Failure*

I really want to see you, one last time.
I just wanna know why you lied.

I don't do well with liars
they take all my air.
 

I can hardly breathe.
you left me breathless

 I can see this unraveling
oh sweetie it already did.
enjoy the fall...

Honestly death would be the better
option right now rather than facing
all these problems on my own.

I'm horrible at taking tests
and starting conversations
and right now it's 4 A.M.
on a school night
and I can't fall asleep
because I'm so scared that
loving you was the only thing
that I've ever been good at and
I couldn't even do that right.
 

"Remember the time I said, 'God, I'm ready to die'?
Remember the time I said, 'God, just take my life'?
Remember the time that I cried every single night
And every thought about myself was out of spite?"

on the bright side i'm not addicted to cocaine

you were not wrong for leaving
you were wrong for coming back and thinking you could have me when it was convienent and leave when it was not.