EvenMoreInLoveWithYou

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Joined: February 24, 2012
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Quotes by EvenMoreInLoveWithYou

If god is watching us,
the least we can do is be entertaining.
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With or without your consent,
everything changes.
Go with it!
Make the best of it.
And always remember:
The best is yet to come.
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Old routine was getting boring:
the scissors; they took too much effort
and the cuts weren't near clean enough.
Sewing needles? Not enough damage.
I needed something new.

I fought with my razor,
cutting at the plastic encasing the blade.
It splintered;
shards of white and green littering my bed.
I didn't give up; I had to get it out.

Unprepared and a novice,
I didn't just have packs of blades lying around as some do;
this was my only option and eventually it paid off.
There I sat,
with the cold steel between my fingers.

Upper arm was the carefully chosen location;
easy to hide beneath a t-shirt
with no need for suspicious long sleeves.
I pressed the blade against the flesh,
digging in deep and running it across.

Blood came to the surface immediately;
the skin split like I'd used a scalpel,
reminiscent of a scene from a medical drama.
The crimson pooled and ran like rainwater
down the side of my arm, dripping onto my sheets.

Not an expert when it came to anatomy,
I didn't know what I'd done.
Were there veins up there to hit?
Was I going to bleed out?
How would I stop it?

Tissue wasn't working; I'd gone through a roll already.
The white towel was already stained red
and the wound wasn't scabbing over.
Tears lined my eyes and I began to panic.
What was my dad going to think?

My secret was surely going to be revealed
whether I lived to tell the tale or not.
The blood just wouldn't stop and I was terrified.
Through familiarity with other methods,
I hadn't realized I needn't press on so hard.

I lay down.
I cried,
I bled,
I fell asleep.

In the morning I awoke;
the scare was over,
but years later I'm left with an unexplainable scar,
that is different to the rest.

 

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I see her now,
happier than she's ever been,
smiling a beautiful smile,
something I've rarely seen.
I know, as I watch her,
she is finally where she belongs.
She said she'd never get there
but I know that she's gone home.
She was never happy here,
in this I know I'm right.
She felt so out of place,
she had to take her life.

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I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything.

 

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I'm sorry you have to see me this way
I never intended to end today
but my impulses had another plan.
Tell my daddy to be a strong man
for all of my brothers and baby sisters.
Tell those little girls not to miss their sister.
I'm telling you now please don't cry,
I know you knew someday I'd die.
Yeah, it's not supposed to be this way,
yet you're still watching my life ebb away.
I was broken and sick but now I'm home
I'm going to heaven, off this path I won't roam.
I'm sorry you have to see me this way
just know I'm going home today.
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I knew you'd hurt me,
but I let myself fall anyway. :/


 

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Star shine, star bright,
when I go to sleep tonight,
wish me well, help me fight,
get me through the day all right.

Star shine, star Bright,
Will I ever see the light?
Will i ever learn to fight?
Star shine, save my life.

Star shine, star bright,
I am flying like a kite,
over the sea's, through the night,
Star shine, lead me right.

Star shine, star bright,
when I go to sleep at night,
Lead me forward, guiding light,
shining star, shine so bright.
 

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I've decided
to do nothing today. I know, that's what I did yesterday, but
I wasn't finished!

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Imagine
my disappointment when I joined the dark side,
only to find out that they lied about the cookies...

 

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