I'm back in Chicago for a week. I have a lot to do. I got here yesterday. I called your brother yesterday night and we went over to talk to you. Then later we walked back to your house. I felt very weird walking into your house without you. Your dad's doing good, and I guess I should tell you they still have your dog, and she's happy. but your mom's just not the same. Maybe it's because I was there and she remembered every memory you and I ever shared. Well it's crazy to think that I've managed to keep my mental stability without you, you were the only person that I could tell all my problems to until my mind was empty. So we sat down and just talked. About my new school, my new house, the weather in Texas, my new friends, and you. We talked about all the memories. After, they let me in your room. Nothing has changed, Caleb. Nothing at all. All the posters on the wall are still there. The trophies, your clothes, your computer, your bed, even your old back pack. I got on your computer, don't ask me why. I didn't change anything. I just wanted to see if maybe there was something on there that would remind me that you were actually my best friend, that we were actually as close as I remember we were, that all of the things I look back on really happened. I looked through a lot of things, being the snoop I am. I looked at your pictures last. Looking at all of them, I can't even explain to you the pure devastation and happiness that went through me. Looking at all the pictures of you and I, you and Jonathan, some other kids from school, you and Josh, you and Leah, you and your family, you and other people I don't even know, your trip to Haiti, California, Hawaii. You were ALWAYS smiling, even when it wasn't a real smile. It was there. And I guess that's a reason why everyone liked you. You looked friendly, and funny, and just who everyone wanted to be or be with. It's weird, laughing and crying at the same time. It's like I wanted to die, but also wanted to live a better life just for you. There were a couple of videos of you. And I remember one in particular. Of you and me where we didn't even know it was recording but the camera was on for almost half an hour. I watched the whole thing. We were just sitting in your room, playing a video game. Then just watching TV. That's what I miss most. Just all of those lazy days hanging out. The simplicity of it all. It broke me yet built me up stronger. I love you, and I will always remember you.
Hey baby, I miss you so much. Our little man is getting bigger by the day. He's already beautiful. I wish you could see how happy I am with him, all that the picture needs to make it perfect is you. I can't think of any first names I like, he's going to have your name as his middle name. I remember one time, you told me you loved the names Grayson, Hunter, and Dakota. Well we'll just have to see. I love you, Caleb. I love you so much.
Caleb, i miss talking to you.
i miss you.
i wish this didnt happen.
i wish you were still here to talk to.
i wish i still had our conversations on my profile.
i left witty and came back..
to find out you were dead.
not a day goes by where youre not on my mind.
i love you big brother.
rest easy, fly high and keep watching over us.
Happy Birthday BabyBoy.
I wish you were here to celebrate it..
But God decided he wanted to be with you this birthday.
I miss you like crazy , i hope you're happy though.
I'll be with you soon , don't forget me.
I miss you like crazy Caleb. so much has been happening. I got a boyfriend.. believe that? Some how I managed to attract someone, but then again you always said I would find someone to treat me right. I love you so much ♥
Hi boo.
So much has changed and happened.
Leah and i are okay now, i wish we were like that when you were still around though./:
Anyways, i miss you a bunch , and i love you .
hope it was grand up there. c;
i miss you , tara misses you , alex misses you ..
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i miss you .
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i miss you.
i wish this didnt happen.
i wish you were still here to talk to.
i wish i still had our conversations on my profile.
i left witty and came back..
to find out you were dead.
not a day goes by where youre not on my mind.
i love you big brother.
rest easy, fly high and keep watching over us.
i love you so much please don't ever forget that,
I wish you were here to celebrate it..
But God decided he wanted to be with you this birthday.
I miss you like crazy , i hope you're happy though.
I'll be with you soon , don't forget me.
So much has changed and happened.
Leah and i are okay now, i wish we were like that when you were still around though./:
Anyways, i miss you a bunch , and i love you .
Notihng gold can stay. and you were the goldest of the gold.