DiaryOfDepression

Have you ever been
in one of those moods where you just want to grab everything
and rip it from the walls and break everything
because you feel broken and you want to scream and kick and cry
because nothing feels right and it’s all wrong
and you don’t feel right and
i don’t know anymore.

WHEN I GET SAD

  I TEND TO GET REALLY REALLY QUIET
   MAYBE,
    A WORD OR TWO COMES OUT OF MY MOUTH
      BUT THAT'S IT
        THE SILENCE LETS ME THINK OF MY MISTAKES
           AND JUST KILLS ME ON THE INSIDE

I wonder what it’s like
being the pretty girl.
The girl that breaks all the guys’ necks
when she passes by.
The girl that can wake up and go to school
without even trying.
The girl that everyone wants to be their friend.
The girl that a lot of people like.
The girl with such an amazing personality
that everyone wants to talk to her and be her friend.
Yeah, I wonder what it’s like
being that kind of girl...
 

It’s difficult liking someone.
Because sometimes, you don’t know if they have
feelings for you or not.
They’d send you all of these mixed signals
that’ll eventually just confuse the heck out of you.
You’re sitting there just trying to figure them out for yourself.
Then you have all these things you’re urging to tell them,
including how you really feel,
but you don’t know how to put them into words.
I hate liking someone, cause once you’re attached,
it’s as if your whole life revolves around them.