DearJohn4

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Joined: May 13, 2012
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MY DEAREST WITTIANS
So here's a little about me:
1. I'm your typical teenage girl, with a bit of a twist.
2. That twist is my boyfriend.
3. This is my 3rd account on Witty. This one will remain anonymous.
4. This account is for me. If you feel like reading more, read below.

The name I've picked for myself is Fontana Grace. I think it's beautiful and my firstborn daughter will be named that. My favorite number is 4. I made this account because I'm in love. I'm in love with someone I can't have. His name is John, and I've liked him since 7th grade. I am now a sophomore, and he is currently a junior. He is in my youth group. Here's a quick description: He's a ginger, tall, athletic. He's got some acne and a killer sense of humor. His smile is to die for and He loves Jesus. I myself am a Christian, so that part's important. A couple of Sundays ago, I told him I liked him in a note. Our conversation is my first quote. Long story short- He doesn't like me back. The very next Thursday, a guy from my gym class asked me out. I said yes, because he's cute. I don't want advice with my situation. I already know what I'm going to do. I'm breaking up with my boyfriend sometime this summer due to "busy schedule." I know it's cruel, but what else do I say? Anyway, I write letters to John and they're on my phone. I'm terrified my boyfriend'll find them, so I'm going to delete them and post them here. Just some feelings I need out of my system. If you read that whole thing, get a life. That shpiel was not worth your time, and neither am I.

 

Quotes by DearJohn4


 Dear John 
I don't know what to think anymore. I just want you to trust me. I wish I hadn't told you I liked you. When Spencer mentioned that letter, it was almost like he ws mocking me. Not that I blame him. It was so dumb to think someone I was actually interested in would actually like me back. I miss you. I feel like you were much more comfortable around me before yoiu learned I liked you. I was half hoping Spencer would show you everything I told himm but I don't think that'd turn out well at all. I'd just seem like a creeper obsessed freak. I feel like I'm walking on pins and needles whenever I'm around you. Like I can't sit next to you without you thinking it's because I like you. Like I can't say certain things around you because you might take it the wrong way. Like I could step on a bomb at any moment. It sucks. I just hope being upfront about all of this wasn't a mistake.

Sent June 8

 Dear John 
I broke up with Thomas today. Spencer told me something that I figured, but I didn't know for sure. Who is she? I want to know, but I don't know that it'd be a very good idea... I just want you to like me! I totally pulled a middle school move with that letter. I feel so dumb! I should've known you didn't like me. Even though it may not seem like things have changed, they have. I don't think I've gotten a hug out of you since I gave you that letter a month ago!. I hate that I've done this to you. Now you look at me as the girl who likes you, not your friend. I just hate that someone else has your eye. I wish I didn't like you. I wish I didn't like anybody. Things were so much easier back then. But I don't like nobody, I like you! I don't like you for the reasons Spencer thinks either. Yes, I find you physically attractive, but that doesn't change the fact that I love you for your personality and your love for Christ. 
You know what you should do tonight?? COME TO YOUTH. yeah!!
I probably can't!

nmf, followme(:

NOOOO. Por que no?
Porque gracias me llamo es Juan como?

nmf, followme(:

Because thanks my name is Juan how? 
Tu mama es loco con mananas.

 

You are strange.
To answer your question not tonight :/

nmf, followme(:


This boy is crazy♥ I love him(: 


 Dear John 
So I found out today that Thomas hasn't had his first kiss yet... I would feel so bad if I stole that from him! Why do I like you so much? Why do I keep asking myself stupid questions? I love you. It's not hard to say. If you asked me straight up, I'd tell you without hesitation. The hard part is the knowledge that you don't like me back. It kills me that I have to live with that. If I could have one wish, I know exactly what I'd wish for... YOU. I want you. I want more than your friendship. I want more than just seeing you at church. I want more than empty feelings. Feelings that aren't returned. I've liked you since freaking seventh grade, John! I've been rejected my you twice. How do I live with that? You've neve3r liked me and I think it's about time to realize that you never will. I need to get over you. I can tell myself all I want that you're missing out, but I'm not what you want, so what's the point? I love you John, but it's time to let go.

 Dear John 
Here are all of the things I like about you, John W Carter: You love Jesus. You're super nice to everyone. You're funny. You're smart. You're someone I can trust. You're tall. You don't run from a challenge. You're not afraid of people. You're not a mold. You're your own individual. You have a clean mouth. You're the reason I do a lot of the things that I do. You've been way more influential in my life than you could ever understand. You generally love life and you're not afraid to step out. I may not know the little things about you such as your eye color, address, or mother's maiden name, but I know a lot of the important things. I know that if you noticed someone sitting alone at lunch, you'd let them sit with you. You're too nice to not hold my hand during prayer, even though it means something completely different to you than it does to me. You love your mom and she appreciates you more than you know. Ashley broke you, but not beyond repair. These are things that can only be seen through another's eyes. <3

 Dear John 
I don't know exactly what to say... I just want to say something. Why didn't anything change between us? Why haven't you treated me differently since you found out I liked you? I almost wish you had been mean or something so I could find a reason to stop loving you. I don't even know if this is love. All I know is, I can't stop thinking about you. I feel awful for Thomas, but I don't think he likes me much anyways. You're always on my mind, John. I can't ever get you out of my head. I'm in over my head, John! Tell me what to do! I thought I could get over you, but I can't. I've tried! I just like you too much. </3

 Dear John 
These feelings for you have to go. I can't live with them anymore. I do like Thomas. I guess it'll be easier to get over you with the knowledge that you don't like me. We really can be friends because I have a boyfriend and you don't like me. I did it once, I can't do it again.

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t h e  g u y  i  l i k e ?
OH, YOU KNOW

He's got his flaws, but to me?
h.e.s. p.e.r.f.e.c.t.
johncarter
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 Dear John
 
I was really hoping you liked me. I didn't really prepare myself for this. I've tricked myself. Welcome to 7th grade. Granted, you were gracious and I believed you when you said that nothing would change between us. That's why I'm upset. I wish you liked me back. That's what I want. You are so good with words. I wouldn't be able to think of a better way to say what you said. I just wish your feelings were different. You haven't dated anyone since Ashley. Can you really not like anyone? I lost sleep tonight because of you. I've been awake 3 hours, John. I fell for you, or at least tripped. You didn't catch me. You were unaware of my fall, but you helped me back up. My problem is, somehow I've found myself back on the ledge. I still could fall for you. Hard. What's to stop me? No one's below to cathc me... </3
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