EverydayVillian

Preivously on; Teen Wolf is over and I don't think i can wait till season 5 my life sucks right now.
 

I Feel Like I Am About To Make A Big Mistake.

so last night, i had this really intense dream about an old friend. i wanted to kiss this person really badly, like i dont even know why. we barely speak or see eachother and it just came out of no where.
my boyfriend and i are a few weeks away from out 6 months which is pretty big for me considering i have commintment issues and he is offically my longest relationship.
I don't know why this guy slipped into my mind.

Maybe she's just insercure.
Did you ever stop and think that.
jerk face

 whether its evolution or god, life is still kinda weird. Like really what is our purpose for being alive? why are some people born with defects, or why do people get diseases.
Why? why is it the sun is our day  and the moon is our night? why not reverse? why are we a society of followers? why does some make decision on who we can marry? why Can't two people regardless of gender get married and start a family? I don't understand why money controls everything. I don't understand why a lot of things are decided by other people.
I DON'T UNDERSTAND LIFE!

I feel like my boyfriend doesn't even want me anymore. I feel that our intimate moments are forced by me and he just doesnt want to hurt me by saying no.
maybe i'm just insecure or paranoid but it feels like i'm not good enough for him, that's what hurts the most.