Erikaax143

I’m sorry I’m not good enough.
I’m sorry I’m not as attractive.
I’m sorry that I’m not like others.
I’m sorry I’m not as nice.
I’m sorry I’m not as popular.
I’m sorry I’m not as smart.
I’m sorry that I’m not able to do anything.
I’m sorry I am so worthless.
I’m sorry that I will never be good enough.
 

It’s difficult liking someone.
Because sometimes, you don’t know if they have
feelings for you or not.
They’d send you all of these mixed signals
that’ll eventually just confuse the heck out of you.
You’re sitting there just trying to figure them out for yourself.
Then you have all these things you’re urging to tell them,
including how you really feel,
but you don’t know how to put them into words.
I hate liking someone, cause once you’re attached,
it’s as if your whole life revolves around them.

You know what sucks?
When you have hope to be with somebody
for the longest time, and they tell you it’s not going to
workout, then your feelings and hope is just crushed
horribly. It sucks to hear it from that person
but if you heard it from somebody else,
it wouldn’t have hurt as much.
It sucks .
 

At night,
I lay here, with my mind cluttered with emotions.
I’m unable to process my life through my head,
so how am I supposed to move on with life in the real world?
Thoughts of that one lover I can’t forget,
thoughts of life and death,
thoughts of my family & friends unable to leave my mind.
For hours and hours at night, I ask my self “what ifs”.
What if I never did this, or that.
What if I never met this person?
Would my life be better?
I’m so lost.
And the thing is,
I’m lost in my own mind.