Dotty

fallin for the most amazing guy!! and getting him and then asking yourself why is he with me when he could have any girl he wants then thinking you know what i dont care he's mine thats all that matters

Eveyone telling me im better then this i deserve better but thinking do i really yeah he cheated on me do i really deserve better though or do i really deserve worse i've been hit by guys before i wouldnt blame him if he wanted to hit me aswell. everyone telling me im such a great person and that i need to dump him crying myself to sleep just wanting the cold blade the run of blood. Just wanting to cry yell scream kick hit anything but keeping the calm face on for everyones sake to be supportive. <3

i wish for the cold blade and red blood to spill once again all i need is the release of pain and agony i feel i need but do i thinks its best i dont know but i feel the need of self harm to calm me to the person i was before all of this happened

Wanting to scream and yell and cry but only being able to sit there staring because you dont know what else to do because you love him but you love the other one and dont want to hurt him either

i cry myself to sleep day by day wishing you would understand just how much i love you i cry myself to sleep because you tell me we are just friends and that you love me like that and when i get a boyfriend i cry because you turn around and tell me you love me and always have and now all i want is to let my blood run lay down fall asleep and never wake up again <3 sincerly the fact that i chased you then stopped and now your probably wishing i had of caught you <3