DieiSomnians

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Joined: July 26, 2013
Last Seen: 5 years
user id: 367408
Gender: F
 
Hello, 
I'm not going to tell you my name, 
You can just call me Diei.
One thing, I am an active day dreamer. 
It takes up most of my day,
Also, 
I go to a super small charter school.
there are only about 16 students in my grade. 
People call my group of friends "the nerds" and I think thats really sad
considering one of us is failing almost every class.
I am kind of smart, I get refered to as the "Head-Nerd"
I honestly love the look the teachers give me when I get the answer to a question that was suppose to be really hard, seconds after they ask it.
I enjoy the simple things in life:
I.e. Knitting, reading, nature etc...
I come from a very redneck family, and even though I don't mind getting dirty it is not how i want to spend my day most of the time. 
I babysit all the time, small children are absolutely my life! 
(No, i do not want to have a baby right now, let me finish high school first!)
And well I guess that's me. 

 

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Why does this always happen? Why ddoes everyone leave me? Is it what I do, is it who I am, am I not good enough?

This always happens....
When you are so confused about life
you tend to push people away
but you don't realize
you need us.
I wasted a year on someone
I knew I had no future with
I know I'd drop everything.
If someone told me you were coming.

I didn't fall instantly,
I fell slowly in love.
Colliding my heart
against my rib cage,
in slow motion 
just like in movies.
Except those people
fall instantly in love.
No, I fell in love slowly,
in a sweet spring,
that was yet so suffocating. 
I fell slowly in love, 
never on the ground, 
always with you.

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Wow, another poem written. Different format for now, it'll always be the same, just this is the exception.


But yesterday,
my heart moved for the first time in weeks. The body's little organs
fluttered enough to send missionaries up my bones and alert me
that I was blushing — that the heart was beating for someone else —

that the familiar figure who walked into the room and barely
looked me in the eye,

was enough to make all the stones nestled in the bottom of my
stomach turn over in their seats.





I remember a time when I was so happy.
I wasn't dealing with low self esteem or overthinking things.
I was just happy.
I guess it is true,
"Ignorance is bliss"






 




You Say Im Crazy
Cause You Don't Think I Know What You've 
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but i dont want a good girl, no not today

I turn 20 in just two days. That's crazy to think about. Because time seems to have gone by so quickly. And I only remember so much of the last 20 years of my life. I hate knowing that the older I get the faster time will fly. It's a concept I'd prefer not to have to face. Thinking about certain past events does cause feelings of nostalgia to emerge, and that much is alright. What bothers me is how quickly time seems to have gone by. I find it hard to wrap my mind around it. So I push those thoughts to the back of my mind. Though that's easier said than done. Maybe starting to work harder at living day by day and moment to moment would make those thoughts easier to embrace. I don't know. But maybe I should just work harder at doing so just to see what happens.