they say i'm a gypsy, i sing and i
steal.
but stealing ain't funny & singing's for real
you can't call me crazy, can't know how i feel.
so i'll just make music all day.
turn up the light's and i'll strike up the band!
you know what i'm not, but i know who i
am.
i'm no body's slave & i'm not body's man.
so i'll just make music all day!
on and on, they'll say were wrong.
but staying gold, mean's being strong!
if waiting for me mean's way too long
then i'll be your's today.
caught up in color's, and shade's of a time.
when everything made, much more sense when it rhymed!
i'm closing the case, on a cold hearted crime.
so i can make music all day!
you taught me to fight and you taught me to fly.
i learned how to lose ambition's, and cry.
i left what i lost & never second guessed why.
so i'll just make music all day!
on and on, they'll say were wrong.
but staying gold, mean's being strong!
if waiting for me mean's way too long
then i'll be your's today.
na na na na na na na na na.
then i'll be your's today.
(Jacob Hoggard - Gyspy Song)
♥
maybe
it's time to change
> > and leave it all behind.
i've never been one to walk alone, i've always been
scared to try.
( so why does it feel so wrong? )
to reach for something m o r e.
i want to live a better life!
what am i waiting for?
cause nothing stay's the same.
so maybe it's time to c h a n g e.
dear mother,
i hope you hear the pain and suffering in my voice when i say i
hate you. some one told me that you have to feel love before you
can feel hate, but the truth is i do love you. and i will always
love you because you brought me into this world, and gave me the
thing's i needed to make it some where in this cruel world.
but the one thing you never gave me was love, something i've
been deprived of all my life. each day is a constant struggle for
me, going to school to find myself surrounded with people who
either hate me for who i am or love me for the person i pretend
to be. i try to block out their words as they mock me, holding
back tear's and forcing on a smile. i take the cold silent
walk home to find someone else yelling at me, to hear you're
words in the back of my mind. telling me that i'm useless,
and i was a mistake to you, that i was your biggest regret. you
beat me, and blame me and put me through thing's a child
should never have to go through. you laugh at the scar's on
my wrists, and the burn's placed on my arms. you mock me for
the tear's in my eyes, and the story behind them. you lock me
in my room, with no choice but to cry and drag a blade across my
wrist. you make me feel worthless, like i have no place in this
world. like i don't belong, i will never be loved and i will
never be something to someone. you laugh as you abuse me, hitting
me over and over until you finally give up and stare at me
blankly. i'm holding onto nothing, but i'm too scared to
leave. you ignore the abuse, the lies and the pain. put on your
make up and act like it's all gone away, so remember the
word's in my voice, when i tell you i hate you.
sincerely, your un-loved and un-wanted daughter.