CatchYourPandas

This is not what it is only baby scars
I need your love, like a boy needs his mother's side.

I have a neighbor named Tom and he's really attractive.
Tom Daley is really attractive.
Tom Felton is really attractive.
Tom Hiddleston is really attractive.
Tom Hardy is really attractive.
So many Toms.
So much attractive-ness.

things i like:
boys with long hair
boys with short hair
boys with hair
boys
pizza

I don't know if I can take this anymore. My mind has yet again trapped me in a pit of darkness and horrifying thoughts. Everything is starting all over again. I've tried so hard to get better. To rid my mind of these voices. Nothing has worked. I have tried so many therapy methods. None have worked. Everything is becoming blurred. My mind is a twisted mess right now. I apologize for the depressing quote I just needed to vent.

I'm not sure how much longer I can take this.

You see me laying there,
still as the crimson stained snow,
clutching the note, that I quickly wrote.

"Whether by bullet, blade, or maybe cyanide,
this is the day that your little girl died."

Maybe we're just having too much fun.
Maybe you can't handle yourself,
staring at me with your lips and tongue.

Do you know
I count your heartbeats before you sleep?
I bite my fingernails to bone
And now I crawl back under the stairwell
To a place I call my home.
I really hope you enjoy the show,
Because for me, it's just a big game.
You need people like me to feel.
Maybe we're just having too much fun.
Maybe you can't handle yourself,
Staring at me with your lips and tongue.

I've said it once,
I've said it twice,
I've said it a thousand f.ucking times
That I'm OK,
that I'm fine,
that it's all just in my mind
But this has got the best of me,
and I can't seem to sleep
It's not 'cause you're not with me,
it's cause you never leave