Johanna Mason*

My first week back at school this semester. 
I wanted to do something nice this term.
My plan was to compliment everyone in my class by the name of "Winter." 
So I did.
There's 25 people in the class. (75% of whom are idiots)
And in a week, that's 125 compliments. 
In the rest of the year that adds up to 2500 compliments. 
I've only done a week's worth.
and only 15% of the people in it appreciate it.
There's so much hate.
So much anger
So much of "this person's a pedophilic old man who likes necrophilia."
(i looked up necrophilia on wikipedia to find out what it meant. Do yourself a favour and do NOT look it up on google images. Okay?)

And I get 4 hours sleep a night trying to find stuff everyone would want.
And only like 5 people appreciate it.


F.M.L.

Tounge tied at her first day of school
She wasn't very social,
she was very shy
Waiting for somebody to come and say "Hi." 
Nobody came,
so she stood there alone.
Oh how she wished
she was still at home.
In class, she proved to be smart.
Nobody else could read, 
and she continued.
The other kids were full of jealousy.
When it came to lunch,
she was totally unprepared.
The other kids ganged up on her, 
they were mean, she was scared.

First day of high school
still her old self.
Shy, unsocial,
awkward as well. 
But this time,
she had lost all her self-esteem
because of the very nasty things those other kids did
well, lets just say it was demeaning.
This time she did'nt want to say 'Hi'
because she wanted to be alone.
She hated group work.
Out of her comfort zone.
All of her teachers
saw something was wrong.
But they said nothing, 
because she kept going along
After a while,
she was getting picked on again.
she did'nt know what to do
she couldn't cope with the strain.
So one day she went home
and she found a blade
And she put it to her skin
of emotions and blood there was a cascade. 

First day of college
Yes, she got in.
But she spent all her time studying
and in her work she was up to her chin
Couple of years later, she got her biology degree.
and at her workplace, she met a guy
Who was oh-so-handsome
and gave her butterflies.
They got together
they hooked up.
But he left in the morning
so she bought the baby up.


She struggled her entire life
and she almost gave it up
But the thing that made it worth it?
Getting to bring her baby up!
It was a girl.
She was beautiful. 
She was funny
she was youthful
She cared for the child.
and the child cared for her.
The were together
and she finnaly thought:
"That was worth it."

I DREAMT THAT MY CLASS WAS IN THE HUNGER GAMES.

"I'm in an abusive relationship with life,
and I'm too cowardly to leave it."
 - Homer Simpson

*a couple of days ago*


Me: *broken down crying*

New girl: "Oh stop your tears you little *****. Everyone's got a little drama going on in their lives, and you're using it as an excuse to have a cry. Now ******* stop crying you *******  ***hole."

Friend 1: "Everyone gets to have a cry now and then. She's upset and she's just reacting in a diffrent way then you would."

New Girl: "Yeah, but the stares it's getting the class, it's ridiculous. She reminds me of me when I was 7, but I have since grown up, and I am mature enough to realise that crying is a bad bad thing and should not be done at all. She's just annoying, and I don't need the judgement from everyone else here."

Friend 2: "Just stop being mean to her. She's going through a really rough time."

New girl: :"Oh please. She's always so happy and ****, she can't be. If she was going through that much ****, then she would'nt act like it., she would not be singing 24/7, she would'nt be doing all those stupid skits and impressions in drama."

Me: *gets up* "Today's the second day you've been in our class. You've never had a good conversation with me, you don't know me, my presonality. You don't know the other side of me. You don't know the other side, the other side that cries herself to sleep every night. The other side that might not have any scars on her wrists, but an uncountable number on her heart. The side whose mother is very sick and goes into hospital roughly once a season, the side who can't play sports because she has horrible co-ordination, the side who gets bullied for being happy, the side who had no self-esteem at the age of seven, the side who sings so often because music was there for me when nobody else was. Never underestimate the power of an actress."

Stars
can't
shine
without
darkness
and
You're
one of
the
brightest
I can't
live
without
you
I don't
even
want to
think
about
it.
<3

Look at the top left corner. It's the first verse of a song I wrote, and I hope you like.
(nmf)