Ceremonial

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"I think that you will set yourself afire before you realize that even you cannot conquer the sun."

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It's not until you start to get better that you realize how f­ucking crazy you really were.
It's not until the food is forced down your throat that you realize how afraid of it you've let yourself become.
Anorexia is numbing, and that's the truth. When you let go of it, all that is left is raw pain, all the emotion you pushed down with starvation. You never realize how sick you were until you have to get better.
I never thought I'd be sitting alone at my breakfast table at 6AM sobbing into my hands because I can't cope with half a bowl of cereal with a splash of skimmed milk.
It's not about the weight.
I thought it was, but it's not.
It's because when I eat, I remember all the things starvation let me forget.
I never realized how sick I really was.
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anorexia



isn't it messed up
-----x-----   how    i'm    just    dying    to    be    him?   -----x-----


 
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survey
what a wonderful caricature of intimacy
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panicatthedisco


"it's the Marilyn Monroe school of medicine where enough of any drug will cure any disease"

 
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invisiblemonsters
We are living in a culture that functions primarily off the conveyed message that women must never be comfortable in their bodies.
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seriously
I hate that we're all so ashamed of eating. I say "we" in reference to our entire society, because our culture seems to teach that somehow, eating is weak. I hate that we all feel the need to make an excuse for having a doughnut, or a slice of cake. "Whatever, I'm going to the gym"/"I've ate well today, I can afford to cheat"/"I have a fast metabolism, I won't gain anything anyway". What about, "Fu­ck you, I want a doughnut", for once? I write this as someone with a deeply entrenched eating disorder. I know what it's like to be constantly dieting. We live in a culture where hunger is strength and cupcakes are weakness, where eating a chocolate bar is totally normal and overly endearing if you're thin, but repulsive, disgusting, "out of control" behavior if you're fat. I hate that. I hate that food has become something that we should be having less and less of, because thinness is promoted as being far more important than our own physical and mental well-being. Even "clean-eating", the idea that some foods shouldn't be "allowed" because they're "unhealthy". We all have eating disorders, really. Some of us; ie myself; just take it further than others. We live in a world where we are all terminally starving. Why?
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vent






THE VOICELESS GENERATION



 

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inspirational
Believe it or not, Mum, when I complain to you about how all my friends made plans to go out without me, I am not asking you to tell me that it's my fault, they must all feel uncomfortable around me because I had the audacity to have bulimia, and that I shouldn't complain because I only have myself to blame. Cheers, Mum, cheers.
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breathe into my hands
i'll cup them like a glass to drink from
are you still, still breathing?



 
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