Have you ever been in love?
Horrible
isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest
and it opens your heart and it means that someone can get
inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses,
you build up a whole suit of armor so that [ [ n o t h i n g ] ] can
hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from
any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life... You
give them a piece of you. They
didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one
day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life
isn't your own anymore. [ [ Love takes hostages. ] ] It
gets inside you. It eats you out and leave you crying in the
darkness, so simple a phrase like "maybe we should
just be friends" turns into a glass splinter
working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in
the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a
soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
I hate love.
nmq
When you look at someone and realize
you don't know who they are anymore.
When you
have a [ [ m i l l i o n ] ] and
one thoughts racing around your head but you don't know
where to start. There are so many things you want and
need to say but all you can do is choke and stand there stiff.
The words don't come out but the
tears do. And then you watch
him walk away as you try to get the
courage to stop him. But you just
[ [ l e t
h i m
go ]].
Maybe one day I'll meet someone like you again.
Someone who
can make me laugh until I can't
breathe and my stomach hurts. Someone who
doesn't need me to talk all the time because there
aren't any awkward silences. Someone who has my
back and accepts my quirks. Someone I can talk to
about anything. But even then, I don't
think it'll feel the
same.