano (and trust me I am horrible at it)
[J]uice: Apple
[K]illed someone: Not yet [L]ongest trip: 14 hours by plane Indy to Sarasota Bradenton and then a lot of driving
[M]ilkshake flavor: cookies and cream
[N]umber of siblings: 1 biological and 1 that my parents took in for a while until he got in a lot of trouble
[O]ne wish: To be accepted by my family
[P]erson who holds the best memories with you: My grandma (I know its cheesy)
[Q]uiet or loud: quiet unless you make me mad
[R]easons to smile: the beach aka my home
[S]ong: We The Kings Somewhere Somehow Album ( I got to meet three of the band members last month at Warped) And The Ready Sets The Bad and The Better Album
[T]ime you woke up: 11
[U]mbrella: my cat umbrella that my grandparents bought me
[V]egetable: Indiana Sweet Corn
[W]arm at the moment:yes
[X]-rays you've had: too many to list
[Y]our favorite animal: cat♥
[Z]odiac sign: Leo

Dear Parents,
Forcing your child to face their fears before they are ready to does more harm than good. It also really makes your child dislike you.

Sincerely,
Your anxiety ridden child who is now terrified to leave her room

i dont want to admit this is happening. i miss you all ready. i wish i could of said goodbye. i wish you would of been in my life more. i wish your wife wasnt a b##ch. i wish she was taught not to tell lies about people. i wish so many things. i miss you more than you will EVER know. Fly with the angels grandpa. And NEVER EVER forget that i love you.

I am so anxious right now and i have no clue why. And it really sucks

You say you lobe the rain, but you use an umbrella to walk under it. You say you love the sun, but you seek shade when it is shining. You say you love the wind, but when it comes you close your window. So that's why I'm scared when you say you love me.

             - Bob Marley