I know this is long but
worth reading...
Wanna kill
yourself?
Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had
yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. so
you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide
note you've written and rewritten over and over. You take out
those razor blades, and cit for the very last time. you grab that
pill bottle of pills and take them all. laying down, holding the
letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time.
A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to
come tell you dinners ready. You don't answer, so he walks
in. All he sees you laying on your bed, so he thinks you're
asleep. He tells your mom this. Your mom goes to your room to
wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in
your hand and reads it sobbing. She tries to wake you up.
She's screaming your name. your brother, so confused, runs to
tell your dad that "Mommy is crying and sissy won't wake
up." Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom,
crying. Holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your
lifeless body. it hits him, whats going on, and he screams. he
screams and throws something at the wall. and then, falling to
his knees, he starts to cry. your mom crawls over to him, and
they sit there, holding each other, crying. The next day at
school, theres an announcement. The principal tells everyone
about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and
once it does, everyone goes silent. everyone blames themselves.
your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular
girls, they think of all the things they've said to you. That
boy that used to tease you and call you names, he can't help
but hate himself for never telling you how beautiful you really
are. your ex boyfriend, the one that you told everything
to, that broke up with you.. He can't handle it. He breaks
down and starts crying, and runs out of the school. Your friends?
They're sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that
anything was wrong, wishing they could have helped you before it
was too late. And your best friend? She's in shock, she
can't believe it. She knew what you were going through, but
she never thought it would get that bad... Bad enough for you to
end it. She can't cry, she can't feel anything. She
stands up, walks out of the classroom, and just sinks to the
floor. Shanking, screaming, but no tears coming out. It's a
few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone
knew you, that girl with the bright smile and bubbly personality.
The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on.
Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with
you, there was a lot. Everyone's crying, your little brother
still doesn't know you killed yourself, he's too young.
your parents just said you died, it hurts him, a lot. You were
his big sister, you were supposed to always be there for him.your
best friend, she stays strong through the entire service, but as
soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, she
loses it. She cries and cries and doesn't stop for days.
It's two year later. The whole school talks to a
counselor/therapist at least once a week. Your teachers all quit
their job. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy
that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend
doesn't know how to love anymore and just sleeps around with
girls. Your friends all go into depression. Your best friend? She
tried to kill herself. She didn't succeed like you did, she
tried... Your brother? He finally found out the truth about
your death. He self harms, he cries at night, he does exactly
what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents?
Their marriage fell apart. Your dad becomes a workaholic to
distract himself from your death. Your mom got diagnosed with
depression and just lays in bed all day. People care, you make
not think so, but they do. Your choices don't effect just you.
They effect everyone. Don't end your life, you have so much
to live for. Things can't get better if you give up.
Don't make a permanent decision for a temporary
problem.