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Happy Birthday To Me(:

OH MY GOD GUYS SHANE IS HERE FOR TWO WEEKS ! I am so excited. I want to hang out with him. If you don't know who shane is then here is a little bio about him:

      Only witty knows about this so shhhhh got to keep it on the down low....Shane is a kid that I have been madly in love with for the longest time. He just came out that he was gay but there is a part of me that will always have feelings for him. Shane and I have had some good times and this summer better be good(:

Being Single For Sixteen Years Really Sucks.
I am alone and it seems no one wants me...hmmm. Don't know how much longer I can last.

Guess what....You broke my heart by playing when I told you how I felt about you....you started dating this girl and I didn't like her but then you guys broke and I realized she is a funny girl...and the truth is you don't deserve her because you're cocky and only think of yourself...And guess what I am going to talk to your ex girlfriend and make her my best friend because I know it will kill you.....Paybacks a bi***

All I want to do is tell you how I feel but something tells me that if I do say something you aren't going to feel the same about me....All my friends tell me I should just tell you but I don't have the courage...So I am just going to write on here.

So there is this boy and I have a crush on him and not because of his looks but because he is great with kids and his personality is so bright...I hope someday that he realizes I like him and maybe want to talk to me...I make it obvious that I like him but he doesn't get the hint. Boys are clueless. People tell me that he likes me because when he sees me he changes his tone in the way he talks and just the look on his face....well listen I go to see him at work and I watch him and see how great he is with kids...I don't know what to say to him and I don't want to make a fool of myself so I don't want to go anymore because my family makes fun of me...They know why I go to his work area I lie and say it's to see my cousin do Tao Kwon Do....but it's just to see if he will realize I am in the crowd and most of the time I catch him looking at me and I smile because I think maybe he likes me....but then when I go home I start thinking that he could never like me because I am ME. Girls want him because he is just so amazing and I don't want to set myself up....Help me D:

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Hello

My name is Emilee and I have recently stopped caring what people think of me. To be honest no one is my true friend anymore. Everyone one of them have talked about me behind my back. I might have one or two that haven't talk stuff. I have also recently started swearing more and more. Idgaf anymore. I have lost all the people that I have cared most about. They have all up and left me to fend for myself. I know everything happens for a reason. Wanna know why I am never happy? Because my life is screwed up. I am losing my grandpa to cancer. I no longer want anything to do with him because he has cut me out of his life. I am losing friends left and right. I know my life isn't as bad as some people out there, but I am still unhappy.
My family means the world to me. I would do anything for them. I walk around with a FAKE smile. I have changed over the last few years. I have grown up. I have a god daughter that I need to take care of. I  need to be responsible. I need to be a role model for my little cousins/sister. I lie about me being okay truth is most of the time something is bothering me, could be a little thing like I failed a test or something.  I am here for anyone that needs help. uhm I can have fun without drinking and smoking. I WILL NEVER IN MY LIFE SMOKE OR DO DRUGS. those are not for me.
Okayy well thanks for reading this....bye.

Man I love Lil Wayne /Eminem/  T-Pain/ Kid Cudi /Taylor Swift/ Justin Bieber/ Rhianna/ Beyonce/ Katy Perry/ Lady Gaga/ Ke$ha/ Black Eyed Peas/ Nevershoutnever/ Dot dot curve/ New Boyz/ Soulja Boy/ Bruno Mars/ B.O.B


well what I am trying to say is that music makes my lifee....(:

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