Failure*

My depression wants me to die
but my anxiety is afraid to go.
 

This is not how I thought my life would look like.
I know i could go to you, make thousand of promises, 
but would the outcome be any different? 
I don't want to hurt you anymore. 
I hate to let you go.
I love you.
 

I felt so good leaving but- 
did it hurt when no one 
fought to make you stay? 
Sorry little lion cub.

What even makes a friend? 
someone who stays? 
no.

I'd write you everyday and remind you how much I love you. 
would it change anything.
if you knew how much I wanted you back.   
would you let me come back home.
let me love you again. 
i miss you.
 

how do you fix what is broken 
after all these years. 
it should be easier.

I'm always going to come back 
I'm always going to need you 
don't you see that? 

He is my love 
so bite me 
I will say his name.

this is the first time in my life 
I'm scared of you leaving me. 

My only goal in my life
is to love him
for the rest
of my
life.