Failure*

burn your tongue on a cup of tea.
eat too much chocolate. cry for a
few hours, or cry for a few days. it's
okay to make mistakes and it's okay
to not be okay; you will always
learn how to heal.

sometimes i wonder
whether or not i'll
get bad again. and
whether or not i'll
get better again.

i was so sad and angry and tired and all i wanted was to be held but there was nothing but silence and four walls staring at me begrudgingly, saying "it shouldn't be like this, you didn't plan it like this, did you?" and i wanted to crawl into a hole but the floor was too cold so i stayed under the covers and dreamed that i was somewhere warm where none of my problems existed and it was like this that i finally learned how to survive on my own.

he told me years ago,
"But any guy who becomes interested in you
and doesn't notice your beautiful smile
isn't worth your time."

But I'm holding you closer than most
'cause you are my heaven

I am convinced that different people bring out different sides of you

The worst part of holding the memories is not the pain. It’s the loneliness of it. Memories need to be shared.



 

i feel like i'm holding my breath

6 clean months gone

i just wanna be happy again