Dear
Matthew,
We were supposed to have a skype date, tonight.
You promised me that you'd call, when you got back to the
hotel.
I told you to prepare yourself for how bad i looked.
I say things like that, just to hear you tell me otherwise.
Sure, it's pathetic, but everyone wants to hear someone call
them beautiful.
The way you say it makes me melt.
I took a shower, did my makeup, fixed my hair, and put a cute top
on.
Not that it matters, to you.
I just wanted to feel more confident.
For three hours, I waited for the call that never came.
Then, i got a text from you that said "night. love
you."
Really?
I wait patiently for you, all day, and that's all I get?
Once again, I come in second, next to baseball.
You have practice at 6am tomorrow morning, and I'm going to
wake up, to wish you good morning.
With the time difference, it'll be 7 here.
I told my grandma to wake me up early.
I think you have another tournament tomorrow, but I honestly
don't have a clue.
I hate not knowing what's going on, with you.
Perhaps this is what i need, to make me more patient.
Honestly, I'm about to go insane.
By the way, Katy Perry looks better with curly hair.
Just thought I'd throw that out there.
My grandma keeps asking me about you, and how you're doing.
I'm currently stalking the sh*t out of your facebook.
That's what I do, when I miss you.
I just need to hear your voice.
I'm on the phone with my mom.
She's telling me how much she misses me.
I haven't told you this, because you've never given me the
time:
My dad went to therapy, on Tuesday.
I told him that I'm not coming home, until he goes a couple
more times, at least.
It didn't really help him too much, cuz he's been drunk
every night since.
But, I mean, at least he tried... right?
I'm going to the zoo tomorrow.
You didn't know that either.
I feel like you've been missing so much of my life,
recently.
I guess that's why I started writing this.
My sister is doing alot better, with the surgery and such.
Her eyes are healing well, and they don't really hurt her
anymore.
She skyped me, to show me her dog bite.
She kept laughing and saying how she didn't want to lift up her
shirt,
Because she didn't want pictures of her boobs on the internet.
hahaha.
Everytime I look at my phone, she says
"Let me guess, you're texting Matthew?!"
She told me you're her favorite, of all my friends that
she's met.
Well, as far as guys go.
Her ultimate favorite is probably Devyn.
They have a play date planned, for sometime this summer. lmfao.
Well, I'm off to bed.
I love you so much.
To the point of where I wait by the phone, even though I know
you're asleep.
I wish I could talk to you.
I hope your day goes well.
-Abba <3