CatsAndStrawberries

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Joined: May 4, 2012
Last Seen: 1 decade
user id: 297381
Location: Neverland
Hi, I'm Stephanie. I'm forever young. I've been through alot of ugly stuff.
I've been diagnosed with all sorts of things...
Major Severe Depression, Major Anxiety, OCD, Anger, Borderline, An Eating Disorder, and I cut.
But I've went to the hospital last year myself because I was going to kill myself and now in the process of trying to get better.
I've been cut-free since August 26, 2012
My only blood family is my brother Max, and my dad.
The rest of my family is either dead, or I can't speak to them.
My mother was a main part in my life, until she married my step-father.
I was living in a very bad place with my mother, no food, no money, my step-father abused her all ways possible.
I still have nightmares after 2 years out of her house.
And there is so much more to my story.
But let's stop with the depressing stuff!
I have quite a few best friends, or sisters.
Jasmine (misshyfr) I met her last year and we already basically know everything about each other. I am there for her, she is there for me. We are in the same class next year and I cannot wait. 
Kristi (whymegirl101) I've known her for about 2 years, but we became much closer this year. We have the best laughing fits, and jokes.
I am also on the bridge of starting to love this guy named Costa. c:
Music is also my best friend. I honestly wouldn't be alive without it.
I listen to a lot, but these are my favorites, One Direction (I don't post quotes though),  Ed Sheeran, Hollywood Undead, Asking Alexandria, My Chemical Romance, Mayday Parade, Skrillex, and Eminem.
If you ever need some cheering up or advice, you can always comment on my profile and I'll get back asap, or even to get to know each other, I don't mind.
Bye for now, I love you beautiful.
PS the song is New Year Son by The Amazing Broken Man

Quotes by CatsAndStrawberries

Relapsed after a month and 3 days
I feel so stupid
She paints a pretty picture

but this picture has a twist

you see.. her paintbrush is a razor

and her canvas is her wrist

she paints her pretty picture

in a color thats blood red

while using her sharp painbrush

she ends up finally dead

her pretty pictures fading

quite slowly on her arm

the blood is not racing through her

she can no longer do harm

she painted her pretty picture

but her picture had a twist

you see her mind was the razor

and her heart was just her wrist
When paranoia kicks in
and you think no one 
wants to talk to you.
I smile and play pretend.
annoying person: you need anger management classes  
me: you need shut the f*ck up classes
Raisin cookies that look like chocolate chip

cookies

are the main reason I have trust issues
I can never imagine someone liking me
Just waiting for me to come online
Getting butterflies when I text them
Or getting to school extra early to see them
It just seems impossible
      I would never wish my experience with pain
                                 
                             on my worst enemy.

                                        {now that's saying something}
20 days without cutting
If I can do this, so can you!

I'm so exhausted; I don't know why

the doctors don't even know why

I am starting to think I have a disease

and I'm just going to die.