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You are going to know.

You'll              just               know  .
Maybe        during      that       first      kiss       that        is         felt
from  the very soles of your feet all the way to your hairline
Or at 4 a.m when they're    all that you think about.
Regardless, you'll realize,       in that small instant,
that love         isn't the         myth you         wrote it        off to be
That     it     is,      in     fact    real,     impossible      to      ignore.
&                              You'll feel more alive than ever,
& All your fragmented      pieces will somehow

fit together with another's

Nobody wants to revisit a traumatic past. .
nobody        wants              to              revisit           the             affects          of          pain         and         depression.
because,      at      the       time     of     this    trauma,     you're     brain    reaches     its      capacity    to     function,
it's         damaged,      and       so       is       your       soul.          the        world      blurs     out       into      a          fog
&our eyes become thin veneers of our pained souls & the last connection to reality we really have.
Ultimately,       we       become       zombies,       getting       by       in       life   ,      but     not      actually     living
because   we've allowed ourselves   to  withdraw  mentally  and  dig  ourselves   into  a  deep  ,  hollow  emptiness,
to        be         eaten       alive     by     the     demons        within       us.
We     begin   to    stop   giving   ourselves   the   privilege   to   live.  We   block  out   our  opportunities. We   hide.
 We cower from the trauma and try avoiding it; in hopes that  one day things can go back to          normal again; 
We try to forget.                                                      And so we claim to not remember it, but really no one wants to.
We       try      to    convince    ourselves    it    didn't    happen    and   that  we're   okay,   that   everything's    fine
but                 it           did            and           its there,            tucked far,           deep           within         ourselves,
In a dark corner of our circular memories.
 

Words;;
are         the     only    thing     I     have        left.
They're    the     only   thing    that     understands.
Seeing   me  through    the   darkest  of   situations
Saving me from myself.

I thought maybe  I  should  write a quote about you.
That                   perfect                 quote
To make sense of the mixed emotions I'd been feeling
To            somehow            give             me             closure   .
I    wanted    it    to    help   me   forget   you.
But       the        screen       stayed       blank
& The      words        couldn't        come      out
Because I realized,
I stopped wanting to write about you.

You tore me from reality 
                                                   INTOXICATED ME
                                           with your words.
                                                   Just you and me,&the stars
                                                            at our fingertips
                                                                            but in an instant,you took it all away.
                                                               You left it all in my dreams.
                                                                                                                             

❝No, don't leave me.        You can't.       I cant..    I can't live without you
I know it sounds crazy but somehow everything is better when you're around.
Its like everything falls together.                 The sun rises and sets with you...
and                                                 my existence depends on your existence.
Don't  ask  me  why,   I   don't  think   I  can  explain  it , all I  know  is      ,
my        hellos      are      w a r m e r    when      you' r e     here                   ,
somehow  the  clouds  part,       and life becomes just a little bit easier to live. 
I  don't  want  to  put  so  much  pressure  on  you ,                                 \\\
///           but  you  being  around  makes  me  want  to  be  a  better  person ,
you make me less miserable.     Please.   You're the only one that understands,
you're the only one i need. Don't leave me.  You're the only thing I have left  ,
                                                                     my only hope. ❞
 

         +//This depression,

I can assure you, is temporary.
You'll find eventually, the blackness fades,
& Your damaged soul will mend itself together again.
You will learn from the sorrow,
&Overcome the fear,
Because rain clouds can't last forever
life offers a lot more than

                                     Stormy weather.\\+