EyesOpen

I fall too hard and too fast. I wish, I  

wish I could control my feelings.  ~ ~   

You need to do the right things not say the right things.

Sometimes
I think you're an amazing person.
But then
you do that thing where you prove me wrong.

Why. Why must boys be so confusing? I say "boys"
because they keep proving how they're not yet (if ever they will be) men. I don't even know anymore who to believe. I want someone real. With a good heart. Good ideas. Good sense of humor. Just simple things. I can't find any anywhere though so what I need right now is a cat. And an open schedule. To watch Netflix.

"I did not slap you! I simply


high-fived your face."

When an attractive person walks in the room:

Me: I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing.

I don't know what's happening.
All around me people are changing and becoming evil.
And judgemental.
And selfish.
And cruel.
And heartless.
And ignorant.
And nothing is the same anymore.
What happened world?
What went wrong?
Where?

My head says no, but my heart says yes, yes, yes.
Which do I listen to? Should I chance getting hurt? I don't know. I always tust my instincts; but you've made them malfunctional. I love you. Tell you? Hide it? I don't know. Anything. 

So Im not in a good mood. That doesnt mean you need to pet me. Petting will not solve anything. It will just result in you with a broken nose, or any body part thats in my reach. So therefore, when Im upset, dont pet me. Dont touch my head, my arm, or my face. A hug? Maybe. Saying sweet things? Maybe. Saying something funny? Maybe. So no more petting, K?

More than friends
Less than a couple.
Forever in love
Not meant to be.

Best friends forever.
Lost without each other.
Forever in love
Not meant to be.

Not really a writer
This is my heart.
He is special.
Different than the others.