wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. Ou come home from school one
day. YOu've had yet another horrible day. YOu're just
ready to give up. SO yo go up to your room, close the door, and
take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over
nad over and over. YOu take out those razor blades, and cut for
the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them
all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close you
eyes for the very last time. A few hours later, you little
brothere knocks on your door to come tell you dinners ready. You
don't answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying on
your bed, so he thinks you;re asleep. He tells you mom this. YOu
mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something
is odd. She greabs the paper in your hand and reads it.
Sobbing, she tries to wake you up, She's screaming your name.
YOur brother, so confused, runs to tell dad that "mommy is
crying and sissy wont wake up," Your dad runs to to your
room. Hools at your mom crying, holding the letter to her chest
sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, whats going on,
and he screams, HE creams and throws something at the wall. ANd
then falling to his knees cries. YOu mom crawls over to him and
they sit there holding each other, crying. The next day at
school. there's and annoucment. THe principal tells everyone.
Everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers
think they were too hard on you. The popular girls they think of
all the things they've said to you. That boy that teased you
he cant help but hate himself for not telling you how beautiful
you actually are. Youre ex, the one htat told yo everthing, then
broke up with you... he cant handle it. he breaks down and starts
crying, and runs out of the room wishing he knew before it was to
late. Your best friend, she cant cry she cant feel anything. she
stands up and walks out of the class and just sinks to the floor,
shaking and screaming, but no tears will come. At your funereal
the whole town came, everyone knew you, the girl who was always
happy that was there for everyone. everyone is crying your little
brother looks at your body he doesnt know what happened just
knows that you died. He is crying you were his sister the one
that was supposed to be there for him. YOur best friend she stays
strong until they started lowering the casket then she just loses
it she cries and cries and doesnt stop for days. Its two years
later, the whole school talks to counselor/therapist at least
once a week, the popular girls now have an eating disorder, the
boy that teased you, cuts himsef, you ex doesnt know how to
love anymore and just sleeps around wiht random girls, your best
friend? she tried to kill herself but failed, Your brother? found
out what really happened, he now self harms and everything that
you did that lead up to your suicide. Your parents marriage fell
apart, your dad is a workaholic to distract himself from your
death, your mom was dignosed with depression and just lays in bed
all day.
People care. You may not htinks so, but they do. Your choices
don't just effect you. They effect everyone. Don't end
your life, you have so much to live for. Things can't get
better if you give up. I'm here for absolutely anyone that
needs to talk, no matter who you are. Even if we've NEVER
talked before, i'm here for you.
Dont make a permanent decision for a temporary problem.